Morning guys. Just wanted to say a huge thanks for supporting me yesterday. No headache today and feeling calmer. I think just writing out my feelings helps put them in perspective. Anyway still not smoking and quite surprised at myself. Have a great day everyone.
coming off the champix
I've been feeling absolutely rotten since cutting down on the champix. Permanent headache, totally drained and finding it very difficult to concentrate. My moods have got moodier - angry one minute, happy the next. I was so much better when I was taking the full amount. Am now wary of the drug as the side effects of coming off it are worse than the side effects of coming off the smokes:(
50 days today
I am at my fifty mark - yeehaa.....
Still very up and down but sticking with it. Hope you're all having a great day
Smokers have a hard time feeling good about themselves don't they? I read yet another article in paper this morning which targetted smokers. I think it's mean. I didnt like it as a smoker and I don't like it as a non smoker. I get no pleasure whatsoever in, by default, becoming a member of the sanctimonious brigade. I read some blogs here today by people who say they couldn't 'even' get past four days. I read another blog which made her addiction sound like a happy habit. However we remember ourselves as smokers or are as non smokers, I don't think it's helpful, kind or necessary for media, politicians and Jo public to use us as an easy bullying opportunity. It hurts and isolates. Not a great place from which to turn ones life around. And Thats my morning vent:). Hugs to us all. Whether smoking or not smoking we are worthwhile.
40 days down
Hi guys. Well, I'm forty days into my smoke free self. Am pretty stoked. Have a great day all.
I could so go a fag
God knows why. Was sitting with a couple of clients and I had an overwhelming urge to smoke. It's still there. Am blogging now to stop myself caving in. Aaaarrrgggghhhhh....... Going to write some notes and wait for next client in half an hour. Have to keep occupied. Lots of background stress is probably the thing that's tipping me around. Daughter and girlfriend have separated and both are upset, broken off with a friend who I cared for deeply but who was doing me harm and that's it. OK - am giong to send this before I delete it....
School has started and I am BACK:)
Hi quit family. Two weeks of unmitigated hell (not really). Actually the hols went pretty well, infact very well. For me, it's not having that underlying feeling of guilt that makes me feel more confident and happier. The weight is piling on like there is no tomorrow but I figure I'll get around to that in good time.
Lovely to see there are so many of us and so many newbies who sound so motivated and so switched on and in. I reckon we're all pretty fab really....:)
Morning all. What crap weather we are having. Lovely to not be standing outside in it, puffing away. Enjoy your Sunday. I am going to spend the day cooking and ironing which I truly love.
Had mega row with my bloke last night. Didn't make it to the dairy to buy the fags even tho I was screaming for one. High level craving has stayed since then. Am going to be vigilant about remembering to take the champix as I hadn't bothered and the anger last night was supersonic.
I was getting a bit used to not having cravings so when they've been crushing me down all day, and am still feeling like I could just go a smoke, am feeling pretty damn p.....ed off! It only takes a tiny bit of stress and WHAM - it's back onto wanting the smokes like i never stopped. But, I have stopped. Today is my 28th day (wooohooo). Am going to make a cup of tea now, breathe deep, do some marking, keep the blog site open and have some calming music in the background. I hate it when it feels like this - all slog and no stress. Hope you are all hanging on in there and having a lovely smoke free evening.