Today is not a good day for me. Nothing manjor has happened, I still have a job and no one I know has died ( to my knowledge.) I am just feel a little antsy? I have never wanted a cigarette so badly since I quit. Ever so often when I am at home I will say "I want a cigarette." BUt now... I WNAT A GOD DAMN CIGARETTE!
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I had to do a double take when I saw that number. Wow 134 days of having the smoking monkey off my back. It feels great. I used to get sick quite a bit before (i have lungs problems.) But now that I am not smoking the amount I get sick has reduced. I am not saying that being smoke free means that I am cured but it is helping.
Yay for quitting! If I can do it with little to no will power then anyone can.
Also known as Joe 90's cousin! Well I cannot really believe that I made it to the 90's. I realised recently that I haven’t caught myself thinking about smokes in a week or so. Things are still going well and I no consider myself to be a non smoker not an ex smoker. Might treat myself when I get to day 100! Any ideas on what I could do?
72 days without cigarettes 72 days with no smokes... Wow this whole journey as lasted a lot longer then I thought it would. Oh me of little faith (see what I did there?) A friend of mine just sned me a lovely email telling me that I was the inspiration that she needed to quit. She is on day 62. It is a wonderful thing to hear that and it gave me warm fuzzies - which I currently need because my office has no heating. All in all I am doing pretty good. I still have those moments when I think I want a cigarette. I just say that I want one and the second I say I don't want any anymore. I know that I still have a long way to go but I am up for the challenge.
Wow day 51!
51, day 51! I honestly never thought I would get this far. I am so proud of myself. So much so that I have taken up singing lessons and a gift to myself for staying off the nicotine. I had a smoke one night after a few drinks but the was a while ago and I haven't looked back since. I refuse to use it as a excuse to start again ors ee it as a failure on my flife choice. The next step is to start seeing myself as a non smoker not an ex smoker.
Wow I have started writing this at 8.36am on day 36! It has sure been a stress filled week or so. The place that I work is heavily nvolved in the 2011 Christchurch earthquake so I have been very busy from here in Wellington. But I have managed to keep busy and voice my frustrations when I need to.
It's the 29th day of the beginning of my smoke free life. I have to admit there have been a couple of times in the last week when I have wanted to rip a smoke out of the nearest smokers hands and suck on that sweet sweet nictone goodnes. But I have this far refrained. My boyfirned has been an absolute god send through this entire experience. I don't think I would have done half as well with out his support, encouragement and refusal to give me a smoke. Work at the moment is really stressful - and I am finding it hard to keep my cool. So I need to find someway to do that with reverting to the usual nicotine fix. That is the next mission.
Happy 21st.... day.
Word on the street (and by street I mean google.) Word on the street is that it takes 21 days to break a habit good or bad. (personally I don't see why you would want to break a godd habit but there you go.) So today is that day, day 21.
I noticed on Friday day 18 how much I use smoking to measure time. I know that my morning break at work takes the time to work to my favourite smoking area, roll my cigarette, smoke it and walk back. But now my internal clock is all stuffed and I can't differentiate between 5 minutes and 15 minutes because I have nothing to measure it by. Hopefully this problem with right itself at some stage. Physically I feel fine. My flatmate warned me that I will get to a stage at about day 10-12 days where I am coughing up a lung every 5 seconds (or maybe 5 minutes; I am not sure as I can’t tell anymore) but it never happened. I also didn’t get overly snappy. Sure my fuse got shorter but I managed to keep it in check 97.2% of the time. It all just seems like it is too easy. (I Bet I have spoken too soon.)
Phew - day 17. I have had a few curly days recently. I find that I want a smoke when I am bored - which happens often on the weekends. On Saturday I got so bored and cigarette cravin that I cleaned and re arranged my bedroom. If you knew me at all you would be cluthing at your chest and falling to the ground right now. But I feel okay. The real test will come at my 2 friends joint birthday after I have had a couple, but it is not till 12th March. Until then. "Ain't nothing gonna break my stride, nobody's gonna slow me down oh no. I've got to keep not smoking." (It sounded way better in my head.)
Today marks a monumental step on my expedition to better life. I managed to converse with a smoker while they were smoking. Wait – now that I write it down it doesn’t seem that epic at all. At the time I felt as though the horse what I had just bet all my life savings on had come first after being falling over at the start of the race and running the wrong way. At that moment as my smoking comrade made out with the ciggie I realised. “I don’t want a smoke, I feel like I should have one; because it’s lunchtime and I always have a smoke at lunchtime.” I was floored, completely gob smacked. How did I not realise this fact earlier? May have to google the answer to that.