Wow ive saved $96! :)
Now that made me feel a bit better. Today i have a bad taste in my mouth again, im still doing the ritual of get up, put patch on, before anything else haha. Id hate to be out somewhere and suddenly realise i didnt have one on when i started getting grumpy at everyone.
So day 15 today, still struggling, god, last time i was doing quite well, this time seems to be much harder.
Didnt get to go to Santa as planned that other day, stupid friends' ex boyfriend didnt read what days santa was there, just the times, so we did this huge walk fo nothing. Its so much easier tho when you not huffing like a wolf lol.
But off to Santa today and then to my Cafe to have some Lunch :)) Have a good day people :)
Day 14 and a nasty craving is attacking me
Forgotten to post lately, went for a huge walk with a friend yesterday to see Santa at Harvey norman, by the time i came home, fed my son and sorted my house and checked my Facebook (very important lol) i just didnt get round to blogging.
Then i log on here and check my stats and omg ive been smokefree for 14 days, so 2 weeks!!! Pretty happy with that. Id love to be like 243 days or something like that but thats still awhile away.
Anyhoo, as to the reason why im blogging arrrrg been hit with a nasty craving!! I even just had the thought cross my mind to ask my man to go get some smokes for me from the dairy, and would of come up with some lame reason as to why i need them. He does say no but sometimes i manage to convince him. I know i shouldnt, and i wont, but its just sometimes a real hard fight when you're in a craving and its taking awhile to go away.
I used to be the kind of smoker that if i got hunger cravings sometimes i would have a smoke instead of eating as it was quicker to have a smoke than to make something, then convince my toddler that it was my meal lol while serving him something similar. So instead i used to give my toddler something and have a smoke instead.
So now when i get hunger cravings sometimes i have smoke cravings kick in too. I usually have a drink but today im not in the mood for drinking lol. Sorry guys just a rant, i hope it did make sense lol. I hope im not the only one that rambles random stuff on here lol
Just a quick vent!!!
Omg what is with the disgusting taste in my mouth i get on and off since quitting 10 days ago????
I thought my mouth had a bad taste when i was smoking but now it tastes just as bad, i clean my teeth and its better again for awhile but then it comes back. Still drinking lots of water too. Anyone had this?
Also a ton of headaches which are driving me slightly nutty, twitchy legs, and a blocked nose. That could just be hayfever but i wish i was feeling better lol.
I still crave the ciggies quite badly but wont give into the damn things, they make me feel like crap and I just have to keep fighting the thoughts. But OMG ITS NOT EASY!!! Im sorry for the yelling but wow some moments when a craving hits are not fun at all
Off to the xmas party in whangarei tonight but will be back on later to see how everyone has been :)
Grrrrr snarl omg!!!
Ahhh not a easy day today. Day 10 ive saved $63 already but im antsy, grumpy, have a headache and im always tapping my feet or fidgeting.
A couple of times ive wanted to just give in and start again but then i remember the pain i get in my back which is due to not breathing well when i smoke and it stops me. Its all in my head, thats just what I have to remember. Im not going to go mental if i dont have a cigarette. Im not going to die in my sleep from withdrawls, even though it does feel like it.
In some ways this second attempt is harder than the first one. I did get grumpy the first time i gave up. I had a real impressive argument with my partner the first time. i threw something at him lol, cant remember what and screamed at him. I dont usually scream when i argue lol.
This time i seem to be keeping it all bottled inside. But im still all twitchy and short tempered. Luckily my son isnt getting affected by it as hes a very well behaved toddler and so he doesnt try to wind me up too much. But my partner, omg he can really push me lol.
not gonna give up though god dammit. My in laws are also coming up in January, and my FIL and I dont get on very well and for him it would be a perfect "I told you so, that you couldnt quit" moment if i started again. I know im not meant to be doing it for someone else and im not, i am doing it for me, but to able to say to my father in law "nah im not smoking" will make me feel so good lol. Sorry for the ramble had to get this off my cheast. Do feel better now though
not such an easy day today
I cant honestly say my days are boring by any means, im always quite busy with my 21month old, my dog, my cat, my business and my life but still today i managed to spend a lot of time aimlessly wandering around the house really craving a smoke. I kept myself busy by cleaning, playing with my son etc, but I think today was one of the harder days.
Also finding that i eat a lot during the day just because i dont smoke anymore. And thats terrible coz 1 it makes me feel like a bloated whale and 2 i just tend to eat junk food. also with my son i dont have a ton of time to cook myself up a healthy meal that takes ages to prepare so i just kind of eat on the go.
