Stats Update: 600 days smokefree
Well I made it, just, to my 6th hundy milestone smokefree!!!
Last month or two haven't been quite the easiest to cope with maintaining my smokefree status. Lots of testing moments that nearly led me to breaking.....BUT....thank gawwwd for this site and the amazing people in it. You guys supported me through some crazy emotional times, you responded to my SOS call without hesitation. I was in a word temporarily "crazed" and the ND took this opportunity to get to me, knowing full well I was very vulnerable. So I survived but only because I had your guys support backing me 100% ..... so thank you all ♥
Congrats to my quit buddies who started around the same time just a few days ahead of me (GT Dave and Julz) xo You guys never fail to acknowledge me when you reach milestones ((((hugs))))
To all the newbies and family who are struggling, hang in there, as even though there are hard days when you beat that craving the feeling of being free is amazing.
Thank you Quitline for an amazing site, I hope more resources are pumped into your service as we are not born smokers and we deserve a healthy life and you guys have recognised that.
Have a great weekend everyone ♥♥
.....the battle!!! I "didn't" make any purchase for a pack of ciggies after work yesterday but opted for lollies ☺
Later that evening I had the best zumba workout which definitely got
the endorphines pumping.
I know how I'm feeling is temporary and not forever...you all summed it up pretty nicely in regards to all the contribution factors as to why I was feeling blahhh, having Mitchee time instead of succumbing to the "snake oil". I have taken on board each and every comment that you all left me yesterday on my blog. It was undeniably a SOS call and you guys rescued me. I'm still a bit fragile but making progress. I overcome a big craving and have maintained a clean record of 591 days smokefree.
I really dislike being on these type of downers and sometimes have to find the time/space to self reflect, realising that some things are out of my control and there is nothing I can do about it, just ride that wave. Work.....well it's work eh, just get on with it, nose down and butt up, be ahead all the time. I really do like my job and the people, just adapting to their view of the world can be a bit challenging - just try not to take it so personally.
I'm looking forward to the weekend again to spend in my garden, and well just being home, that makes me feel happy inside already.☺♥ Last weekend I was in the garden all day then went over to my elderly neighbours where the wife is 79 and the hubby is 81 to have a few vinos with them however discovered they were already 2 hours ahead of me. They are the most beautiful couple ♥ i've been mowing their lawns for nothing for over a year now as the hubby struggles to get about now which is quite sad as he always took pride in his section and had the best green fingers ever. I love chatting with them as they have had so much heartache in their life time having a to bury 2 sons, 1 to suicide and 1 to a fatal heart attack, a brother to suicide etc. They without realising it helped me to realise that I have alot to be grateful for and to stop feeling sorry for myself. I will miss them as they are relocating to another property, they downsizing so that they can just retire without any stress which is really important. I will be visiting them every week in their new home.
Thank you all so much for your kind words, words of wisdom, support and encouragement love you guys to the moon and back. Without all you beautiful people here in Blogland what would become of us all. xox ♥
To all you newbies, hang in there. You deserve to be free and your body deserves to be poison free.
Stats Update: 590 days smokefree
Sooooo...the last few days have been seriously testing for me to the point where I just feel like giving up this battle. I've been trying to find my "happy mojo", my "finding a positive in all the negatives" mojo.
It seems I'm getting a little too much unwelcome attention from the bosses, where alot of extra pressure work wise is being put on me. Rather than get all upset about it, or paranoid or whatever....I want to keep my head down and butt up, show them that I'm OK with the pressure and am capable of taking orders without hesitation. I just feel blaaaaaah inside and my happy place is home, isolated from everything and everyone. There I would be content to stay locked up for a couple of weeks, shut off from the world so that I can gather my thoughts and just be. But no! there is food to put on the table, bills to pay etc etc... and yes I know christmas is coming up, but that ain't gonna give me any rest. Big family get together, than my mums family coming down from Auckland after Christmas, a wedding, annual get together at my friends cabin for new years and then back to work on 3rd Jan???!!!
Sorry for my downer / whingey blog my quit family. I need a big huge vent...like seriously as it is the only way for me to process everything and myself...I feel a mess emotionally and mentally....hence the great desire for a smoke. I've had little cravings in the past, but nothing like this one. I will have to dig deep not to go and buy a pack of tobacco after work. I just feel like who gives a %$#@!!!
Obviously I haven't had a smoke because I'm still typing. A part of me hopes I don't but another part is like...Ehh!
Sorry again. I'm just living proof that it doesn't matter how far along you are in this journey, staying stopped forever is a life long journey.
☼Quote for the day☼
"Winners never quit
Quitters never win."
For all those who are struggling on this journey but have never
given up on quitting smoking, you are all winners♥
Have a great day
♥♥THIS SAYS IT ALL♥♥
For all those struggling to get back on the wagon
Finding the journey a bit challenging at the moment
or About to embark on this journey....read below
"Life is like a camera.
Just focus on what’s important and capture the good times, develop from the negatives and if things don’t turn out, just take another shot."
☼578 days of smokefreeness ☼
576 days and still encountering moments that test my willpower to fall off the wagon.....but haven't!!!!
First and foremost, I wish to extend my heartfelt gratitude to each and everyone of you who spread their words of strength and comfort that embraced me during some real yucky moments. I never doubted that you all wouldn't come through at all, but I only realised at those fragile moments in my life (from people I have never met before ) how much determination you all gave me to hang in there to stay smokefree and all the sadness and anger I was feeling at that time was not forever but only temporary. So from the bottom of my heart....thank you thank you thank you ♥♥ I won't risk naming you all for the fear of forgetting someone, I'm sure you know who you all are.
