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7Mar2011 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Pukeko calling

Hi guys quick blog WORLD WAR 1, 2 & 3& 4 has broken out in my world ...cannot set date today ...going for a healing meditation & a little bit of mum time on Thursday!!!!!....will I last !!!!!TEENAGERS FIGHTING!!!& I mean fisty cuff fighting .... GRUMPY HUSBAND......who is being a fkn P!!!!(sorry).....united you are supposed to stand ...I have always given in ....but in my beginning of being a quitter I COUNT >>>>> & I am not prepared to give in this time ........ALL is not well in my world ...GUTTED ANGRY just want to run & never come back !!!!! WHAT ABOUT ME!!!!!....a mother comes last ....a wife is even more behind that ...trying out for an interview scared shitless !!!!17 years I have to have a CV ( A WHAT!!!!) When you set something in your mind ...I had set my goal & WTF so guys see yah soon will try to set a date ....why the Fk .....sorry team ...coz I know there is no I in team .....xxx a little sad pukeko just needs to vent ...you guys have been so much part of my journey ...xxx Thanks xxx

clarence the cat7 March, 2011

Pukeko. You will sort this out. You are so strong. You really do need some ME time. Go for it. GOOD LUCK

Captinhook7 March, 2011

Pukeko girlfriend!!!! those dam children! who would have them huh! and husbands! pft who the hell needs them too! you will quit when YOU are ready to quit! deep breaths chick, as you have always said one day at a time xxxx YOU CAN DO THIS!

maggie7 March, 2011

All in good time we will be still here to support you Maggie xxxx

Ady8 March, 2011

Pukeko, Good to see you around again, I see your having family issues at present, well what a coincidence, my girls are starting to perform also.
when the boys start fighting just do the instant,..... DAD this is your shit to sort out.! ......... & walk away from it.

Pukeko, You always count, quitting or not you still count, your still mum, your still a family member, your still here.
It's mission impossible setting goals when your feeling like you posted so dont bother trying to win that battle yet, in a day or 2 when you get over the family stress of that saga you will be in a better frame of mind to re-evaluate your position.

We're patient, & we'll support you as you know, dont try to take on too much all at once.
Cheers

Susannedee8 March, 2011

Hey Pukeko. When you're ready! Don't give yourself a hard time, it sounds like everyone else is doing that for you!! Keep your chin up. I wish I could help you out.

Dentarthurdent8 March, 2011

Hey pukeko, no worries mate, when you're ready. We'll be here for you and as always, this is absolutely the right place for a vent.
Kia Kaha

riggster8 March, 2011

I am glad that I read your blog because you need some support. I could tell you that everything will be OK in the morning but you and I know that there is little likelihood of that. I pray that you can get all the family issues sorted soon so you can then concentrate on what this place is all about. I just want you to know that we love you and hope that things change for the better sooner rather than later. Take care and much love to you.

25Feb2011 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Yas is alive

Hi guys long time no blog....
Just to let you know that Yas is ok , scared to hell I will be talking to her tonight so far only been txting.
I asked her if I could let you all know as reading through the blogs yep we are worried about all our Christchurch family!!!!!
Unfortunately I am smoking again & trying to get my guts together to set a quit date.So far this year has been extremely stressful!!! No excuses feel like crap & extremely scared this time around.... about setting a date !!! I have let myself down & unsure what to actually do !!
It is absolutely fantastic to see a lot of you on here doing so awesome !!! Great stuff!!!
Talk soon quit family xx

Captinhook25 February, 2011

Thanks for letting us know Pukeko!!!! breathing a wee bit better now, even though I haven't been on here for ages and Ive never met you guys feel like your apart of my whanau - much love to Yas and you and don't beat yourself up about smoking I started again in xmas this is such a stressful and horrific time for all Kiwis and people who have family here from overseas one day at a time as you say love you guys xxxx

Dentarthurdent25 February, 2011

Hey pukeko. Glad to hear from you mate. Please pass on our Love and best wishes to Yas and really glad she's okay.
Our journey's are all so different but our destination still remains the same. Work your way up to a date and get back on that horse. We'll be here to help where we can, we're all in this together remember.
Arohanui to you and yours.

horlicks25 February, 2011

Hi pukeko I have been wondering where you have been and that is such good news that Yas is ok. Thankyou so much for letting your quit family know and all the best to you too pukeko.
You were an inspiration to so many of us and as Dent said we are all in this together. Take carexx

maggie25 February, 2011

pukeko i missed you glad you have called in today Look forward to seeing you back with the family soon .Yes we are worried about our Christchurch members so thanks for news .Maggie xxxx

nansi426 February, 2011

pukeko so pleased yas is ok so terrible wat has happened and i am also back puffing away and just feel terrible and cannot bring myself to quit again i can go 2 days and thats it i feel like i have let my family down but cant help myself how pathetic is that i also have had a lot of things happening and everytime i try to stop things go wrong but that is just an excuse really but my thoughts and prayers are with everyone in chch take care

Joybelle26 February, 2011

Hi pukeko Good to here from you even though its been a month since your last blog.Yeap it's sure been a real shit crap month. So pleased yas is ok I had a few panic moments for my sister who lives in CHCH also but she finally returned my txt.I know you will be back on the bus when the time is right for you,miss you heaps cheers xxx

clarence the cat3 March, 2011

Hi Pukeko! Glad to hear you are well.
You are too hard on yourself.!!! You have had a setback, but I know when the time is right you will get back on the bus with us and become smokefree again.
Hope to see you back with us soon. Keep smiling. GOOD LUCK

25Jan2011 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Hi Honey I am home !!!

Well water under the bridge!!!!
OMG all these new faces hahahaha & boy o boy am I glad to be back ......
Sorry guys I am going back to Day 1 .....I only lasted 3 days on holiday ......laughter fun tears fighting... kids... husbands( I mean just 1 husband)hahahaha....hahahahahaha....& man I am proud of that ...I also only had 2 fags a DAY!!!!!!....& only at night ....you know ...the social drinking situation..... I had to buy 2 packets $12.00 a packet of 20 OMG !!!!!!!!!!!! ...as different crews on hahaha & I am not a bludga !!!!...hahahahaha....not only that MY SON ....crashed my car !!!! ....that tipped me .!!!!! failed BIGTIME....scared of hubby reaction...... than my car ....you know what grumpy men are like ...!!!!!!!!! hahaha are holidays not the best hahahahahahahahahahaha,,........rain ...floods ....family together hahahahahahahaha.....inlaws out laws ...no excuses ....I CHOSE ....to smoke ..learnt something tho ....kids all reacted differently !!!! ....husband ....oh boy .....Am I still proud of myself ....yep too damn right ...
Have I failed ...
yep ...
only according to the stats
...It is a black & white journey & a journey I still will be going on ...I am learning STILL hahahahahahaha !!!!!
I have learnt so much I won't be a smoker who is controlled ...is it right or is it wrong ...I always said never ever take another puff !!!!
My journey especially after the mag write up ...hahahaha I got scared I saw how fat I am ...
I was scared... shocked.... vulnerable but loved the laughter on my face as I do love to laugh .....
so my journey has changed a little bit ....
Actually made me stronger ...made me think more ...& yep I am a non smoker & yep fkd up ....but you know what I COUNT & IF I HAD NEVER COME ON HERE omg I would not have learnt anything so yep I still will stand tall & proud & say too damn right I AM PROUD OF ME & MY JOURNEY & thank you team for you xxx

So I am back to Day 1 & we are a team ...there is no I in team xx

Sorry guys for letting you down ......
so lets go boys(& girls) !!!! hahahahaha I"m stepping out tonight & it feels allright & Man I feel like a Woman hahahahaha xx

So I am back ...I thank all of you & LETS BEGIN !!! XXX
PUKEKO XX

Spyug25 January, 2011

Hi Pukeko. A saying that someone told me once was "Supposing you have tried and failed again and again. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down" So you have not failed because you have got up and are trying agian-good luck !

