Stats Update: 26 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 26 days
Cigars NOT smoked: 149
Total savings: $625.80
Still going, still getting cravings, still questioning myself. Still determined that I will win this damn battle.
Stats Update: 18 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 18 days
Cigars NOT smoked: 103
Total savings: $432.60
18 Days, and I think it is starting to get easier. That said, whenever I think that, the old demon sneaks up and gives me a good old dose of reality. Driving to work this morning and I suddenly had the strongest urge. NOPE for me thanks! that said, what better way to fight it than logging in here the first moment I get to work!
Keep up the good work smokefree family!
Not One Puff Ever, and One Day at a Time seem to be helping me.
Stats Update: 15 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 15 days
Cigars NOT smoked: 86
Total savings: $361.20
Woohoo! 15 days! More than 2 weeks now. Wow! Friggen nicodemon still hurting, but I'm stronger than it. I hope!
Pazza, come in please ... Pazzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaa!
Let us know that you are still there Pazza.
I have been contemplating your blog from this morning all day, and am hoping that you are ok?
Hopefully you can tell from the support and advice that you have recieved that what you are going through is "normal"?
We are all addicts together, and there is strength in sharing. I now only hope that you are ok, and that things are looking a little more focused?
Please let us know!
Proud of myself, for myself
Smokefree days: 10 days
Cigars NOT smoked: 58
Total savings: $243.60
Well its Monday morning, and for me it is the start of day 10. I have certainly had some up's and down's so far on this journey of mine, none more so than over the weekend just gone.
While some people really struggle with drinking when they are giving up (the whole trigger thing), for me it is my motorbike. Call me crazy, but my bike and smoking goes together like roast lamb and mint sauce. Its just one of those things! Obviously not smoking while riding my motorbike (that would be difficult), but when you park up spmewhere on a ride, it was second nature to spark up. I had therefore avoided my bike for the first few days of this journey. That was almost worse. Felt like my left, well left something or rather had been surgically removed. So, this weekend I spent plenty of time on my bike, and managed to do it without the smokes. For everyone else, this may seem like a minor thing, but for me, it was like climbing Mount Everest.
It was hard, it felt strange, it felt like something was minssing, but me and my perscription chewing gum, we managed to get through it. I did miss it, but I stayed true to myself, and for that, I am proud.
Day 10 today - must keep my gaurd up. In past events it has been around the second week that I have been able to convince myself that "one puff wuill be fine". Of course it never is.
Stats Update: 6 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 6 days
Cigars NOT smoked: 35I
Total savings: $147.00
I am doing this, again!
So stoked. It is working this time! I am doing it. I need to keep it up. I need to keep going. I can do it. I can get there. I am worth it.
I certainly feel proud. And proud is a nice thing to feel. Nicer than a concerning sore throat from smoking at least.
One week tomorrow! Yayaya!
Day 5 and still alive!
Funny, some moments today have been the hardest so far. I guess that cravings come and go, and are different for each of us, at different times and in different attempts.
Anyway, I am humbled and feel very supported and motivated by the comments on my previous blogs, so thanks all for your on-going support. And a special thanks to two special people that have been part of my quit journeys - Julz and GT Dave - thanks guys!
Stats Update: 4 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 4 days
Cigars NOT smoked: 23
Total savings: $96.60
Wow. Already feeling amazing. I can do it! Tomorrow is day 5!!!!
Oh, and does anyone else get an itchy throat when using the gum?
I am doing it as described (parking it etc), but my throat gets quite sore, very quickly.
Day 3. Again
So I am on day 3, for the 3rd time in the last 2 years. I must really like torture to keep coming back to day 3!
I could say that I have learnt, I know what to do, and that I have thins thing all under control. I wont, becuase, as I have proved three times already, wherever I think that I have it under control, I have that one puff, then one only when drinking, then one only at nightime, then one only at such and such a time, until it bcomes full blown again and one anytime I am awake. I would love to say that this time will be different. But it wont be. It will be the same - going through withdrawls, feeling sorry for myself, feeling proud of myself etc.
I do sometimes wondr if this is something I am going to have to battle for the rest of my life? And that thought scares me a bit. Even when I went more than a year without (two times ago!), I still thought about it often (It was less the longer I went, but it was still in my mind - I would still look with lust at a smoker).
Anyway, lets go day 3.