Day 7
Well here i am, in the last 19yrs i have never been without a ciggie for 7 days straight!! I am still having the thoughts after eating oh i will pop out for a ciggie, then i think oh no i dont smoke anymore feels good, although food is tasting better. Every now and then i get heart pulpitations (spelling) is this normal anyone else feeling like that??? Also been getting bleeding noses mmmmmm weird but would rather have these than a ciggie now.... I am slightly nervous i have my squash club dinner on saturday night coming up, alot of the woman i play with are smokers mmmmmm they will be going out for ciggies, am trying to prepare myself for the event of not getting up and going out with them especially since alcohol will be involved!!!!!
Day 5
Well i got through yesterday in the end, i threw myself on my bed and had a good cry and felt better my partner wondered what was wrong with me when he got home and i couldnt even talk to him. I took my son to squash and had every intention of stopping and buying a packet but i didnt and i felt so good about myself for not doing it. I knew i only had a few hours left of the day and i could do it well done me!!! I have been and had a game of squash myself this morning i have been playing for almost 20yrs and had always been a smoker, my i could run around the court better today and didnt feel myself gasping for breath after each rally and thats only after 4 days makes me feel more confident that i dont want to smoke now!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 4
Well it is only 9.44am and i have lost count on how many times i have thought about going and buying a pack of ciggies this morning... My 10mth old daughter is sick with the flu and i cant even walk out of the room without her starting to cry and scream as soon as i walk back in she fine again starting to do my head in slightly poor wee sausage!!!! I am being strong i have come on here now as she is in bed having asleep to read how well everyone else is going and making me feel that i want to be good too!!!!! Damn lack of sleep due to aftershocks dont help!!!!!!!!!! OH JUST GET THROUGH THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HICO
Hey i am really keen to set something up with the people in CHCH i think with everything going on at the moment we could all use the extra support a coffee group or dinners sounds like an awesome thing!!! Any other CHCH readers keen comment on here and we should try and organise!!!! Oh i am a 34yr old female from St Albans LOL
Day 2
Well i am back on the wagon of quitting again, the trembling under my feet has finally started to calm down. I had been smoke free for 3 and 3/4 days until i picked up a ciggie and had it, really didnt enjoy it and didnt make stress any better but the habit kicked in again. I feel gutted i went back to the smokes but some habits are just harder to kick, i feel i did do well though i used to smoke 15 ciggies a day and over the week that i did smoke again i only went through 3 packets so at least i didnt let it trap me back in to full on smoking!! So i am on day 2 again this time not going to let myself slip due to something silly happening again!!! Well i certainly feel better being without the smokes again!!!!!!!
Why Christchurch
Hey guys havnt been on since friday, was without power half day on sat, woke up to stuff flying around my bedroom my tv getting thrown to the ground, wondering how my kids were. My son came to my room as soon as it had stopped i tried to get out of my bed to get to my kids but could not even stand!!! My 10mth old daughter slept through the whole thing lucky her!!! Well i had been 3 days non smoking at that stage and had already been through crap and then that i have to say i am now on monday and have had 4 ciggies which i do congratulate myself for cause i do have a whole packet here and have been trying to control myself... Well will just get back on board and get rid of packet and start again it so frustrating that when i try and give up this bloody happens...........
Day 3
Well i have woken this morning and feeling better in myself not all stuffed up in my nose and generally feel ok. I am feeling like i am in limbo mode between still wanting a smoke but not wanting to ruin what i have achieved already.. I was so happy i have decided to not drink at the moment well i am giving up as alcohol is a trigger for me wanting to smoke, my partner has also said he will be alcohol free with me which is going to be a great help. I also have found that it is not so much the nicotine that i am missing it is the habit, i am a at home mum and ciggies gave me something to do weird so have to find other stuff to do more housework LOL. I hope i can say goodbye to smokes for eva have been smoking for 19yrs..............
Day Number 2
Well i thought the first day was pretty easy and had hoped all the rest would be the same but i was wrong....LOL.... I find it funny that anything that can go wrong does for one my computer screen has a big mark from where i pushed to hard on it when plugging in video cam, two my partner got called out to work smack bang on tea time i have 2 children 10 and 9mths so tea time stressful already and three go to head out to shops today and the car has flat battery i couldnt believe it when you try something things just happen that make you want a ciggie but i stayed strong and put my daughter in her pushchair and went for a walk and picked my son up from school... I have tried giving up before but i dont think i was ready as i made excuses to smoke all the time but this time i feel different thinking about the money i will save and getting healthier.... Chrissie
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Nice work Chrissie. Feels pretty good to get through a week doesn't it? Awesome stuff.
I too had nose bleeds for the first couple of weeks which then settled down. I would think if they went on for longer than that, go see your Doctor. I also got bleeding gums after brushing my teeth for a while also. Apparantly this is to do with the blood getting back to the extremeties as it should do. Not sure about the palpitations though. If they continue, see your Doc.
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Well done, Chrissie - you are over the worst!!! Keep up the great work.
Keep it up you are doing awesome...I had the odd palpatation & breathed my way through them ...had one today actually...thought I was having a heart attack!! But just kept deep breathing...I now do not panic ...kinda like having to much caffeine... now the shock of no nicotine!! hahaha lol well done you ...the only way is up the mountain!!