Lighting Eyes25 January, 2011

There u are!!!!!! PMSL

how are ya

caroleee25 January, 2011

yep been there too ! back at day one but hey better than no start at all good luck, look forward to your blogs

pukeko25 January, 2011

Hahahahahhahahahaha Lighting eyes ..../////had to ask the kids what that meant hahahahahahahaha tooo damn right Im back hahahahahahahahahahaha... I am doing great the mag stuff kinda did my head ...coz I knew I had put on weight but I kinda gotta shock !!!!! I knew my summer clothes had shrunk in the wash (as we are on tank water & there hasd not been a lotta rain ....) ....but seeing ...myself ...in the mag ...has kinda set me back ...I am still proud of myself ...but scared ...a brand new year ....a new beginning .... Thought of you lots ....are you ok ?????

Lighting Eyes25 January, 2011

if it helps... i spoke to my doc bout the weight gain side effect and he said all ex smokers he knows lose the weight they gained about 6 months after...

i am ok... loving bein a westie again!!!! hehehe

and hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha at u.... u had to ask ya kids hehehe roflmao

pukeko25 January, 2011

YEP SO IT HAS BEEN 6 MONTHS hahahahahaha....go with the flow ....cannot go back ....the only way is up !!!! hahahahaha glad to hear your laughter you so deserve it !!!!!!!...hahahahahahaha...remember I am older hahaha 45 & getting younger hahahahahaghahahwhwhwhw...as my kids say hahahaha YEAH RIGHT !!!!!....My eldest learnt tonight a big lesson $ 1200 later crash a car & learn.........& counting ...coz you know he is mad !!! ...with the capital TTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!

maggie25 January, 2011

Get back up there girl you will be a winner you have the attitude to be at the top im awaiting you really want to meet you Pukeko i missed your blogs when i had been off for a couple weeks i thought reading them would cheer me up lol Go girl you can do it !!! Maggie xxx

yas0126 January, 2011

Hey matey, sounds like you had a good time with the family.
Funny we seem to all be slipping ahy.
Good to have ya back on here mate xx

Ady26 January, 2011

Pukeko, Welcome back m8, we've all been missing you & wondering when your coming back.
I hope you enjoyed your holiday apart from those 2 little mishaps you explained, but its all good, we're still here for you.
You have Soooo much to catch up with (if you can, theres a lot of reading)
You dont have to apologise to us Pukeko, its your body, your life, so you only need to apologise to yourself, especially since your the one who's gonna go thru the withdrawels again, but chin up m8, its still ALL GOOD.
we're alive arent we, we can still make choices, we can live life,.... to the MAX.
cheers

clarence the cat26 January, 2011

I was worried about you Pukeko. Thought you had become a road statistic or something awful.
Good to have you back. Sad you have put yourself back to square one, but you are are a fighter and to get behind the wheel immediately after a crash shows masses of courage and strength. Good Luck Pukeko

horlicks27 January, 2011

Hi Pukeko, clarence the cat is so right, you are a fighter and will get back on the wagon again.
I haven't been on here for a while and you have commented about a mag article. Which one?
But anyway, welcome back my friend, you have been such an inspiration to us all, keep up the good fight.xx

tina2727 January, 2011

Good to see you back Pukeko... You are such a determined woman thats for sure.... good on ya, an you know we are all in this together and we are all here for each other...
You know you can do this so you go girl :) ODAAT Kia Kaha xoxoxo

shones29 January, 2011

Welcome back Pukeko - you give me such a giggle................ and really, I know what you mean when you feel you let others rather than yourself down but sounds like you only slid to the end of the wagon with feet dangling.... I got reversed over and hid underneath it LOL.
Good luck to you :)

Dentarthurdent31 January, 2011

Hey pukeko. Bugger, back to day 1.
All good though mate, as you say, this is a journey and we all take slightly different paths.
Glad you're still with us which is the most important bit.
Kia Kaha

horlicks14 February, 2011

Hi pukeko, how are you going? I hope all is well with you??

Josie0916 February, 2011

Hi pukeko how are you? Your prositive feedback and presence is missed and haven't seen you in a while.

Joybelle16 February, 2011

Hi there pukeko,How r u????? I miss your comments tha make my day, love your sense of humour.I truly understand what u have been thru. I also had to start back at day 1 cause I was only lying to myself.
I have yet to make a blog about that, look forward to your next blog take care xxxx

6Jan2011 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Hi All OLd & New !!!

hahahah well there is certainly a lot going on ...just a quick blog. Off away on holiday a real one camping wine family & friends & food hahahaha. This is gonna be the first time ever of not smoking ...nervous ...yep ...strong ...yep just got my fix from you all hahahahahahaha .
Take care of yourselves everyone & remember One Day At A Time !!!! See your great stats when I am home xx & drink the water deep breathe & laugh lots coz it makes up for the tears hahahahahha xx & do not forget you deserve this ...you count ...& treat yourselves hahahaha & ....& ....thankyou all xxx pukeko

donnka6 January, 2011

Hi there thanks so much you are such a gem to us all i love your blogs
Have a great holiday and thanks so much for your support
take care

ssfirefoxy6 January, 2011

hahaha yea the tears..hehe i forgot about my lil spaz and you just reminded me should blog about that.
Good luck with your trip and see you when you get back hopefully still smokefree

tina276 January, 2011

Hay Pukeko.. Have a fantastic time you deserve it :)xoxoxo Kia Kaha ODAAT

clarence the cat6 January, 2011

Hey Pukeko. You enjoy that break. You sure as hell deserve it.

Dentarthurdent9 January, 2011

Have a great break pukeko, you have certainly earned it.
Arohanui to you and yours.

bull17 January, 2011

Hi Pukeko thanks for commenting on my blog. Hope you had a a good holiday

Marie18 January, 2011

Hey Girl, Have had you in my thoughts such a lot lately, and hoping all is well. hope that holiday has been fun. Enjoy the wine, lazy days, camping and the family........... not necessary in tha order.! Happy new us as we get near to the second half of our first year.. my party is June 22. kia kaha

maggie23 January, 2011

You still on holiday Pukeko been through all the blogs looking for you Maggie Miss you and your lovely blogs thought i would catch up on them but not tonight lol

3Jan2011 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

What Have I done All Day !!!!!!

