Feeling indifferent about it this time. I have a patch on and it’s serving me pretty well, no cravings so far.
I have tried so many times and I think since the last time, most cigs I have had, I havent enjoyed so perhaps it’s a little bit of relief of taking the first step.
Rejoined gym yesterday just for 10 weeks, so I might try get into there today after work.
Alcohol, social situations and emotions
Definitely the hardest for me.
I have set my date back to Sunday as I smoked on Saturday night...and the Thursday prior....guilt kept me from returning here.
I'm taking these as learnings rather than mistakes...I know I can't smoke socially or occasionally or at all....ever!
I'm in Wellington all this week for work, it's a good chance to get away from normal routines and reset.
I'm learning better to deal with emotions rather than attempt to smoke them away, this thought process is helping me with cravings.
I went out tonight with colleagues, 3 out of 4 were smokers, even with a drink I managed to stay strong....I'm happy about that.
Day 4 and feeling ok.
Yesterday was a bit tough with the cravings but nothing out of control….had a phone call (trigger) and meetings etc during the day (trigger before/ after), even at one point habit told me to go down after meeting and have a ciggie. Lol….then reminded myself I don’t smoke.
I kept myself super busy in the evening and organised a gift for mothers day…a Kikki K scrapbook type thing, with special memories and photos throughout it. I think mum will love it. (and I can’t believe It’s ready to go before mothers day)
So busy, that I completely forgot to eat dinner…all good….I’ll make up for it today not doubt.
I need to take lunch breaks at work(I’ve been avoiding), so today I’m meeting a friend for only half an hour…she is a smoker.
I haven’t put a patch on yet today, I probably will do before I head for lunch.
As day 2 nears to a close..
..I know I'm doing the right thing and I can do this...
Sometimes it feels easier this time, then sometimes it hits me...
Eating healthy (apart from the odd chocolate bar, energy drink- next weeks challenge) and feeling a bit more motivated and ready to take on this challenge that is for my own well being and health.
Feeling much hungrier this time round, dry mouthed, sometimes
a little sick and emotional at times but I seem to be able to quickly pin point it and do something to make myself feel a little better....and I like that.
Early start tomorrow, starting with a green smoothie, a smile and maybe a walk if I can drag myself out of bed that little bit earlier.
Happy Monday :)
It's been a while...tried to quit at the end of last year and lasted around 30 days, I remained smoking when drinking, social occasions, not at work etc...however slowly my habits returned pretty much back to pre quitting,...
Today I have started again, feeling prepared and ready to go, my boyfriend has also quit with me which is helpful and hopefully we are a good inspiration to one another.
Yesterday we spent the day clearing clutter, had a few drinks last night and I mentally prepared myself. Up at 4am this morning to go to the markets and sell all the 'clutter'.
The markets went well, I have a few extra $ and I'm feeling positive and proud of myself for getting stuck in and seeing results..good distraction and clutter free space is refreshing, next step is to organise crafty space, this will occupy my time.
Although it was a mixed day emotionally, I'm feeling ready to take on this challenge of a healthier lifestyle and extending it in all areas of my life, this helped me a lot last time, gym, yoga, hoping to get into running, going to treat myself to some runners from my earnings today.
Tea is my other little saviour, I picked up some echinacea and raspberry tea tonight as a wee pre smoke free treat.
Hope to see some of the old names on here, inspiration goes a long way.
Start as you to go on.
“If you’ve never failed, you’ve never tried anything new”
I’m not ready right now, I keep finding excuses as to why I’m not quitting again, I still am not going back to how I was smoking, but it seems every few days when drinking, I find myself smoking, this is causing me a lot of stress as every day feels like day 1, so I’m going to go a bit easier on myself….and try again when I’m ready to be very serious about it again. I'm not waiting a long time to do this though.
I’ll still be around and I’ll probably let you all know when I’m a few days smokefree again.
I heard it on the radio
That smoking rots the brain….interesting and gross!
Lots of smokers on the way to work this morning, seemed like a little chain of signs.
I had to smile to myself that again I am making this choice.
Thanks everyone, day 1 (today) could have been day 45 or so, but there were about 10 days in there of on off smoking, tut tut, luckilly all old habits weren't taken up completely, so smoking at work etc hasn't really been an issue.
Today went ok, i'm pretty tired, emotions are a little wired, all over the show, a little grouchy/ grumpy/ picky/ paranoid/ irritable....etc etc etc.
It's been a busy day, a couple of craves but nothing major, the day was nicely spaced with variety and ended with reward of good food and company.
Starting each day with a bit of a plan is a good idea. Intention I guess, this is hard for me, i like to live spontaneoustly, a lesson for me not to ALWAYS live so spontaneously, gotta take control of my life.
Proactive > Reactive
Good night everyone.
Here we go again
So tomorrow I'm starting again.
I got to 34 days, then had a couple of ciggies when drinking, I tried to continue and then found myself smoking when drinking, or more drinking when smoking, drinking more, smoking more....feeling rubbish, doing less yoga, less gym, less things I want to and more things of 'old me'.
It's a journey....tomorrow my journey is carrying on, more in the direction I want to take.
I blogged less, but I know how much the blogs helped, so I'm back....and I'm prepared again for tomorrow, just like last time.
Luckilly I haven't formed all of the old smoking habits so it should be much easier than last time, it will just be the social aspect, the best thing is I didn't start smoking at work again.
Any tips you guys have on the socialising side are appreciated....especially with the summer months ahead.
This week....and last week
I had a couple of days where I smoked…on a Thursday and Friday night accompanied by alcohol…..I did things I don’t want to do on the night really....things i cringe at the next day….so the key lesson here is to avoid the whole situation like that…and change my habits around those nights…e.g. if I want to go to a work drinking session, go home first.
I haven’t smoked since Friday night and don’t want to or intend to.
I’ve been going through a bit of a toxic and tough time with an ex recently and on top of this I haven’t been feeling very well….this hasn’t been the reason for me to smoking though….but it is definitely an emotional rollercoaster and is draining me.
I am craving hermit time. I think I will do that tonight and this weekend.