Yeah its friday
Howdie hoo mungbeans,
Its friday thank goodness hanging out for the weekend and next tuesday.
Went out for lunch yesterday was lovely, did suck on a lozenge after the meal but all was well.
Cant believe it was 9 weeks yesterday still a bit shell shocked that its gone so fast and that Im actually doing this.
There have definetly been moments but whats the point?! I would be back to day 1, dealing with the cravings left right & center. I would stink, my hair would be smelly and I would feel like rubbish.
Things Ive noticed since quitting are:
my nails, omg how they have grown
my skin, is clearer
my breathing is normal, no more wezzing and panting when I go to bed
food, tastes better
I have more time for other things now
The list goes on but thats the things I have noticed & discovered more.
This journey is a personal one and everyone deals and goes thru things differently but we all want the same outcome to beat this addiction and be smokefree.
I look at non smokers (those that have never smoked) and wonder what they think when they hear us trying to quit go on about stuff. They dont have a clue really do they. But as a quit family we all know what its like and support each other and I thank you for always supporting me and having my back thru each and every attempt Ive made.
Better get back to work, sooo busy.
Take care all :)
9 weeks today, i woke up and nearly forgot lol.
Im taking that as a good sign as not constantly thinking of it.
Off out to lunch with work today, strange after such a long time working for small companies now im with a big one how they look after their staff a real difference.
Last day of school my son is so excited. He needs the break like wr all do.
Well sorry jst a quick one racing out the door in a sec.
Have a great day all xx
Happy hump day all
Wednesday middle of the week so hump day. So Im not being rude LOL
Feeling good, no itchy hair did another treatment last night couldnt handle it knowing that it was going on. Then straightened my hair and this morning so my hair looks longer LOL
My son finishes school tomorrow he cant wait told me this morning "7 sleeps Mum" what for I asked "Santa". Oh think he will come? "Ive been really trying to be good Mummy" soooo cute.
I really just want to finish work and go on break Im tired and just want to hang out at home doing gardening etc Tuesday seems so far away.
Off out to lunch tomorrow with the ladies at work, managers & GM. So that will be yummy.
My step 2 patches seem to be doing ok no major cravings etc which is good. Feel so much better than I did the other day I think everything happened at once and I was overwhemed and the demon was trying to get back into my life. Naff Off !!!!
He hasnt turned up since then LOL
Well i better carry on, just want to go on holiday I think everyone is feeling like that.
Have a good one :)
Feeling a bit more at ease today.
Breathing slower & feel more at peace.
Looking at my son today you would never know yesterday happened. He had a great sleep & is enjoyiing fun day @ school.
My hair is still there (well obviously LOL) but Im paranoid about it.
I have long hair half way down my back and today is tyed on the top of my hair as Im scared people might see something.
Its not as itchy as yesterday still there but trying not to touch.
Combed it thru this morning which is a nightmare with the length of it I swear I will be bald as the comb rips it out even with conditioner.
Will go to chemist after work as I need to get my next lot of patches and will see if there is anything else. But honestly we have been thru everything.
I might try the straighteners on it as someone mentioned. I stopped straighting it to give my hair a break.
Well better go back to work as busy busy just hanging out for next week
it jst had to happen ...
to top off my day and I wouldn't normally tell but
I have head lice!!!!!
my son class is constantly having them my son has them on and off but never me but yes tonight while doing the treatment I found them I burst into tears.
can't wait for today to end :(
phone call at 2pm from school.
went down asthma and croup.
so over it.
we both work, trying to get ahead and juggle everything.
I had Friday off re sick son now today.
I have no sick leave cos I used it over the past.
at this time of yr its hard.
went and got ice blocks at dairy as I know it helps his throat and helps with temp the guy instantly got smoked out I said no but I had a spilt second where I thought yes!!!!
I'm pushed to the end of my rope at this moment.
I'm hanging on by my teeth
tricking over it all.
yes I know a smoke won't help. and I'm not p,banning on it but man its solo tempting
Yip 60 days and the last 24hrs I have had those thoughts of smoking.
Ignoring but why now????
Its hard and I refuse to give in but they keep coming and bomarding me.
Lozenges, 4d's and willpower is keeping me afloat but wish they would disappear as fast as they came.
My son has asthma today had to give him steriods before school. Poor wee guy as soon as the weather changes he gets it.
Hes only got a couple of days left then hes on school break.
The school havent rung so thats a good sign.
Maybe with all the stress of my son on friday and now this is what is causing my smoking thoughts :(
Went to a bbq last night and OMG my partner and I had to hold our tongues.
There was a woman there would didnt care what she said constantly picked on my son and one other for no reason at all.
Went on about blondes "hello im a blonde" Im proud of being blonde and Im not dittzy or stupid!
We left quickly as I was about to errupt!
Rude as she doesnt even know us and she wasnt a perfect little woman I must say. She knew the answer to everything and let everyone know her grandson was better than my son.
My son ate 3 strawberries and she said "you realise there are other people here" while her grandson ate 6 eggs and there were only 8 on the plate.
Sorry to go on about it but over it! I didnt want to say anything to her as I didnt want to upset my friend whos bbq it was.
She popping over with my plates etc and I dont know if I should say something or not as she knew something was bothering us.
Anyway better finish lunch and carry on. Take care all.
I just want next tuesday to come round when I finish work maybe then I will feel better.
I feel in the last few days my happy mood has gone out the window
hi de hi quitters
58 days today and feeling better today.
my son hasn't had any nose bleeds today which is great.
have had a day of visitors today sat 2x with smokers all OK. I'm sure calling quit line yesterday has helped my frame of mind.
yesterday went to step 2 patches and no issues so far.
little steps and still taking it slowly as I know how easy it is to slip and relapse.
my 21yr niece called in and she's a smoker we had a talk re quitting her man has recently quit she's not ready is planning on cutting down. so yacking to her about it all was good and I felt I didn't preach either lol.
well better go find my son he's at the neighbours playing.
have a good night all :)
I just rung quit line for some reassurance that I am normal and its OK to be feeling like I do.
I can't get the lady's name but she was lovely and let me waffle on and totally made me feel OK about things.
after discussing things I got off the phone happy about my progress. sometimes it just feels a little overwhelming and that also out of the blue thoughts appear.
but I knew it was normal but needed to hear it
my step dad is going into hospital today for stent re his prostate cancer, next Tuesday my real dad goes in for another bypass.
both ex smokers not sure if there is a connection?
also this will be my first smoke free Xmas ever in 20 odd yes!!!!
well off to get my son to doc as his nose is still bleeding :(
hanks quit line your advice has helped me so much xx
it just never ends
last night our neighbours decided to start house renovations at 10pm.
at nearly 11 my partner went over as none of us could sleep, even the dog was crying.
they were not happy but stopped with the electric sander.
aahhh quiet then they started vacuuming and then banging.
then 4 this morning I woke to "mum mum I need a tissue" I thought omg lazy boy went into his room full on bleeding nose all over him, thru this bed.
have about 3 more after coming into my bed.
just got ready for work and away it went again. so in total he's had about 6 so off to doc ltr as I want to make sure there's nothing serious.
will get a medical cert and drop into work I always feel bad taking the day off especially when its so busy.
but I will breathe, keep calm and carry on.