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2Sep2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

10 Days

Wow I hardly believe it.Been trying to figure out whats happened or different to enable me to stop unowot 10 days ago.Maybe I just had enuff ?.I felt prompted to just give up the battle ,I think my HP has been with me in a way I don't remember before.I have the occasional thawt that hopefully I wont do anything silly to inadvertently endanger my progress.
I know stay in the moment ,one step at a time and KISS, me that is.ha

Profile image guzzigirl1 day ago

sounds like you were really ready this time and that your health has motivated you excellent enjoy the freedom of being smoke free woohoo :)

Profile image Nana221 day ago

Congratulations on your well earned double digits. Exactly KISS (although i feel mean putting that last s ). I think we reach a point that we're just really ready to throw everything at this and make it stick. This is that time for you.

Profile image JohnnyRED1 day ago

I reckon it just gets easier the more you try so keep up the good work :)

1Sep2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

9 days

Seems a bit unreal really .Im just doin it one day at a time and so far so good.Had the occasional thawts about unowot today and yesterday ,but nothing too difficult.Maybe the ecigs stopping me having cravings I don't know ,I always had horrible cravings any other time ive tried no matter what else I was using .Im just grateful its ok this time,im hoping that in a week or so I can start getting off the ecig too,but that's not todays issue.Ive been putting myself first and avoiding other peoples drama,im doing whatever ive gotta do ,and I do feel much calmer in myself so must be working.

Profile image Arria2 days ago

Good stuff fagoff! Keep taking one day at a time and absolutely, stay away from any drama that could bring you down. You are going so well :)

Profile image Nana221 day ago

Great work fagoff, that's the way. Maybe your'e just in a better place and more determined this time and it is a great idea to let others sort their own dramas in order for you to stay focused on what you need to do. Yay double digits for you tomorrow. Keep up the fantastic work.

Profile image fagoff1 day ago

Thanx guys.

Profile image nga1 day ago

Thats the way spiritual growth and takng care of your own physical and mental well-being. An important part of the serious business of recovery involves recognizing our need to have fun too make a noise, race down the street, blow bubbles. Light-heartedness will make you feel good.

31Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

8 days

And going good ,had a few thawts about unowot yesterday,but nothing too serious.I did laugh too myself at one point .I stopped my car at a shop and as I was getting out a ciggy I must have dropped rolled out from under seat it winked at me but I just chucked it out of car and took off.just for a second I had a crazy thawt but realized I didn't have a light and got over it.Later I was looking for something in car and found some matches whew luckily I didn't no they were there earlier.I went for a wee bike ride today feel tired but good got a bit puffed couple of times but stopped and rested.My breathing is way better than just a week ago.Grateful to be alive today.Well done you lot .

Profile image Saffron3 days ago

Congrats on 8 days, fagoff - nearly double-digits! Fantastic that you didn't follow those crazy thoughts! Stay strong ☺

Profile image Thunderbirds are go3 days ago

Improved breathing in just a week. Well done on throwing that ciggy away. Great stuff :)

Profile image Nana223 days ago

Well done on your 8 days Fagoff, going along nicely. So pleased you got rid of that smoke and later the matches. Don't be fooled by any come hither wink fron any cigarette - they are not your friends! and you are wise enough to know that. Way to go.

Profile image Ladylene2 days ago

Nice job Fagoff .. you battled that nicely! I had a love image of a cartoon character smoke winking at you and then looking quite shocked as you threw it out of the car lol. Stay strong. you are doing great :)

Profile image sunray2 days ago

Awesome Fagoff congratulations on day 8 you are doing great. ⭐

Profile image Calmwaters2 days ago

good on you for resisting, it's just the silly nicodemon trying to play tricks on you! So pleased that your way smarter than him now, congrats on your one week milestone, something to be super proud of right there :)

30Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

yahoo

Getting so sick again has probably helped I guess,I just realised last Saturday night that im sick of feeling like crap all the time ,I even couldn't lie flat in bed cause the crap in my lungs would make me choke and sometimes nearly throw up,I had terrible acid reflux and just couldn't breath properly.I gave my fags to my wife and asked her to hold onto them for me.I didn't say I was giving up just that I don't want another smoke.I think I have surrendered to my HP and ever since have just been going with the flow.Im kind of refusing to buy into other peoples drama,putting myself first for now .Ive got to look after me first other wise im no good to anyone else especially if im dead eh.My sponsor died from smoking it was horrible.I was at the place of believing that would probably happen to me was resigned to it I spose. I don't want that for me or my family and now im starting to believe that doesn't need to happen.Just for today that's all ive got to deal with.Im off outside now to replace the shocks on my old HQ and looking forward to it .I havnt felt like doing anything hobby wise for ages really so that's .good.

Profile image guzzigirl4 days ago

old HQ ae sounds like a plan way beeter than havin a yukikie fag just u wait the health comes back really quickly it is so surprising how much of a hold the nic demon can have over you though ae but you sound really determined NOPE

Profile image sunray3 days ago

You are doing awesome fagoff keep rocking!! ⭐

30Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

wow

And every time I was counting the minutes /hours and days since I had my last fag.Read all the books all to no avail eventually it just felt like too much and I gave in to the lie that one fag would be ok.

30Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

sill yay

I am amazed at how well I am doing this time.Ive tried so many times before but couldn't stick at it.I am almost afraid to say what its like in case I wake up one morning and have all the crap I had before .Ive tried everything .

Profile image guzzigirl4 days ago

great fagofff that is brilliant just keep doing it hit that repeat button u can do this !!

30Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

7 days wow

yay

Profile image thin-barbie4 days ago

awesome keep blogging ur doing soooooo well xoxoxox

Profile image Nana224 days ago

7 days is fantastic Fagoff. That's 1 whole week!. Wel done now just keep taking it one day at a time and they will soon mount up. Stay strong, i believe you can do it, so should you.

Profile image Calmwaters3 days ago

Congrats on 1 weeks freedom, keep it up!

28Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

5 days wow

Another smokefree day yay.my health is improving little by little every day.Ive got a way to go yet but a step at a time.I heard a good saying the other day Resistance is Persistence,I think it means the more I resist a problem the worse it gets.Thats certainly been the case with my trying to quit all these years.The harder I fought against it the worse it got. This time does feel different from before .Im not fighting it at all really just kind of going with the flow.Everyday I feel more strongly that I don't want to smoke anymore and that's ok.Ive been around a few people who were smoking tho not on purpose and I wasn't bothered by their smoking.I try to avoid being round smokers mostly ,don't quite trust myself yet .but im pleased that I didn't feel resentful at all.Maybe in a week or so I will feel up to doing some exercise im looking forward to wanting to and having a bit of energy to do some.I am grateful for life today .Good on you lot for giving life a go

Profile image sunray5 days ago

One day at a time...one foot in front of the other...that's the way to go fagoff ...you are doing awesome congrats on your 5 days smokefree. Keep rocking YOU are doing great. ⭐

Profile image Axl2312615 days ago

I'm 5 days smoke free as well. I have my moments but overall I feel great

Profile image Gym Junky5 days ago

5 DAYS IS GREAT GO FOR GOLD YOU ARE AWESOME

Profile image Nana225 days ago

Fantastic Fagoff, you're well on your way,and doing really well. If you ever find it too much when smokers are around remember you always have the option of removing yourself. Go hard.

27Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Day 4

Another day fag free yippee.I did have a few wonky moments today when my ecigs battery went flat at work.I didn't have a plan b, I did have a few thawts of buying some fags but kept telling myself I can get through till I go home and recharge it which I did.I kept talking to my HP all the way home and amazingly I think I had green lights all the way home and hardly even had to stop once.I shall make sure I have some lozenges and charger in my bag as a backup from now on.I did notice also that I felt a bit fearful about picking up a smoke again.I think I am slowly regaining the will to live and experience a healthy life for the first time in forever.So I don't think it was a bad thing.I am certainly finding this tima around very different from the zillion other other times ive tried quiting.I feel kind of strange in a good way like I am waking up from a deep sleep and noticing lots of little things for the first time.Hopefully im not loosing my marbles.

Profile image guzzigirl6 days ago

great name hehe yep the lozenges were my life savers and they do help with the cravings when ya triggered for a smoke the first week can be pretty intense for some it does get easier well done focus on your health soon you will be amazed how quickly you start to feel better welcome to your new you out of that deep sleep fantastic decision you have made much respect. dont worry bout those marbles this sounds like a sane choice lol

Profile image Calmwaters6 days ago

Wow that sounded like a traumatic experience, well done for getting through it with your quit intact, you should feel very proud of that. Just remember every time you beat the nicodemon, he gets a wee bit weaker and you get a wee bit stronger. You are going through the roughest time right now, I promise it will start getting a lot easier soon!

Profile image Nana226 days ago

No marbles lost Fagoff. You will feel better and better as your days tick over. Well done on getting through that tough situation, and you have proved to yourself that you have the strength to do this.

Profile image Ladylene6 days ago

Nice work Fagoff .. you did so well to tough it out til you got home. A big high five from me! No I don't think you are losing your marbels. I think smoking is a huge distraction from life in general and once we kick it we become not only more 'self aware' but more aware of our surroundings also. Hang tight the next day .. you are almost through the worst of it :)

27Aug2014 By fagoff  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

4th day

managed three days smokefree,yippee. feel like im cheating a bit sucking on the ecig it certainly takes care of any cravings which I could never get past before.I think ive just gotta do what ever I need to make it work.my health is slowly getting better not coughing up so much muck now.my chest doesn't hurt so much now when I breath,I can breath in quite deep without coughing, now which feels good.I want to be able to walk up hills without feeling like im gonna croak,a long time ago I think I could do that.
ive been smoking 40 years non stop since I was 12 so its hard to remember a time when I was healthy and fit.I think im starting to feel more positive which is great,ive felt quite negative for so long,
this addiction really is subtle and a thief of everything that's good ,that's my motto now .Fagoff nico#$@%,Im gonna live.thanx HP

Profile image Ladylene27 August, 2014

Good job Fagoff. You are doing great. I have smoked for 41 years, if I can quit, then so can you. Stay strong :)

Profile image Nana2227 August, 2014

Well done on your 3 days already done, and i definitely detect a more positive attitude and strength coming through. Keep up that positive self talk even if you don't feel it - your brain will take it in and start to believe it. Stay strong today - youCan do this.

Profile image nga27 August, 2014

That's not cheating any thing is better than sucking on a smoke. And that's the one what ever works for you. Each day you will build strength and get stronger and stronger. Coz you can do this!!!!

Profile image Maanu27 August, 2014

I used to struggle walking up hills and it was a painful ordeal. When I stopped smoking I could power up hills and I actually enjoyed it. It makes a huge difference Your going to love being smoke-free. Life is better without the filthy fags.

Profile image Saffron27 August, 2014

I smoked for 45 years, so I know what you mean, Fagoff. I've been quit for just over two years now, and feel SO much better! Stay strong and believe in yourself. You can do this.

Profile image Saffron27 August, 2014

I smoked for 45 years, so I know what you mean, Fagoff. I've been quit for just over two years now, and feel SO much better! Stay strong and believe in yourself. You can do this.

Profile image Calmwaters6 days ago

I don't think using an e-cig is cheating. It is vapour, like off a boiled jug, it isn't smoke nor is it a cigarette. I think you are doing great, 4 days off a 40 year non stop habit, whoa, I tke my hat off to you!!
Keep it up NOPE and ODAAT, you can do this :)