PS I have taken 30days off my total
or should I start all over again ?
im back to 403 and not 433 if I had of remained smoke free
Hi Guys
So my last post was on the 28/07/2011 ........ I had been smoke free for over 400 days !!!
We had some major trouble with our daughter and what did I do !!!
I picked up the darn smokes again .....
I have been smoking hard out for 18 days
BUT TODAY I HAVE STOPPED .........
I phoned the DR last week got some Zyban and started taking it straight away .....
Last night I thought to myself what the heck am I doing !!!!
I put out my last smoke and run the rest under water ..........
Today I have not smoked and I am feeling OK ......
No real withdrawls as yet ........ but I am not facing any stress as well today.......
Well 2 weeks of being a smoker again really does suck you know
for all those out there who are thinking they really want a smoke ! dont do it....
Dont be a fool like me .........
And the cost of the things $17.40 for a pack of 25 B&H what the heck !!!!
I could really feel the impact that the smokes were having on my fitness as well !!!
oh well looks like im on the wagon again !
Thank goodness ........
OK Guys here we go
Yesterday I took miss 14year old to the GP well her mother did ...
She is still a virgin yeah !!! but it scared the b jesus out of her I tell ya having to get swobs and blood tests and all that stuff
The Dr was soo good he gvae her a good talking to
Its been 1 week of hell since 4am last thurs
Things have finally settled down ....
Last night she was crying and saying sorry I think she has learnt a lesson
I still have to face to school dean and the guidance councillor before I let her go back to school so first thing Monday morning we are off to the school and Im going to see if they will help or im going to pull her out
I had a smoke after work and my mouth tasted like a ash tray I came home and thought what am I doing
Besides most of my work mates and friends have given me such a hard time even tho they do understand and have been supportive
Im going to stop right now and not pick up another one
The more I smoke the more I want to smoke
at the mo I feel that my stress levels have come right down and things are getting back under control
I think I will be able to deal with the school
Miss 14 has calmed right down and is sticking next to her mother or I like glue she wont leave our side and we wont let her !!!
I said to her last night its only because we love her and that her telling liers to us is what hurts the most
Im so glad that the police caught her I think I may have just busted up the drug peoples plan
See they give them some Kronic all these girls and they all think its so cool
Then its some dope all for free of course
and then they get them on P
well how do they pay for all this at 14 ???
They turn them into hookers .......
I tell you its one big cycle of getting young kids hooked onto drugs and then keep them paying for it and selling their souls for it .......
Thank the lord that everything was stopped before it was to late and we lost her forever .......
Im off the smokes for now guys ......
Day one all over again .......
loves to all
thanks for all your support
I fell again
Yesterday with all the trouble I have had with my 14year old daughter I found out last night that she has been sneaking out from our house for ages
she had nearly been raped
been smoking kronic and drugs
drinking and been sleeping with boys
I am such a mess I dont know what to do
I started smoking again I grabed the pack and have not put them down since ..........
I have just about smoked a whole pack today
I sent the dtr off to the Dr with my wife to get her on birth control last thing at 38 I want is a grandbaby ........
I just dont know what to do
Last night I packed some of the house and today I was going to move to Aussie.......
I have calmed down some but everything is up in the air ........
Perhaps I should move from the North Shore into Auckland city and get her away from her school and friends
Only trouble is im going to have to find another place to rent ......
Why oh Why ..........
412 days and I failed
My Girl stressed me out so much!!!
with the cops getting woken up at 4am thinking she had been killed
I went and brought a pack of ciggies and I had 4 puffs !!!!!
The next day I went out to a friends party and I had about 6 smokes !!!!!
Far-out !!!!!
After that whole year I had to go and do it
Thanks DTR
Please god help me please god help me
Oh God I am just about on the verge of caving
I got a call at 4am from the cops who had taken my 14year old dtr into their care
she had snuck out of her friends house 3x of them and got into some boys car and ended up at some boat wharf at 2am
gave falce names to the cops lead them on a merry goose chase until 4am making out they lived at wrong address
any way got home about 5am had a huge fight with her and my wife
and all I want to do is go for a smoke .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so stressed I can not sleep at night have been taking pills to try and make me sleep and now this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am on the verge of throwing it all away
please god im breathing, breathing but the stress is so extream that I dont think im going to last another min.........................................................
406 days Kia Ora Whanau
Far out its been a bit hard this last mth .........
Even today after 400 odd days every now and then I have been feeling like a smoke ........
I think I know why .............
I think its the drinking hahahahhahahah and don't normally drink heaps but the last few weeks I have hit the bottle pretty hard .........
A bit of stress at work and some old feelings come running back ........
Anyway I know its One Day At A Time............. and today I have been smoke free ................
Lots of Love guys stay strong ya'll
Shane
398 days am I on a slippery slope or what
I find that that doc last night on giving up smoking has made me want to smoke !!!! lord its been over a year I knew I should not have watched that doc on giving up smoking .........