Life for me carries on, the sun keeps shining, the birds keep tweeting the only thing that keeps changing for me is how I look at life, good and bad, and what I learn from them. I am still working through my emotions in regards to my recent bereavements and hassles at work due to them.....I will get there, I just need time. During those days there has probably been 3 occasions where I've had some major cravings to throw the towel in and spark up a smoke, but didn't. On reflection, when it comes to things close to my heart and something happens it has always been a trigger for smoking. Proud? Yes....Am I totally free from those thoughts of wanting to stay quit forever? Not entirely in all honestly. I do have to be on my toes and not be complacent...as I have the worst willpower ever. But I've maintained it thus far.
To all those newbies who maybe in awe of my days not smoking, they are days I've worked hard for and celebrate each day not smoking. They are a reminder of what I don't want to give up. Whether your on single or double digits they are a huge achievement and celebrate them do not downplay them. Although I still have the odd yucky craving, they do become less frequent. Hang in there, because life as a non-smoker does rock!
To all my supporters, old and new, big love to you all, and thank you for your continued support and giggles xo
☼Chirp chirp chirpier☼
Afternoon beautiful smokefree family ♥
Can honestly say 572 days on this journey has definitely had it's moments
but through them all I have managed to stay smokefree.
Thank you all for your responses to my blog for Heiro yesterday I definitely
felt the love vibes in each of your words.
I'm starting to feel the light warm my soul again, after losing 2 family members only 2 weeks apart (dads brother and then my cousin). To top that all off I get back to work to be disciplined as I was still expected to come in to work to work a few hours during my cousins funeral. They obviously forget that we only buried his parents less than 2 years ago and my brother, myself and my mum were his only relatives here. So as a result of that we pretty much organised everything until his sisters arrived Tuesday (the day after labour weekend he died on Saturday at the tender age of 43yrs of a heart attack) and we couldn't have him home until Tuesday due to no coroner being available until after labour weekend. I was to say the least a little taken back by what my employers expected, however, put it down to cultural differences and won't make the same mistake again of assuming that they "get it".
We had him at his house for 3 nights, as he would of wished as he was not a traditionalist when it came to custom (tikanga Maori), so as a result we had to build a kitchen outside as no food could be eaten or taken inside where he laid. 3-4 days of cooking and hosting people coming and going from near and far, then the big clean up on Friday (what my employers didn't get is we are there right from the start to the end)...but hei aha (nevermind) it's all done and dusted and there was a learning in it for all of us.
I survived some hellish days and weeks without one single puff.
At this time I want to thank everyone for all your heart felt words and support especially at a time that I was feeling very fragile when I did get around to posting as I was to say the least very sad...I am almost crying typing this. To all the newbies take note of this blog as this is the kind of support you have to look forward to....there is no other. Hang in there, this journey is so worth the fight. ♥xo
(In my Schwarzneggar voice...ahem!)..."You'll be back!"
Our dear sweet glossy fingered, pom pom waving, shiney balls of steel, pants on the ground sassy sister this is not the end for you in this journey. Either I'm in denial or have a obsessive connection with you, I know in my heart that you will be back and you will crack it, maybe not now, but you will.
Nothing wrong with going "solo" sometimes it's something we all need
to do to discover what's really going on inside ourselves.
Like Rainbow I haven't blogged much lately as the head space I'm in at the
moment is pretty sad, however, my friend I am paying heed to your
blog and extending my arms and shoulders to you when you need them.
Take it easy my friend, take care of yourself first and foremost so that
you are at your best for everything and everyone else.
Loads of best wishes & cuddles ♥ xo
PS Sorry for not being around when you've been at a low, but knew the quit family would be there for you 100% rock solid ♥
568 days smokefree
Hi all ♥
Just quickly popping in to say "Hi-dee-hi"!!!
Having a rough ride lately....my 43yr old cousin passed away suddenly on the 26th Oct from a fatal heart attack. With my uncle's passing (2 weeks ago from cancer) and now my cousin we are all quite fragile. I had a fleeting moment with a major craving for a smoke, however, got really busy and the thought subsided. We not too long ago buried his parents (2 yrs ago ...wow time flys), my aunty passed first unexpectantly and then my uncle passed approx 3 months later. My cousin was the baby out of the 3 children my aunty and uncle had, he has two older sisters who reside in Australia, sooooooo we have been his only family. So very sad. To top that all off, my dads sister came around yesterday to spend the day with us to inform us that she has a brain tumour, however, the bright side is that it is operable. No more sadness please...sending out happy positive vibes to universe ♥
I haven't had any time to read through anyones blogs or offer any kind of support, but do know I am here in spirit supporting each and everyone of you. To all the newbies, being smokefree is one of the best decisions ever. I am constantly asked if I miss it, and I proudly say no.
Keep up the great work all....love you all long time xo ☺♥
☺556 DAYS SMOKEFREE☺
Morning beautiful quit family, thought it about time I posted so that you know I haven't fallen off the grid/wagon.
My uncle finally passed away last Wednesday (13/10/13) after being diagnosed with luekaemia approx 2 months ago, and 4 days after his 63rd birthday. Although the pain is still very raw for the whanau it brings us all peace that he is now in peace and not in any pain or suffering. He had a beautiful send off with people coming from near and far - it definitely was a tribute to the wonderful straight up hardworking no frills man he was.
During that whole time I've had to battle a terrible flu but managed to persevere in the kitchen ensuring strict hygiene practices as I wouldn't wish those germs on anyone. So this week I had Monday and Tuesday off sick and to recover - I know that I would of been worse had I still been smoking.
I haven't had time to check in on everyone's post but will once I catch up on my work, sleep and domestic chores around home. Take care all ... ♥ xo Keep up the great fight.