well on saturday night i had a few drinks with some friends (haven;'t had any drinks for 7 years) - in fact i haven't really been out partying since i got pregnant with my daughter 7 1/2 years ago.
I had about 5 smokes with my friends with the drinks.
Felt like total crap on Sunday but went straight back on the logenges and did not beat myself up about it.
Just got "back up on that horse" and started again.
what did i learn - SMOKING is GROSS!!!!
will i do it again - HELL NO!!. im at day 73 only 1 week til i stopped quitting last year. It aint guna happen this time. This journey isn't over - its only just begaan
45 days and counting
phew!!!! 45 days already - i got to day 71 last time before all hell broke loose. My next goal is 72 days and then its 100 days - after 100 days its 1 year and then last goal (or ongoing) is SMOKE FREE FOREVER.
My nearly 7 year old daughter is so proud of me - im proud of me (my family are supportative but don't really say anything).
I do admit to loving the smell of ciggie smoke near me but can't think id have one.
I really can't anyway at the moment - i have totally NO cash to buy them (which isn't a bad thing!!)
33 days smoke free!!!
can;'t believes its been a month already. am still going really strong
11 days down. Am feeling fan-bloody-tastic!! Next step 30 days
Well nearly 6 hours 2 go!! Back on the strait n narrow afa wee slip up. Next step 10 days!
I was tiding the house 2day (yip trying 2 keep busy and not 2 smoke), when i found my secret stash of 2 smokes. 4 sum stupid reason i just went outside and smoked 1. It tasted foul!! I sat down and went through my reasons why i did it. Still not sure why, but 1 thngs 4 sure im guna hav mre losenges 2moro (id workd out in past 2 days id had two! Instead of normal 8 a day!!). Im not guna let dis wee slip up get the beta of me! 2moros a new day and there will b NO smokes in it. I want 2 beat dis demon on my back. I know i cn do it. I beat the booze 7 1/2 years ago (not that i was much of a drinker 1 or 3 max). Heres 2 a new day 2moro
Day 3 nearly done
Still feeling great. Got a headache still but i know thats withdrawal from the caffeine (gave that up 2 as that was a trigger). Next stop 7 days
Today is a new day and i am ready to give up for good this time. Im feeling fantastic - i know where i went wrong last time and not guna do it this time.
This is day 1 of the rest of my life
should of been day 81 smoke free BUT.....
my nearly 6 year old daughter hit a car side on today when she ran across the street.
long story short she is ok (thank god) part from some facial bruising.
My nerves are shot to hell - i keep going over and over those 45 seconds when it all happened and can;t get it out of my head (and don;t think i ever will).
I had 4 smokes this evening - it didn;t really help but did it anyways.
so tomorrow is a new day - not sure if its starting again from zero day but i am not going to smoke any tomorrow.
it shows that i do need a strategy or two in place for times of stress
71 DAYS SMOKE FREE!!!
Just checking in - haven't been on line for a week or two now - too busy working full time now and eating lol.
The working thing has been very different - i now sit in the cafe and watch the smokers go out for their (at least) 3 smoke breaks a day - and think that used to be me - slave to the smoke!!!
I can't believe its been nearly 3 months already - where has that time gone!!!