Hahahaha I have just sat on here ...what am I going to be like after 3 weeks away hahahahaha great to see all the newbies hahaha jump on board for the hardest toughest BUT BEST DAMN journey of your lives coz I tell ya if I can do this after 30 flipping years omg anyone can so just a little note or 2
Read these sites for a bit of help !!!
http://www.dedicateddesigns.com/qk

I have been quit for 5 Months, 4 Weeks, 1 Day, 16 hours, 52 minutes and 58 seconds (182 days). I have saved $1,304.99 by not smoking 4,567 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Weeks, 1 Day, 20 hours and 35 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 4/07/2010 10:30 PM

That one tells you right to the second about your quit journey !!( I do not count the minutes my punishment for the slip ups....I quite like it when it says 1 minute hahahahaha) xx

http://www.youtube.com/user/smokefreeNewZealand
Thanks Tobacco for Killing My Mom ...a great site set up for us by mintyfresh xx...makes you really think !! Get the tissues xx

http://www.whyquit.com/joel/ntap.pdf
Never ever take another puff a pretty amazing read!!!

To you all this is a lifetime change yep it is bloody hard ...the best piece of advice I can give is read everyones blogs & take a little piece of anything that works for you ...this is a journey that begins for you & every path is different but we are all in the same boat so stand up stand tall & be bloody well proud of yourselves ...cor this is a bit deep hahahahahaha remember we are all in this together hahaha for the good the bad the ugly the mad but best of all the celebrations hahahahaha yep we own this hahahahahaha it is so neat to be back !!! xx Have a great day everyone xxx

clarence the cat3 January, 2011

Welcome back pukeko. I missed your chirpiness.
Those are wise words and excellent tips.

KylieG3 January, 2011

Thanks for the awesome inspiration - will definitely be following your blogs, they are great! :)

ssfirefoxy3 January, 2011

thankyou for your blog. I just watched that video for the first time and man it blew me away.
2nd day non-smoker for me and that video gave me an additional kick to quit for good.

tina273 January, 2011

Hay Pukeko Happy new year to you.. Your stats are looking good.. Glad to see you are back in fighting mode.. My you must have missed us sooo much lol to have been on here all day ha ha ha... but it is good to see you back ODAAT Kia Kaha :)xoxoxo

MeggieMay4 January, 2011

You have a great attitude and inspire me to keep going!

3Jan2011 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Hi Guys I am home !!!

Yep just been reading through all the blogs ...I hated Chrismas as had to go & stay at in laws so after saying farewell to you all....(cold peas in jelly just do not do it for me!!!! ) I had a meltdown yep I had a smoke ...yep that or go to jail for harming my kids(they played up like there was no tomorrow !!!!!) I had just had enough & could not stop crying... my sis turned up & I just grabbed a smoke off her & puffed like there was no tomorrow boy.... the hit of nicotine I was so dizzy I felt like crap ..did it help me... yep at the time it did sorry to say.....but..... do I want to smoke again ...NO ...so then I come home & there is a thing up on the quitline site Had I had a smoke in the last 2 weeks.... so said yes... feel now WHY???
So like a dieter.... tasted.... felt the guilt & have moved on ...I cannot beat myself up.... as feel vulnerable enough so Happy New Year one & all remember to blog away it really really does work & help.... remember the water the 4 d's & we are all here to support one another through the good & the not so good.... One Day At A Time....
Have just had a friend round who is a smoker & she puffed away 4 smokes & it did not even bother me so feel heaps happier !!! hahahahahaha I asked how much for those $17.90 for a pkt 30 smokes OMG what a rip hahahaha wow I was gob smacked as it is nearly 6 months for me ...I will not say smokefree as have had minor slips along the way of my journey & I have to always say that just for me!!!.... & to be honest with you guys this journey is tough but so damn worth it !!!!!
.... we are a team there is no I in team so get back on to the best damn journey of your life Being smokefree I know for me the best damn decision ever made xx

Quitline3 January, 2011

Hi pukeko,

Well done for getting right back on track after that slip-up! It sounds like you are determined not to go back to smoking, keep it up!

Marian,
Online Quit Advisor

lisa23 January, 2011

hey pukeko!! not nice to no that our kids never loose that "were in public so i can push my luck" mentality yep i sliped in a big way, was a argument about money with the other half that pushed me and the dealing with the sis in-laws depression as she lives with us now and im the one home all day with her that has made me fall hook line and sinker...but i have only lost a battle here the war continues after i receive my back up ill attack again, yep we are a team and with out my team here i would have lost the war xxoo p.s re:mascato is the the in my opinon the best sparkly wine very easy to down a bottle 5% alcohol so good for the breast feeding type at the end off the day serve chilled with a strawberry in the glass mmmmmm

pukeko3 January, 2011

Yep Quitline I AM DETERMINED not to ever smoke again !!! so Thank you. I could never put my family through hell again !!! xx so if I slip once in awhile I have to jump right back on coz I could not do it again !!!

Hahahaha off to the liquor shop now lisa2 hahahaha yep...... there is always a war going on in some form or another I am finding out yep this is life & smoking only has disguised everything in the past but lisa2 remember you are important too depression is a horrible hidden disease I too have 1 in our family yep you have to breathe lots & lots (just found out my daughter was kicked out of there last night !!! )It is an illness it is not you they are attacking it is a hidden nasty horrible disease & the more support you have for you the better xx ...yep One hell of a journey but here for you watching your back xx

just jag3 January, 2011

Welcome home Pukeko, we missed you and YES you can beat that nicodemon, there's no IFS!!!! Happy New Year and keep up your fantastic blogs. XXX

rubytuesday3 January, 2011

Hi Pukeko, good to see you back and i reckon i could start smoking again any time.. I had one at xmas and it makes it harder i reckon to stay clear but i will..truly it seems only the rich will be able to smoke now..

pukeko3 January, 2011

hahahahaha just jag I just got it I was thinking no Ifs!?????? & yep I just got it hahahahahahahahaha no you are right there is no IF's hahahaha xx Thanks xx

t0maiiz3 January, 2011

You are the bomb Pukeko for getting straight back up on that wagon. You are a true fighter my friend :-)
Take care and Kia Kaha

Tiwi3 January, 2011

Merry Christmas and happy new year baby!! Yes I'm still here, maybe not so much blogging but reading just as much as before, so good to see many new fledglings, awesome!! all of yous are Awesome!!!!

24Dec2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE xx

What a crazy time of the year ...quick blog ...heading away to the in laws (fun???????) !!! hahahaha take care everyone keep up the great work ...yep pretty stressed & wonder why for 1 day ...oh well still smokefree & champagne tomorrow !!! Yippee !!! love to you all & take care xxx Stay strong & breathe ...xx

tina2724 December, 2010

Have a fab smoke free time and catch you when you get back xoxoxo :)

clarence the cat24 December, 2010

Yeah! Crazy is the word.
Take Care. Stay safe on the road. Enjoy your break and all that champagne and good food. Smokefree is definitely the way to go.
xx

20Dec2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

YEP!!!

