It's been a while...........
And I'm still here yay!!!!! 82 days!!!!! 82 dayssssss!!!!!!
Still using my patches and gum as I always sway at Around this mark and go straight back to smoking
NOT THIS TIME!!!!! This is it!!! NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF!!!
How's everything going with you guys?
Can't believe it! Still using patches and gum or lozenges thoughts of smoking are fleeting, this is it! I will NEVER smoke again!
How is everyone going?
Wheres the magic wand when you need it?
Took the children out today to run some errands, and I really wish I had a remote control to pause and mute them!!!!
Feeling tired and frustrated and lost today, I know there is a packet of cigs in my glove box but since my slip the other night I haven't touched them - tempting it is, I just can't bring myself to do it!
I just wish I could zap the need from them from my brain like Id never smoked or wanted to smoke at all!!!!
I feel like im dragging my feet more and more these days, and this is my normal cycle for quitting its around now, or over the next two or so weeks that I cave, and slip right back into the old habit of slowly chocking myself to death!
I don't even want to smoke! I just want this doom and gloom to eff off!!!!
Going back to Step 1 Patches and will do so for 8 weeks as appose to 30 or so days - hopefully this is the key!!!!
Reset quit date
Because of my slip I've taken two days off my quit date for the two cigs I disgustingly inhaled in my fit of rage after my argument with my partner last night. It's not happening again I won't allow it!
Well after a very hard week, and then a massive fight with my partner,
I went out last night and bought a pack of Cigs - I had two cigs and I feel awful!!!!
my trigger is STRESS!!!! I need to learn how to process the stress, without it getting too much like last night and the first thing I did was hit the cigs!!!!
I know now that honestly this is the hardest journey to travel - And I also know that I never want to smoke again!!!!
The old me would have been WHAM back into smoking 25 a day! but as soon as I smoked them (one after the other) I felt terrible guilt and grief like I was loosing the battle, and the taste was disgusting!!!!
I slipt, but Im not letting it beat me, I am strong, and I know I can do this!!!!
HERE COMES 5 WEEKS!!!!
37 Days today!!!! Man that went fast!!! loving it!!! Patches gum and lozenges are amazing - only fleeting thoughts of smoking yay yay yay!!!
How is everyone going?
And today I really want a cig! BAD! still got my patches on and gum but dam I want a cig!!!! Stupid really cos I know it will taste like s*it!
WAH! can't wait for this day to be over!
DAM PAIN! GO AWAY!!!
This happens to me everytime I gain a little weight!!!!
my sciatic nerve in my back starts playing up and my ankle injury I did to myself starts giving me grief!!!!
So in addition to quitting smoking I really have to watch what I put in my mouth If I want any sleep!!! Dam it!!!! I was really looking forward to continuing to eat everything in sight!!!!
Thank you my two beautiful children for sitting on my back whilst pregnant with both of you!!! I really appreciate it!!!! NOT!!!!
28 Days = 4weeks = 1 whole month!!!!
Me stats as follows:
Smokefree days: 28 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 700!!!!!!
Money saved: $616.00
700 cigs!!!!! wow!!!! its kinda gross to think that in one month I would have smoked 700 cigs had I still been a smoker!!!!
Step 2 patch on today and feeling good!
Bring it baby!!!!
hope everyone is having a fantabulous smoke free day!!!!
SO OVER IT!!!!
Man today sucked the suckiest that has ever sucked!!!! I was so over everything today! children, partner, parents, puppy, my fat bum!!!!
Sooooooooo wanted a cig today like BIG TIME!!!!!
But no I resisted and went and chopped (more like smashed) some wood over and over and over again and felt a lot better!
I will not be beaten! I will try and try and try again!!!! I will never stop fighting!!!!