Stats Update: 220 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 220 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2200
Total savings: $2,960.00
Nice round numbers, nearly cracked the $ 3000 MARK still cant affiord to unowot though ive spent twice that doing up my car, mite be able to consider it in another 7 months or so, just kidding (-: .
Had a rough morning with work and stuff ,its so different to what im used to the admin side of things , I felt a bit ovewhelmed and a bit despondent for a while ,talked to my best mate on the phone at lunchtime and was able to put it all into perspective which cheered me up .I feel a bit chucked in the deep end and am struggling to keep above water at times.I didnt really think much about unowots which is good I just started getting a bit down ,which in a way is a good thing ,because then I had to find a better way through it than what I used to do. So progress really which is good. On top of that the last few days ive been noticing the symptoms of when I had a chest infection coming back , coughing and bringing up muk,went to the chemist and got some stuff to help hopefully and the chemist thought it mite be that too,bugger,she said its really common in the first year for exsmokers too be up and down healthwise same as what my doctor said ,but she also said it will get better eventually,I do hope so I read about others gaining back wonderful health and feel a bit envious at times. ciggaretes are such dam evil things eh,there is not one good thing about them. a bit of a rant but it does help me feel better for having somewhere to do it. I sat with some workmates outside who were smoking today I didnt feel in the slightest envious or judgemental of them just glad I dont have to do that. Still NOPE and glad of it.
not an option
I have thought a lot about why some people succeed longterm at this quiting business,mainly because I want to be one of them.non smokers have similar things to cope with as me but they seem to just find a way to cope and get on with it,unlike me an addict who doesnt like feeling uncomfortable and usually want to pick up or use something to make me feel better even when i know it wont really help and will actually make things worse ,crazy eh. I think picking up a unowot or anything else has to become not an option,that way no matter what happens I have to feel the feelings ,not stuff them down and find better ways to cope with life.ive had plenty of reasons to pick up over the last 7 months.had the cravings and crazy thoughts ,go on just have one.you really want to, but now i take the thoughts a bit further yes id like one but i cant stop at one and i dont want to die young or have to go through all this again and the thoughts cravings pass.for me the one thing in life that matters most is NOPE everything else is secondary so everything i do has to revolve around my quit plan ,that may change down the track but i cant afford the luxury of picking up again this quit has taken too long to achieve i wont let anything get in the way of staying stopped.
I know .my wife always says o no when I say that.
anyway I hope I never pick up a unowot again.it's just for today .but I guess If did I would want to acknowledge that somehow .if I picked up on day 219 or whatever I think I'd wait a week or so til I felt strong enough then reset my stats but in my blogs I'd start off 219 plus whatever new time I've now got up off the unowots. That way I'm acknowledging that my 219 days were a valuable achievement thats not lost or meaningless but I had a hiccup and was able to move on from it.just my 2 cents worth.
Stats Update: 215 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 215 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2150
Total savings: $2,880.00
Had a good day tiring but good. Feeling a lot more positive .The job is great when I get to do what im trained for the other big bit ,admin and lots of complicated ( to me) computer work is not so much fun. I got my car fixed today have been dreading what it mite cost based on my Chch experiences of mechanics and parts for older cars ,I was totally impressed by the service and price they charged me, really reasonable.thats the second time ive had work done in Thames and had good service and fair charges. I was feeling a bit off this morning physically wondering if im getting a cold or another chest infection maybe.Mite seem silly but I sort of dread getting something like that after a couple of really nasty chest infections over the last 7 months. Felt better after couple of hours,so allgood. (-: and still NOPE gotta be good
Stats Update: 213 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 213 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2130
Total savings: $2,840.00
I think I must be getting better in my thinking ,because crap still happens smoking or not ,but I don't automatically think about having a unowot now at those oh crap moments, like I always used too.I drove home last night went to turn my engine off and the ignition was all locked up ,I had too stall it too stop the engine running ,bugger, drove to work this morning and turned wipers on cause its raining ,next thing the driver side wiper stops working ,double bugger. I had to stall it again then disconnect the battery to kill power to ignition. I may have said one or two nawty words ,but never even thawt about unowot, that's progress eh .7 months ago I would have been stressed to the max then anxious about how much its gonna cost to fix. I took it too a local garage and hes gona have a look tomoro . I know it will all work out and will be able to afford to pay for repairs ,so no point worrying really eh and having a unowot would only make it way worse including feeling like crap after coming so far without picking up.So actually im grateful that I can do life with everything its thrown at me the last few months smokefree.