OMG
has this not been the toughest journey ever in my entire life.....I am trying to bring my stats up & they are not working fk....so the journey...ohhhh the journey yep hav had a puff or two along the way but I am so proud of myself ...
I think my husband & my kids have forgotten what I am / have done along the way ...I have saved so much money hahahahaha & I am pissed off to the big time hahahahahahahhaha ...do they not know why !!! we are gonna have a great christmas .....am I stressed yep!!
Do they not KNOW I just would love to have a smoke every single day ...will I ...who knows ...but in the wise words of mistermister & mintyfresh & my other team supporters.........
(nup )but I live every day ONE DAY AT A TIME because as the streessss of Christmas comes...... mothers feel it !!!
SO.......................................after swearing /cursing hahahahhhaha
IT HAS FINALLY COME UP!!!!!

My Quit Date: 4/07/2010 10:30 PM
I have been quit for 5 Months, 2 Weeks, 1 Day, 22 hours, 10 minutes and 30 seconds (168 days).
I have saved $1,206.58 by not smoking 4,223 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Weeks, 15 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 4/07/2010 10:30 PM.........................................
& yep I have slipped but I still say I am now A NON SMOKER & SO DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF
coz every day it is a ONE DAY AT A TIME & so I shall say to you THE TEAM
THANK YOU ......thank you .......coz you all have helped me so much ...past & present ....you know who you are ..dentarthurdent ..shane 36 & 76 ....mandykoo .marie..... tomaaiz.......Yas01.....ohhh there are so many of you so I thank you all ....&..... may you all have a very special Christmas & remember YOU COUNT...you all really do xxxx Pukeko xx

clarence the cat20 December, 2010

Pukeko you are amazing. You must be a real battler.
Congrats.
I look for your comments everday. You are so inspiring.
Enjoy your Christmas and Best Wishes for the New Year

tina2720 December, 2010

Well done Pukeko, you have done brilliant and to right you should be proud of yourself... this ain't no easy walk in the park.. Yay for you.. If I don't get to blog with u b4 Santa comes, I wish you and yours a wonderful Christmas From Me and Mine. And thank you for supporting me at the beginning of my journy :)xoxoxo

yas0121 December, 2010

Hey Mate
You are doing great. You are such an inspiration. You are a strong amazing person. You have done so well so what if you slip you get back on well done.
Thanks for everything you have done to help me and your call out of the blue really helped believe me.
Thanks mate xx

Kelliev21 December, 2010

It's always nice to know we aren't alone :) Good on ya! Keep it up!

rubytuesday21 December, 2010

Well done that girl.

Dentarthurdent21 December, 2010

hey pukeko, great stuff with your quit. I have to agree with the others, you are an inspiration to so many of us.
Kia Kaha and I wish you and yours a great Christmas.

Ady24 December, 2010

Hi Pukeko, dont worry about the coupla puffs you had along the way, you just stay proud.
you come here & support all of us,... well were all gonna support you.
Your 5 months 2 weeks is way ahead of me, that is an achievement well worth being proud of, nearly half a year.
way to go Pukeko. Dont forget... quitting is what helped you get on T.V hehehehe yayyyy

10Dec2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

OH OH OH !!!

I asked for a packet of smokes at the shop this afternoon as I was buying my wine ...OMG I could not stop laughing ....lucky they know me & were like Tania what are you doing !!!!!!

Hahahaha have really been thinking about smokes lately dreamt last night that I was ...!!!! They were everywhere in my mouth & hands & I was gagging like wtf ....I really thought I was ...I even told hubby he thought I was nuts !!! coz I freaked ...as you do hahahaha

I am so glad I am not ...because we are on tank water & the pump died last night & was spraying water everywhere ...hubby got home at 3.00 a.m & heard the pump going on & off...so whew ..could have lost all our precious water !!!!!! ....so $ 540.00 later a new pump & guess what all came out of my smoke money that we have been saving ....I was so HAPPY!!!
so keep up the great work everyone ...I am going to have a glass of well deserved wine to celebrate thank goodness I do not smoke anymore One Day At A Time xx

clarence the cat10 December, 2010

Wow Pukeko!!! Bet you always knew those savings were destined for something important.
Its odd but today I have had the worst day re cravings since I began this journey. My 100th day is almost over and I figured it was to do with that.
You enjoy that glass of wine now.

tina2711 December, 2010

Hope you enjoyed that glass of wine it was well deserved :) Thanks your support all is going well :) xoxoxo

shones12 December, 2010

Oh too funny Pukeko!! Talk about an automatic action aye. You are doing so well- good on you!

Ady13 December, 2010

Pukeko, you asked for a packet of cancer stiks, “what were you in dream land that day”… hehehehe
So glad your shop friends snapped you out of it, its true aye, the more ppl we tell that we’ve quit, the better.
You cant go shopping alone if your gonna do that, you have to take one of the kids with you, they’ll help keep you in line. Hahahahaha
What an awesome reward, free water pump fix in exchange for quit smoking, well worth it if you ask me cos those pumps are not cheap.
Gud on ya mate, your winning, Yayyy

tarnzz514 December, 2010

ha ha ha - that is funny. . . I am sure the shop assistant will not let you live that one down! and dumb about the water pump spitting the dummy, but great your monies saved was there to get that sorted. . . .

Love reading your posts Pukeko.

Have a great week.

;-)

Josie0914 December, 2010

How long ago did you stop smoking?
What a laugh..
Thank goodness you saved your money and were able to fix the problem - good on you.

shane362 January, 2011

I have been reaching for my ciggies to Puke whats wrong wiff us aye ....... LOL

5Dec2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Dentarthurdent !!!! You are a champion star!!!

Whoopee just got the mag that's life yippeee I aye...... what a star !!!
What a great article you & your family are absolutely gorgeous ...wow !!! Hahaha how neat to put a face to a name ....!!! Thank you once again ...your words of wisdom ....awesome loved it !!! Well done you xx

maggie5 December, 2010

bookshop here i come !!!

just jag6 December, 2010

Just waiting for the shop to open! Yes Pukeko, it is neat to put a face to a name.

Tiwi6 December, 2010

I said to Dent I was on my way to buy the mag but I got caught up in reading and writting everyone hahaha, so 'now' I'm out the door!
Just thought I'd stop in and say 'churr!' to our Pukeko; churr churr!! lol

27Nov2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

As I See It

So here I am heading to 150 days almost smokefree as yep I to have had slip ups ...yep on my journey to the wonderful world of being a quitter ...& yep the best damn quitter I can be ...the journey ...ohhhhhhhhhh the journey ..hahhahha have just read my journey back to myself what a trip ....%*&^%%$#@!@#%^&**(( !!!!

Has it been easy ...no way!!!.....has it been worth it ....too damn right it has ....it really makes you look at everything in your world .....the good ...the bad...& yep the ugly !!!

