still going strong
well im still going strong, even thru my partner and I decided to take a healing separation...so i been under little bit of stress and more to come and frankly i did think about having a smoke but thought the only person i will hurt is me... and this separation is about me and learning to love me etc... so i went nah don't need that to make me feel better. so proud at mo...
thanks for listening
anxiety still high
well up to 4 weeks went cold turkey and the funny thing is this is the 1st time i have properly quit every other time i cheated or cut down also no real planning either, and so proud of myself as i don't want a smoke just miss it sometimes like losing a close friend guess thats the grieving phrase seems silly but after 13years together im leaving it behind. only issue i have at mo is still the anxiety and sleep problems, i can actually get to sleep but don't stay asleep at night... also the tensing of the feet and calves but i don't even want to go back as im loving the new feelings big thing i noticed was the smell oh my i love the smell of things especially herbs/ spices as i love to cook. so hopefully sleep goes to normal might c doctor as i do suffer anxiety attacks before so may need some help? but i think it the best decision i made.
well day 9 and iam just having a bad moment, don't want to have a smoke but feel so wound up and stressed for no reason.. im not going to give in but hard at mo... work is stressful at mo and i can't be bothered there, at least i have heaps of support....yay...
the beginning of the best
well last time i had nicotine was sunday morning.. had started last few weeks that i add to my tobacco the honey rose non nicotine stuff that is marshmellow leaf and red clover flowers but come sunday i had run out of nicotine tobacco so decided as had no money to go without and with not much planning i decided that's it i don't want to be chained to this habit. I have awesome support all around me, no one at work smokes and one of the workers just quit few weeks ago so hes been awesome only thing is we sell smokes but i just look at how much money gets handed over for smokes and what i could buy for it, my first price or reward is going to be a replacement of ipod.. as music helps me. except tonight when i can't sleep but holding on and feeling great for it,,,, find the craving only last a few minutes sometime only seconds and they are getting better and im able to breathe thru it which is great