Stats Update: 210 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 210 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2100
Total savings: $2,800.00
Still doing it ODAAT. Its encouraging to see this site is once again a positive place to be and feels good to come on here again. Lots of nice vibes yay
I was in a meeting last night and the woman beside me is a smoker all the way through the meeting I could hear her chest gurgle gurgle and the dreaded smokers cough as well it sounded awful .It reminded me of myself 6 months ago I was the same and was very aware of it was always trying to hide it from others. When I breath in and out now there is none of that ,I still get a bit short breathed but way better than I was. Reminds me to be grateful .
Firstly thank you for all the lovely supportive comments on my last post.
Thawt id share something about my quit that helps me. I believe that quiting something that was a huge part of my life for most of what ive lived so far anyway requires a complete lifestyle change in almost all areas.Some things ive changed are.
I give thanx every morning for being smokefree.
I drink a big fruit smoothie and yoghurt.
im excercising regularly and even though its still a struggle sometimes I always feel better afterwards.
Trying to eat more healthy beneficial food ,difficult at present as im living in a sleepout temporarily.
having berroca daily.
drinking lots more liquids.
read something positive inspirational every day.
practicing focussing on the positive in my life.
practicing being more selfless and gracious towards others.
see my doctor regularly. and do what he suggests (big for a man) (-:
use my vaper
always make sure ive got it or some lozenges at hand. no matter where I am.
apart from my smoothie and sammie at lunch and tea I don't really eat much during the day
( I lied) I eat imperial spearmints like they are going out of fashion, (-:
I believe as a result of these and other things I do daily,I am feeling so much better physically and mentally ,and my determination to remain smokefree just keeps on growing. I was a 40 year hardcore smoker I actually believed I couldn't quit.
I don't know how long it will take me to be 100 % nicotine free but actually I don't care, it doesn't matter.
Im a bit like the tortoise I plod along slowly as long as im making progress that's what counts.
I like hearing what others have done too .
Stats Update: 205 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 205 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2050
Total savings: $2,760.00
Im not on here so much now ,my path is a bit different from many as ive used the vaper (ecig) to break the addiction that nearly killed me, I guess im still a bit sensitive about what works for me and I cant be bothered constantly (feels like ) having to justify what works for me and many others.
I know people who quit years ago and still chew NRT gum or lozenges nicotine but apparently vapers with nicotine are bad. I smoked for 40 years and had numerous attempts and nothing worked till now.
For me I take the long picture I don't intend to ever pick up a cigarete again,I cant afford to anyway ,healthwise so if it takes me a year or two to get off the vaper then that's what it takes .My health is so much better than it was 6 months ago not perfect but noticeably better,my doctor is rapt with my progress he knows what im doing and is very supportive. Anyway as ive said before You do whatever you need to quit and stay quit and don't be swayed by others opinions its your life and your health. Do your research become factually informed then go for it.
Stats Update: 200 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 200 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2000
Total savings: $2,680.00
wowza where did that time go. over half a year still NOPE . I could smell someone else smoking about a mile away today (-: and just for a minute my mouth and throat got that mmm feeling ,you know, I just talked to myself na not worth it not even one puff an I was ok. Jobs going ok getting used to things slowly ,meet my first client tomoro and get to see some of scenic coromandel,what could be better eh.I think my health is getting better, breathing seemed pretty good today and I got back up the hill to where im staying with only heavy breathing not gasping Im feeling better emotionally too in a better head space so really pleased about that. Onwards to 300 now I guess just ODAAT tho easy does it.