So what did I do ...I did everything possible hahahahahahaha had everything possible on hand ...coz every day ,....every minute is different ...diffficult................... so just thought I would share what I have used on my journey of becoming smokefree in my world

- Recue remedy....water omg water ....eclipse lollies.....epsom salts right at the beginning for 5 days morning & night ....(YUK).....
A bubble toy stick to suck madly on for those minty moments hahahaha (kids gave me that one !!) sticks...pens in pockets...the gold money tin that the kids painted !!!
( & now we all love the money) hahahahahaha...tissues (boxes for those tears)...I had a sht load ...& some days still do .....
the pills ...panadol...nurofen...zinc...magnesium... St Johns wort ...fish oil...no more gas pills for the farting!!!! That was not fun !!! hahahahahaha ...walk when you can & just remember that this journey is TOUGH ...but the people ...the opportunities that have come my way ...(Quitline Thank You ).....

Just remember to be proud of you first & foremost & that every step ...yep forward most of the way ....& a couple back make us who we are today...so yep if you slip the best damn thing you can do ...is jump right back on ...move on ...coz you know what that is part of lifes' lessons ...we learn ...so if you jump off no matter how many times ...& ...you learn a little bit ...HEY ...well done you ...for jumping back on ...we are not perfect but we try & we love triers ...so I look forward to sticking around for awhile coz you guys ...yep you know who you are ....Thanks for my journey ...& each of you enjoy your journey because for the first time ever for a lot of us ...we have to be selfish in a different kind of way !!!
Onwards & Upwards ...One Day At A Time xx

yas0127 November, 2010

Oh mate what a post!!
Taken everything on board you have mentioned to me and above.

Got one of my sons bubble wands and have it ready for Monday.
St Johns wort out ready to go.
Patches, lozenges all ready to.

And yes Pukeko I am smoking my self silly looking forward to Monday as I mentioned to you I am sick of it already. So yes its working.

Thanks chick, you are a real inspiration to me.
To talk until midnight until smoking & our journey thanks xx

Ady28 November, 2010

Fabulous post there Pukeko, Well done, Been thinkin about it & thats how i came up with my plan.
I avoid thinking about tobbaco as much as i can even if its right in front of me. At the end of each day it is your journey, its just been another day & we call it Life, hard days & kool days, For we are here trying to master this body we live in.?
Great post Tania

wenz28 November, 2010

COOL post. laughed, cried and some great tips. l'm getting very emotional lately. Got to get a big box of tissues. Thought l was going a bit soppy on top of every thing else. cheers x

Dentarthurdent29 November, 2010

Wow. Awesome post pukeko.
I found myself looking back through my blogs the other day too, what a ride this has been so far!!! You're right, this can be a tough journey at times but is so worth it.
The best part about this journey though has been that I get to know people like you, I count myself pretty lucky on that count. Thanks for being you.
Arohanui

tarnzz529 November, 2010

Fantastick Pukeko - you are so awesome supporting everyone - and I really appreciated your words of wisdom last week when I first started!

You are an inspiration to me!

;-)

Raxal30 November, 2010

You legend Pukeko... 150 Days and through it all you survived ha ha ha. You are so amazing and inspiring and you have been my inspiration on this journey so keep up all your amazing work and keep smiling and laughing and breathing.
Enjoy ya family and I hope they will enjoy you for the extra time you have given them by going on this journey.
Thank you :)

clarence the cat1 December, 2010

You are so cool. I admire and look up to you. Thanks for all your support

maggie2 December, 2010

Great post Pukeko you are doing such an awesome job not only coping with your quit but inspiring others and encouraging them well done !!!

18Nov2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Calling out for!!!!!!

Minty fresh ...where are you girl ...have been missing you hope all ok !!!
You have been such an important part in my quit ...just want to see if you ok ...also because of the earthquakes etc...xx I know there will be others worried too xx

Partner in crime steve76.......hows the hand ?? How is it all going with you in your world ...another milestone is heading our way ....hope you are ok xx

I know there are lots of others out there too ...come in & say Hi !!

Have a great day everyone ...One Day At A Time xx

yas0118 November, 2010

Yes Minty fresh, Captain hook. Where are you?

Worried re earthquakes with minty. Please let us know you are alright xx

clear air22 November, 2010

Hi Pukeko. Thanks for help with your comment. I having a shit day ( day4) of millionth attempt. As I posted on mine am enjoying all the live sport on at night when sleep is not an option.. >live netball >rugby and this week tennis , hopefully by the end of the week I will be through the sleep problem , but at the moment

this hunky Roger federer fan is not complaining.. Ha Ha

clear air24 November, 2010

hi again thanks for comment and support... as i put on my post did get up when i woke and watched the tennis. great game. wont be tonight as not so interested to do so with whose playing!!!! will go back to bed if i wake tonight ...struggling again today but ok thanks to the support x x x

16Nov2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

You know what?

You guys are so awesome ...I mean wow ...I have sat here today ...went to work ...came home (was sent home as tears kept popping out my eyes )hahahahahah..has been a bad hair day hahahaha yep we all have them ...did I smoke ..mmm......I wanted to so badly & then had to have a real big think ...so have sat outside in the sun ...had a really good cry hahahaha as only I do ...had a smoke ...sitting there... looking at me ...I looked ...I smelt it ...I really oh so wanted to pick it up & smoke it ...I could taste it so badly.... & then have come on here to think about it ....& OH WOW guys thank you so much for all your beautiful words ... no the demon is not going to win ...but boy was so close ...so have run it under the tap ...my sister left one here for me ..in case you are wondering ...I asked for it ...I begged for it ...I thought about licking the ashtray first hahahahahaha...I have had to test myself ...why ...I really do not even know why ...just one of those moments I guess ...yep we all have them ...I just have to tell you all hahahahahaha so I am picking myself up & moving another step forward ...hahahaha yep you guys sure are an awesome team ...so once again back up & rolling on ....ONE DAY AT A TIME ...& the only way to go is onwards & upwards xxx pukeko

yas0116 November, 2010

Youre awesome mate. Doing so great! We all have times that the demon invites us back so easily (look where I am now) but you chose not to accept.
Yes, onwards & upwards :) xx

LisaR16 November, 2010

SING:
Oh yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

pukeko16 November, 2010

lol yep !! hahaha thanks guys xxooxx

Tracy16 November, 2010

Pukeko ... so with you on licking the ashtray! I was so close today (not to the ashtray) to going and purchasing a pack. Gosh, not sure I would be able to handle having one in my hot little hands, in private, where knowone was watching, in a space that I could wash the evidence away .... all I can say is thank goodness it wasn't me and you are so more the machine than I.

This whole process is a little like a roller coaster, problem is I get sick on the darn things. Anywho, I must get some sleep. Keep going hard and all my best with tomorrow!

Ps: you guys do make a great team!

clarence the cat20 November, 2010

Pukeko. You are so strong. Dont let it beat you now. Everyone looks up to you so hang in there. Those awful feelings must pass soon.

15Nov2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

So How Come Life Is Shit !!!

You know what some days you just should do ...nothing ...just plain nothing ....
I am finding this journey is just not about stopping smoking .....this is learning how to deal with day to day Crap hahahahaha & how so lucky are we ..
that we can do this together .....