So yea today a lot of cleaning, aimlessly pacing wanting a ciggie and oh yea i forgot to mention, rather grumpy. Some people are really really getting on my nerves at the moment lol. Its also been raining for the past 4 days here and my son and I have been stuck inside as hes been sick. Arg!!! vent over lol thanks for listening
God this water thing is tough
Well 8 days today. Ive got this new little routine in the morning that helps me get over the first craving when i get out of bed. Used to be have a ciggie and a coffee. Now i have a coffee and put a patch on lol. It kinda still makes me feel more relaxed at the fact my body has some nicotine going into it so i dont freek out lol.
Ive had a couple of days already where i have gotten out of bed and straight away had to tend to my son and forgotten to put my patch on till like midday and then suddenly im wondering why im so angry and snappy at everyone. Oops lol.
Anyway the reason for this blog......can someone please tell me how the hell Im meant to get through 8-10 glasses of water a day? I have a jug of water in the fridge and continuesly sip on a glass of it but only can seem to manage 5. I really want to get to 8-10 because it helps flush out your body of toxins.
The damn stress
Dont know if any of you remember me, I quit a year ago approx and In August of this year i started smoking again from stress. In August 08 i had a very close friend of mine commit suicide and i had the anniversary of that come up and caved.
Did manage to quit again a couple of times, but everytime i got only the slightest bit of stress i immediatly went back to smoking.
This time i really really want to stay a non smoker. I need to be drinking more water, at the moment I drink about 5 glasses a day, i need to be drinking 10, and need to keep my excersise up and keep my hands busy.
Smoking is really affecting my health. Especially not being able to breathe deeply for nearly 10 years, thats how long i was smoking for. Also the other thing that used to annoy me about smoking is going to bed at night and listening to my chest rattle from all the phlegm sitting on my chest.
So been exactly a week now since I quit. And this time I really do hope its for good.
Looking foward to meeting all of you and supporting eachother :)))
I lost my first battle
After having some rather large relationship problems i started smoking again. Been smoking since july so not super impressed even though 6 months is better than nothing I guess.
So im reordering the patches and blogging again, maybe go on the blog site longer as i left my blogging after 6 weeks when i quit the first time.
I have a anniversary of a friend who commited suicide coming up on the 16th of this month so i have decided im not going to give up till the day after the 16th because i think that would be starting my 2nd attempt already stressed.
So wish me luck...again...will be starting on the 17th!! :)
Hey Everyone old and new!!!
Im celebrating a MONTH of being smoke-free today!! Im so so psyched, never thought i would get this far. I had a complete meltdown last week as had to go 2 days without patches. I ran out and forgot to get more clever me!
My partner said in those 2 days he has never seen me so angry in his life. I have a confession to make to you all the might make you laugh and not see your meltdowns when quitting as too bad.
I was really angry that second day without patches and went around the house slamming doors lol, it made me feel better and my son wasnt in the house. Well needless to say i didnt use my brain and slammed our back door that has glass in it. SHATTER!! Oops lol $80 later!
Well im ok now again lol, i have my patches and about to move on to Stage 2 with them yay!
To anyone doubting themselves, YOU CAN DO IT!! Trust me if i can you can. Use the patches or gum or whatever you have to thats available out there. Hell, ive even heard they sell herbal ciggies, Keep busy, and drink lots of water and definatly follow the motto of this site, One day at a time, some times even a minute at a time.
Breathe through the cravings, punch a pillow if you feel frustrated, go into the middle of a field and scream if that does it for you. Ive used heaps of tactics and still do to get me through.
Sorry for the novel lol, but well done everyone on here for taking the journey of being smokefree. YOU ALL CAN DO IT!
Just remember from my dumbness, slamming doors is ok, just NOT GLASS ONES lol
Well i must say today wasnt too bad at all. Saying that though im still sleeping heaps
Quitline guys whats up with that????
I got up at 8:30am was back in bed at 11am, slept through till 1:30pm, got up to go to hte toilet, back to bed till 4:00pm. And still i go to bed at a reasonable hour not awake all night.
Ive got the patches on but take them off at night why is this happening its annoying.
Apart from that its been going ok for me, have spent my money on some more books for myself, im trying to get a library started.
I only just got on the blogs this evening, didnt read anything today and was surpirsed how much i missed you all.
You guys are all doing so so well and hiii to all the new guys joining us on this journey.
ODAAT we can do it everyone!