Hi all call me a newbie coz I am back to revisit this addiction again. I have battled with my nicotine addiction for two years now and am ashamed that I am back asking for help again because I succumbed to the cigarette. life throws some curve balls at us I guess and this time I was not up to the challenge, this happened 10 months ago then 6 months ago I was diagnosed with cancer. Now this addiction has to go! I have set my realistic date for my partners birthday March 13, I have cut right back to 3-4 a day over the last two weeks and am feeling very good about that. I am going to need all the help I can get on this journey which is why I have come to here. I am unable to go to far at the moment as driving is not an option and I live in a small country town with lots of smoking friends!! It is nice to be able to be at home and have the support of a site like this where we are all on the same page of trying to live without cigarettes. I wish everyone else the strength to succeed and for myself I also need to find much strength to succeed in this journey.
Hi all, wow I am so proud of myself I am really doing this and although I still would love a ciggy especially in the morning I will not. i feel so good physically not all tired and clogged up with toxins but I still have my moments and they are not nice but they are passing more quickly, thank you quitline for all the tools you have provided. I do have one question, I put a patch on my upper leg in the front and have had a red circle there for a week. It has slowly lessened over the weekend but was a little worrisome when it was still really red and raised on day four. i did go done to our local smoking nurse to ask her about it she was not sure if maybe it was a funny batch or not. that has been the only worrying thing that has happened with them so all good. must add they are the high dose patch, was wondering if anyone else had experienced this. good on everyone for living the smokefree life it is certainly the beast option for this girl.
hi all, haven't been here for a couple of days because with the money i saved in the first two weeks i bought a cornet off trademe, its kinda similar to a trumpet. it is the best destress for this kid, and it gives all my friends and family a good chuckle at my ineptitude when trying to buzz a note, thank goodness our neighbours are not to close by. i am feeling better this week, the despair and tears of last week have receded, still feeling anxious tho' specially when smoking friends arrive. that is why the cornet is good, we are all alittle bit musical, so they appreciate the addition of another instrument, also it takes the conversationfocus off, hows the not smoking
thank you for the encouragment, it is the best having this blog site to go to. all you other newby non-smlokers out there, stay strong. i have begun to look ahead with my smoking goals, as up to know it was pretty much a day 2 day vision which has slowly turned into weeks. i was thinking about xmas today (eeek) which brought a smile to face as i thought about how much better i will be feeling then and how happy everyone will be that i have made the six month mark. that is my long term vision, the daily ecounter with temptation is another thing.@*#&$^% i read the blogs everyday and they really do help so much, i'm still abit self absorbed to reply to anyone yet but i wish you all every encouragment and keep on going with the smokefree lifestyle, it's gotta be good for you :) :) :) :) :)
transitioning ain't easy
evening everyone, amazingly i have survived yet another day without the ciggys.!!!! well done for me. weekends certainly are my test, friends come over, kids seem to multiply and stress sets in, a ciggy was my way of detaching for five minutes which destressed me, now i have no valid excuse to go outside and chill. i really need to make new patterns, i tried this today and it felt funny. i went outside but in a differnt place and got myself relaxed, it felt rather funny, but guess what i felt betta than i used to after a ciggy, so why do i still crave one!!! silly human i am being addicted to death and disease.
transitioning ain't easy
Day 18 and Yay still no foul toxin smoke has entered my lungs, well done for me. i wish it was not quite such a fulltime battle, fighting within myself for healh over yukk and foul smells is no easy thing, in fact for me it is down right confusing. yesterday was not too bad, but i am feeling abit weak on the willpower today. its that weekend thing, friends call in, alot of them smoke, especially the girls i notice. be back later for an update. i will be strong!!
Hi all, another day begins, number 17* i am pleased to say i am feeling pretty OK at the moment, which is 100% better than i felt yesterday. My patient non smoking partner came home from work all happy as we were going out for dinner, there was i crying. he gave me a cuddle n got me laughing at myself and the abursidity of the situation. this transition to health and wellness sure is a learning curve for everyone invovled about human nature and the habits of an addiction.
Transition Day 16
Thanks for the blogs everyone, it is good to know that the sadness and tears are part of the process, was starting to think i was losing the plot. I was prepared for the irritabilty and shortness of temper, but the tears over something that is so toxic is bizzare. My friends and family are really supportive and i love them for their patience and understanding it is not an easy transition for all involved. keeping an eye on the money i have saved is an eyeopener and a good incentive to carry on through this intial confusion. i will keep on keeping on as 16 days toxin free is to much to lose, i do not want to experience the feelings of the last couple of weeks ever again. i keep telling myself that these feeling wont last forever and cant wait for the healthyness and happiness of being a nonsmoker.
Tranistion 16 days
yah, i'm really happy that i am past 14 days as that has been my longest smokefree period over the last two years that i have been trying to quit. I am not craving them, thank you patches, but physically and mentally i feel terrible. I am proud that i am smokefree but i am also feeling very sad. The patches are wonderful in that i dont crave cigarettes and tones down the irritability, but this sadness i feel like somebody has passed away is very draining. hopefully these feelings will pass and by next week i hope to feel better. i am hanging in there JUST!