All I have wanted to do today is tell everyone go get fkd ....hahahahahaha & then I have come on here ....& omg .....there is a lot going on ...guys ...we are a team ....all day ...all I have wanted is a smoke .....yep sucked on a straw ...drunk heaps of water ...done something else ..(TEAM)....done the deep breathe .....& still delayed the action ...& you know what that this is ...this is just us ...that is what it is ...US !!!!!!!

The only person hurting ....is still us ...the guilt becomes even stronger ...xx

shane3615 November, 2010

Oh Pukeko you hang in there hun ............ your such a supporter of everyone on here and have so many nice words to say to ppl !!!!

I reccon you need to take up another habit and do something totally different........ Knitting ??? Reading ??? something for just you that you enjoy !

We always say we are going to do something for ourselfs to reward ourselfs but I bet if your like me you never have !!!!

Kia Kaha Pukeko lots of Aroha coming your way !!!

JohnnyRED15 November, 2010

You should try an electronic cigarette, I dont know if it'll work though it might be shite too! I dont know why life is shite either but I'm behind you all the way in the pear tree pukeko.

Tracy15 November, 2010

Hey Pukeko, on my first day you were one of the first to jump on and say hi. I can remember you typing ... hahahahahaha between words ... it made me laugh and I thank you for putting a smile on my face that first day. I too send lots of aroha your way now that you are having tests hun!

You're so right when it comes to finding knew ways to deal with crap. Do what ever you can to make it through hun, I have even taken up cross stitch - gosh that makes me feel old!

Everyone needs you around here so remember your advice - be proud of how far you have come! All my best to get through today - Pukeko 1 - Nicodemon 0 !!! xxx

Ps: yes sometimes the world just sucks!

Raxal15 November, 2010

Noooooo this doesn't sound like our Happy, Bubbly Lady at all and whoever broke her..... better fix her lmao.
Ohhhhh honey..... it'll sort and hey it's.... bloody Monday ha ha ha.
Totally agree with statement bout it being a whole new and incredibly in ya face process.... but if life was always easy...... why get outta bed lol and if we didn't have the challenge.... then how do we grow.
You are an Absolute Legend and Mega Inspiration so keep up the awesome work and will look forward to ya next post.
Kia Kaha, Keep smiling :)

Ady16 November, 2010

Hi Pukeko, its just a frame of mind, not "Life is S**t". Fact:- Dont let let 1 day or even 1 ciggy ruin all the months of dedication & work You have just done. Like you say,... 1 day at a time.
on days like this one needs a reminder to take 5 min to relax & cast your mind over how far you've come & where you want to go. knowing that if you can control this 1 hard day then you can get what you want. please keep up the strength Pukeko, i dont want to see you go back to the start.
cheers

yas0116 November, 2010

Hey Pukeko, you are always commenting on my blogs, inspiring me. You have come such a long way and will continue to.
You can do this mate, 1 day at a time, water, straw, deep breaths.
I back on track tomorrow so we can both spur each other on like always.
Take care, onwards & upwards xxx

just jag16 November, 2010

Hi Pukeko, hope today is a better one. Knowing others have gone through this is not much help right now but we do have this site where we can kick, scream, swear, cry and offload some of our anger and hurt. It will pass and these times will get fewer so remember ODAAT (one second at a time!)
Keep laughing Pukeko, you are an inspiration. XXX

Dentarthurdent16 November, 2010

hey mate, it must be catching:) I'm having one of those days where all I want to do is tell the world to stop, I want to get off. Either that or tear the head off the next person who looks at me a little funny.
just jag is right, vent it here and feel better, that's what we're here for after all. Keep sucking on that straw and if that doesn't work, put the straw into a few bottles of bourbon and you'll feel even better:)
Kia Kaha

young cath16 November, 2010

hope you are feeling better than yesterday pukeko

LisaR16 November, 2010

You are simply the most amazing person!! Don't you dare fall down, you are totally my inspirational role model!!! hahaha!!!!!
Hope this week is much brighter with less torment!!!

There is a split second when you get a smoke in your mouth where you feel slightly triumphant - "HA I CAN DO WHAT I WANT" - and then that second of slight triumph is replaced with loads of guilt and feelings of failure.

How nice is it to battle through, perhaps feel pissed at the world and those around are us lucky to have survived, but at the end of the day we did it!!! And for that each day we should be most proud!!!!

Hang in there you role model you. See you are rubbing off on me, am too giving inspirational speeches now!!! You are awesome! xxx

ps agree with Raxal, whoever broke you deserves kick up ass!!! :) hahaha!!!

11Nov2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

Great Sites to Check out !!

To all the newbies here are some great sites to help you on your journey !!
http://youtube.com/user/smokefreeNewZealand this has been set up from a long time blogger mintyfresh who has helped inspire so many of us .....wonder where she is ???????? a site to look at in particular is Thanks Tobacco for killing my mom ....very deep ...so get the tissues xx

Another great site is http://www.whyquit.com/joel/ntap.pdf this is a great read & just helps a little bit to why we should never ever take another puff...(I apologise coz I do not remember who inspired me with this )

Then another great one to track your Stopped smoking is
http://www.dedicateddesigns.com/qk/

I have been quit for 4 Months, 6 Days, 7 hours, 51 minutes and 50 seconds (129 days). I have saved $923.74 by not smoking 3,233 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Week, 4 Days, 5 hours and 25 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 4/07/2010 10:30 PM

Another great site is just here !!! hahahahaha awesome bunch of people xxx

These are just things that have helped me on my journey ...One Day At A Time ..(mistermister) THANK YOU!!

So take a little bit of this ... a little bit of that....... & do whatever it takes (most of the time)hahahahaha to enjoy your life now as a non smoker !!! because yep it is worth it !!

LisaR11 November, 2010

Excellent thanks heaps for those links.... I could use a little motivation at the moment.... as you would say hahahahahahahahaha, yup am still cranky with the husband!!! LOL!!! Hope tis a wonderful day in your world!!! x

Tracy11 November, 2010

Hey Pukeko, awesome links thank you! I have managed to avoid any information that involves tissue boxes or makes my eyes water in any shape or form. I know that looking at what the true consequences of smoking are will only strengthen my resolve to maintain a smoke free lifestyle. Cheers!

Ady11 November, 2010

Awesome info, Thanx Pukeko.

maggie12 November, 2010

Great stats you are going well Pukeko .

9Nov2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

WOW O WOW GUESS WHAT I DID TODAY !!