I thought to myself oh this looks kewl and today what did I do ....... went out with the smokers for morning Tea. ...... Looking at them all puffing away ......... thinking about that doco last night and why ppl like to smoke ..........
I know that there is no physical addiction left cause its been over a year but man smoking sucks .........
I have been thinking since last night hmmmmmmm I wonder if I should just start up again and have 1 a day ....... I know its just a cop out ....... and I know one will lead to 2 to 3 to 4 to a pack ............ grrrrrrrrrrrr
NO MORE WATCHING SMOKING DOCOS FOR ME !!!!!!!
Today is my Birthday !!!!
My Quit Stats Are
Smoke free days 365 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked 7,300
Money saved $4,074.80
Total savings $4,074.80
Yeah I made it 1 whole year ............. Loves it ........
My Quit StatsAre
Smoke free days 363 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked 7,260
Money saved $4,041.40
Total savings $4,041.40
Just about 1 year !!!!! loves it so much .........
My Quit Stats Are
357 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked
7,140
Money saved
$3,974.60
Total savings
$3,974.60
Hey all its Almost been One Year !!!
Smoke free days
338 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked
6,760
Money saved
$3,774.20
Total savings
$3,774.20
just about 1 year gone !!!!!!
Smoke free days 300 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked 6,000
Money saved $3,340.00
Total savings $3,340.0
it only feels like yesterday so good ..........
My Quit Stats
Smoke free days 267 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked 5,340
Money saved $2,972.60
Total savings $2,972.60
Yeah ............
And now to add to all my weight loss over 30kgs and counting I have decided to become a fitness instructor and Personal Trainer so put myself back into school ........ Loves it !!! so all those who say giving up smoking puts on weight rubbish .....
in fact I learnt that giving up smoking and taking up some exercise gives you a better chance of staying smoke free forever ! ......
Remember to brush your teeth it really helps when your going through those hard times LOL .......
Love to all muhhaaaaa @@@@
I HAVE REACHED 240 DAYS !!!! WHOOP WHOOP ..........
Today have reached 240days Smoke Free
Lost 32 to 34 kgs in weight........
Weist size from 138 to 106
Shirt Size from XXXL to L
Pants Size from 117 to 92
Have completed a Half Marathon and run 22ks in 2hrs 19mins
Am attending the Gym 6x a week
Running 2 to 3 x per week around 40 to 50ks
Got through Xmas (thought the drinking would kill me)
And am feeling the best I have ever felt in my life ..........
I have to go and get my blood test completed again so fingers crossed everything that was wrong with me IE a walking heart attack will be completely turned around
So it can be done guys ........
If I can do .........
Anyone can do it ....................
Love you all
Shane
PS DONT GIVE UP>>>>>> GET SOME MONGERL IN YA !!! hehehehhe it helps to be a bit pig headed sometimes ........
And remember BRUSH YOUR TEETH IT HELPS !!! lol
237 days Loves it ...........
Im still here lurking from time to time ........
Wow look at all the new quitters
Yeah guys .............
Your all so wonderful .........
Love to you all
Its gonna all be OK
I love seeing ppl become free from smoking ........
Lord knows why I waited so long to give it up
I am encouraging everyone I know to give up this year starting with my own father
My Sister has been smoke free for 1 day so wonderful ......
Kia Kaha everyone ............ It does get better
Remember brush your teeth hard out when ever you want a smoke, take your tooth paste everywhere with you .... it helps with the delay and do something different part of the withdrawl pangs ...... to give up and brush your teeth ........ makes you feel so much better ..........
211 days and loving it
I never knew that the price of smokes has gone up so much !!!! lord someone said its like $45 a pak of roll your own ..........
im sure glad I quit when I did ..........
So far today I have lost over 32 kgs and the fittest I have ever been and now have been smoke free for over 200 days ..........
Loves it so much ...........
Kia Kaha everyone out there who is just starting it does get easer ........
207 days .............
Never thought I would make it this far ............
I put a fag in my mouth christmas eve but ppl around me jumped on me and ripped it out THANK YOU TO MY WIFE AND SISTER ............
New Years Eve I was looking for them all darn night ...... Something just did not feel right......... its been the first drink I have had since giving up and have been really going hard drinking over the xmas period .........
But I have made it through the other side with out a single Puff !!!!
Am feeling very happy for myself
LOVE TO ALL .............
HAPPY NEW YEAR>............
No way, you've come too far to start back at Day 1. Your commitment to quitting is proven, so just look at it as a speed bump. Keep all of your days as that was the start of your quitting journey!
I agree with Rainbow fish ;-) well done on your honesty Ive been stuffing up also!!!
Well Done!!
Hi shane no don't start again 403 days nobody can take that away from you.
Mark it down as unfortunate, you were of another mind at the time. Hope all ok with your daughter.
Is that how much smokes are now!!!!! ouch
Take care cheers
Hmmm yes, no one can take that 403 days away from you but if you don't start at Day 1 again then wouldn't you be cheating yourself? Just a thought...