HAHAHAHA I have not long got home from doing a magazine shoot hahahahaha yep me ..hahahaha yep had to drive to the city omg I really wanted a smoke my nerves wtf hahaha traffic !!!
It is do with quitting smoking in 2010 along with a fitness lady ...a new working mum & a lady that has lost heaps of weight !!! (I wish for that one now hahaha...but the goal for 2011) hahahahaha & had a 2 hour session of makeup & hair done then a photo shoot wearing a pretty dress !!!!!! Yep me in a dress hahaha hahahahahahahaha omg it was so much fun!!! hahahaha & yep I was also interviewed & yep said I had a couple of slips along the way & that you guys keep me going & that we are like a family coz no one else can understand & that this is the best decision I have ever made ...so if you ever get the opportunity to do something like that ...Just do it ....I was shaking in my boots hahahaha & said if anyone had a smoke that I would have been smoking it hahahaha not really but I was so damn nervous hahahahaha.(the deep breaths help!!!!!!!!)
You certainly start to step outside the square that is for sure when you stop smoking ...yep One hell of a journey & yep still damn well worth it !!! ONE DAY AT A TIME xx
Thanks team coz there is no i in team

lisa29 November, 2010

OHH if only we knew how many doors would open for us a. i done the thats life artical at the start of October it is a very VERY strange thing to flick through a mag and see your own face in it lol...but if it helps even just one person its soooo worth it a....i just watched your interview on close up im soo proud of you pukeko!! we all are!! alrite alrite enough arss kissing i really hope you enjoyed your day of pamper if i were you i might stay dolled and head out for tea?? what mag we looking out for??

LisaR9 November, 2010

Your a star!!!! How nice to be pampered like that!!! I just love how you hahahahahaha!!! Ha!!! Makes me crack up!!!

pukeko9 November, 2010

We all need it hahaha & I am just learning that ....my daughter just told me MUM you should always wear makeup like that coz you look younger hahahahahaha ...it only took an hour wtf hahahahahaha .

Lisa2 Wow I saw that article I thought it was you ....and wow the honesty aye xx
hahaha it teaches us to step outside the square whew & breathe hahahahahaha it makes you very vulnerable but hey I am finding this to be a big part of my journey !!! & if I can help one person yep !!! I would walk this path again & again ....but I do feel vulnerable & that is ok ....xx

yas019 November, 2010

Wooh Hoo!!! Lucky you all glamed up. Well done you so deserve it

maggie9 November, 2010

Gosh you are doing great yes what mag are we looking for have to get it .

pukeko10 November, 2010

Hahahaha thanks guys ..the mag is Good Health ..It is going to be in the January edition .

horlicks10 November, 2010

Hi pukeko just read your blog, Well done you!!!!

29Oct2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

The Power Of Mothers

Me aro koe ki te ha o Hine-ahu-one

Pay heed to the dignity of women

PUROTU....(seeking the magic)
to people who have experienced tragedy & trauma to "fly" if given the chance .

This will be my mantra to all of us ...as a quitline TEAM!!!...& I have not even gone past the intro xx

There is no i in team ..xx

pukeko29 October, 2010

I have to add this as I have started to read the next part....was ...way ...not what I thought it was ...but I still will believe I cannot read the book but I will & I will let you know ..coz Whoa....deep ...in a prison kinda way ...sorry guys ...always read the back cover huh ! hahahahaaha...but you know what I like that mantra ...coz....that to me is what giving up smoking has been !! xx...Have a great weekend all ...smoke free ...One Day ...yep One Day At A Time ....& newbies you are just so damn lucky to be here with the most incredible team xx

jaxb3 November, 2010

Pukeko.. Hello Darling... I'm still smoking.. arrghh (tapu word) lol.... how the hell are you woman?? you are or have done soooooooo bloody well girlfriend! I will give up soon no doubt about it my friend!

What happened with you on tv.. what were you on? "close up"? let me know whats going on..... miss y'all... howdy dent and shane36..... remember me guys??? the silly one lol

jaxb3 November, 2010

Oh and email me.. borellfaasoo@gmail.com
Like to know how your doing, and if you have heard from cath or debz? I'm so proud of you all for carrying on and reaching for the top.... so much crap has happened since last time we spoke... but all is well... whats it like being on tele.. what happened? you get a prize? lol

29Oct2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

HI!!

Yep I am back ....so how has it been ...pretty damn tough hahahaha ...got up ...tears filled my eyes no not guilt ...just kids ...hahaha....went to yoga ...(I have bought these magna power massage soles for my foot hahaha 1) ...could not sleep or walk as running last night pucked my foot ...so chose to go to yoga with swollen eyes hahaha...got there ...& omg ...got the shits ...hahaha...still just got to class Whew ...it is 1 hour in a week that just belongs to me !! so high or hell water I was going !!!!...spoke to yoga teacher ...yep ...body readjusting ...& I was told I did the best damn yoga ever !!! ME !!!! ten tonne tessie hahaha ME!!! so I came home sat for another 30 minutes in the throne palace hahaha ...got glammed up ....grabbed my smoke money ......all $400.....& I spent it all on just me!!!!!!!! 2 pairs of shoes (to suit my massage soles hahahaha) ....a pandora charm ...& 2 books ...Eat Pray & Love ...was told read the book coz I am on a BIG Journey !!! (as if you didn't know) hahaha & The Power Of Mothers laughed lots had a ball ...came home ...went to hairdressers ...cut all my hair off so it is short ...got told off by a policeman ...for speeding by a school ...wtf I was only going 30 k...coz I know the school ...so shocked angry ...so went to my sisters cried ...pulled out those smokes ...smoked 1 & said "You Know what ...I am no longer a smoker "!!!!!!!!..............so Onwards & Upwards walked in the door to my kids 2&3 have been nice ...I cooked ...& sat down here to tell you it is ok I am back ...(in between all of this doc tests not good ...so off there again on Monday ..as if I do not have enough ....sh.t going on ....hahahaha but guess what I AM NOW IN MY WORLD A NON SMOKER !!! I have just jumped the biggest STEP in MY JOURNEY!!!
Thank You Guys because without all of you ....I would have crashed & burned ....xx

yas0129 October, 2010

Oh mate, you are the most amazing person. You are doing great.

I think all us Mums know what its like. There isnt a day that goes by that my son & I dont clash or I get that wound out that I just want a smoke.

Your blogs are so honest & inspirational you have been the major supporter for me and I hope I can help you see you amazing, you are a non smoker. Slipups happen mate we all know that I know that 1st hand.

Dont beat yourself up move on. You are doing great. And yay a pandora charm.

As for the policeman "oh well"

Take care mate xx

pukeko29 October, 2010

Yas01 ...yep it is about giving up smoking ...but you know what it is even more than that ...&...I think ...actually that is why I say it is a journey ...yep your journey for you ...but omg ..if I can just help ONE person to stop YEP ..I will fight to the death ...black or white ...it is our own journey ..I share ...my life with you all ...because ...well because through it ....I am learning ..hey maybe for me ..yep ...but for everyone ..& that is why I always say I am who I am for a damn good reason ...I am honest ...& I am learning ...& at hey 45 ...as tough as it is ...would I go back ..nup...can ...I go forwards ...Yep...& if my journey helps ...I will go to my grave HAPPY!!!...not that I am jumping the queue hahahaha but you know what I mean xx

yas0129 October, 2010

sure do xxx

Dentarthurdent29 October, 2010

pukeko, a slip is a slip. That's it. Nothing more. Not failure, just a slip.
Yas is right, you are an amazing person. You motivate so many people on this site it's not funny. Can you help one person? You have helped heaps of people, me included, every day.
As you said on TV, this is the toughest thing that most of us will ever do. If it was easy then we wouldn't need this site, we wouldn't need this family.
Arohanui.

Raxal29 October, 2010

You are a LEGEND, you keep it real and man your so inspiring.
It's special to check on my blogs and read your happy vibes and wisdom.
So please don't doubt.... put it out lol
You are a strong, independent and vivacious attituded lady with a spicy view on life so keep up your mish cause you inspire me and I tell my other FAB mates bout your mishs so it's being paid forward.
Keep up the awesome work be proud and keep smiling.

horlicks29 October, 2010

Yes pukeko, stand strong and be so proud of yourself. You have helped so many of us at times when we felt like giving in. This really is starting to feel like a family on here, I know if I didn`t have you guys I would have lit up by now. We are all in this together, through the good and the bad no matter what we do. xx

28Oct2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

I always tell the truth!!

So ok I have had the day from hell ...actually 2 days from hell....so yesterday I decided to be selfish ....touch season has started & male testosterone hit home tenfold...with my two teenage boys ...so I chose not to go to touch (a family thing ...I don't play ...I help on the bbq)..I needed to go to meditation ...something new for me ..went once loved it got sick...long story short ....I didn't go to touch ... went to meditation ....HEAVEN!!!!....did not have dinner for the family /....no points there but forewarned .....so hell day today at work coz there is a thief there ...mmmmmmm boss(owner & I had a chat )all good ...no phone call from home today re dinner ...I got in at 6.00 no dinner... daughter baking all good ...son 2 has attitude ..son 1 tx ...attitude so let it all go ...then all home ....dad at work yep normal...but I could not cope ...tried to not talk loudly hahaha ...but lost it as only mothers can ....lost the plot ...& left ...money in hand grabbed a lighter that is hidden for power cuts .... ...I had 15 minutes ...to run ... a 25 minute walk....me with a foot !!! I ran ...I bought ....I ripped the packet open ...I smoked .....I sucked ...I released ....I cried ...I lit another ....walked so slow home ...took me 40 minutes ..so lesson learnt ...sore foot ...guilt yep ...released stress yep kinda...a non smoker ...yep I still am ...but it was either smash my kids faces in hahahahaha (NO) but the anger I had to go ....or I did not know what to do ...they have all asked me quietly did I ....I have not answered ...&...not sure I will....some things are not for childrens ears....but I have to tell you guys ...coz this is part of my journey ....I was so angry for all kind of things bound together ....kids ..work...husband.....my health ...my weight ....I hit a wall ...I hid ...but I am back ...lesson learnt ...had another smoke with a glass of port ...sat outside & had a good old cry ....had to tell the truth to someone so you guys are it ....off to bed now ...load off ...new day tomorrow ...Onwards ...Upwards ....slipped back on xx & learning a mothers guilt is tenfold x

catz29 October, 2010

Yes, your right!, truth is best!!. After reading all your supporting notes to other no smokers, including yourself, because you have just had a "slip up" not a "relapse" I am confident that you will get back on track in know time. The key is, NEVER give up giving up!!. Circumstances happen and thats the only way you thought you could cope.
Please don't beat yourself up.
I gave up for 8 months and signed up with this sight earlier in the month but have been reading everyone blogs and have not thought there was a great need to responed as everybody else was saying the right things. I did feel the needed to responed to you. You will probably throw the rest out if you haven't already.
Hang in there mate!!. KIA KAHA.
AROHANUI Xx :)

yas0129 October, 2010

Oh chick,
Shit happens mate. A slip up thats all. And Mum to Mum I know sometimes you just cant cope and lash out in a way you dont mean to.
Remember my blogg re last weekend I slipped up for 2 days. I did the same I brought a pack as I was having a hard time re son & partner, feeling like I all do is everything for everyone else and not me. Making sure they all ok have what they need and me oh well its only me. I couldnt do it I did exactly what you did mate.
You are a non smoker its just an ongoing journey and you know what we are here for you. We all slip up doesnt mean we are back to regular smoking.
We are here for you mate xxx

horlicks29 October, 2010

Oh Pukeko, so proud of you for being honest, and yas01 is right, it is only a slip up so don`t beat yourself up mate. I also know how hard it is being a mum and trying to keep your cool. I have had a few moments where I have just flipped right out too and just wanted a smoke. As for the weight thing, you are not alone there but its better to have some fat than cancer right? The fat can come off the cancer can`t.
You have been a real inspiration for all of us on here pukeko, so please go easy on yourself. Remember we all make mistakes, think how far you have come. xxx

t0maiiz29 October, 2010

Hey Pukeko...gee you had it rough my friend. I think you did what you felt was the best coping mechanism at the time.

That's not a bad thing it's a better alternative to other 'solutions'. You are a tough cookie Pukeko and I know how much you have encouraged others in this quit whanau we are here to do the same for you.

Hope you have a great weekend, kia kaha e hoa :)

Dentarthurdent29 October, 2010

Arohanui.

pukeko29 October, 2010

Thanks dent !! xx that means so damn much xx

26Oct2010 By pukeko  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me

You all might get a shock!!

The reason I did this tv thing was ...re banning smoko in the workplace ....my standing is ...I disagree..... they have no right to stop smoko ( & this is not just for smokers ...beware...)!!...To me ....my giving up smoking has been my personal choice & who am I to judge whether you choose to smoke or not..... this was my choice..... I know the best damn choice is not to smoke ...but I have only just learnt this ... I am not one to judge & I will not...so you all may be shocked ......but our journey is our journey......
I just chose to quit now rather than later...& if they attacked alcohol with the same force that they attack smoking ..maybe I may change my opinion but .....who says you cannot take a smoko break ......next they will tell me when I can s..t...only on a monday Yeah Right !!!!
Smoko breaks have been forever ...& they want to take away my break .....my smoko break...NEVER!!!!!!!(even tho I do not smoke anymore ...& never ever will)...xx
I had to write this coz I think thru re- reading blogs that maybe it was about smoking ...it is ....& ...it isn't.
So I definitely will let you know hahahahaha as only I could hahahahaha & I hope I have not upset or mislead ...hahahaha I sound like Paul Henry hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha or a rugby player or 2 hahahahahahaha.

Steve36 ...good luck for tomorrow xx

Raxal26 October, 2010

Agree completely mate,
Smoko doesn't mean ya have to smoke but that doesn't mean that others can't.
It's a freedom of choice and everyone is free to make their own choices.
I believe firmly in the system of Choices, Actions and Consequences in life and as long as we take responsibility for our own it's all good. Congrats matey.

mandykoo27 October, 2010

Yes, I agree with you, pukeko. I am not for banning smoking or making it impossible for people because it has to be THEIR choice. No one has the right to make broadsweeping decisions for other people. Provided they are smoking in a way that doesn't compromise others' health, then it should be their choice.

kath27 October, 2010

Work places, why does having a break have to be called "Smoko", like others have said, to each their own, why not say "T" break or whatever else that may come to peoples minds. Does it really have to be "Smoko" hahahaha

horlicks27 October, 2010

Good on you Pukeko!! I totally agree with what you have all said.