I SHOULDA BOUGHT YOU FLOWERSSSSS
I am singing at the top of my lungs.
Because I have them.
Since stopping the ciggies I can sing so much better. I mean...I'm not the next NZ Idol (except to my babies) but whoa does not smoking make a huge difference to how long I can hold a note for.
AND - tip for the new players - I find screaming out a song is really therapeutic. Deals with all the emotional stuff when you get all shirty coming off the nicotine.
Bruno. You. Me. Mic. Let's do it "Take you to every party cos all you wanted to do was ddaaaaannnnccceeeee!"
Sorry...what did you say Smokefree stats?
Welllll. That would be a year, wouldn't it.
Well, go me.
I. Am. Awesome.
Fixing the motor by getting rid of one insane thing at a time.
Smoking - gone.
(Yeah - I know we're not supposed to get complacent but it's a year - I can talk smack about nicotine when it's a year.)
Where'd I put that massive cake. Nom.
Thirteen days until I make it a year smoke free.
That is all.
Apart from this. I'm no different from you if you are smoking now or if you are in the very early days. It will get better. It really, really, will.
315 days without the ciggies. Cracking up at myself having to check. Vague as me was thinking "I stopped in June....May? Think it was June....Better check the site..."
Whole chunks of time can go by without me thinking about anything to do with cigarettes. Even seeing other people doesn't start me off thinking "Ohhh, I want one." I just don't want one. Most of the triggers have been dealt with now.
BUT! There's this friend of my son. Every time I see her. I want a cigarette. HAHAHA! She is umm ...difficult to deal with. So we're having a play date with her and my first thought before picking her up was "Geez. To get through this I'm going to need a cigarette." Look at that false trigger after 315 days. Think of how her personality must be. Muahaha.
So. Message is - yeah it becomes not an issue to "fight back" but every so often you've got to say "Scuse me WHAT with the pretend trigger!" The girl is practically from another planet but she won't be the reason I go around killing myself with a cigarette.
Annnyway. Enjoy the journey. It's mountainous but the view is a good un. Enjoy.
Up and Down. Normal.
270 days - I was going to say down - but no. 270 days up!
Some of the days were not up at all.
Just wanted to mention - and you may have the same experience - you may not. Either way I'm going to say it. I've got the keyboard and can't be stopped.
Really, really noticing the increase in intensity of my emotions. I think when I smoked I stifled SO much. Now I feel things. Good and bad. After trying to stifle the bad all this time I ended up feeling nothing. So it's very cool to have the intense happy along with the "real" sad.
Had a bout of depression (think it was to do with losing my dad) but did not let cigarettes in to help solve it because that wouldn't have made any sense.
Hope this ramble makes sense. Because one doesn't edit these days. One is busy. Feeling. Snort. Have a good one.
241 days down.
Must be well and truly de toxed.
When people smoke around me it takes every part of me not to retch.
I never wanted to be that person who goes "Eeewww, yuck!" in a person's face - a person who chooses to smoke.
And I'm not that person - because I don't say anything judgemental - it so wouldn't help - but I do go faarr away.
Had a friend around the other day. We've always had a smokefree house even when we did smoke. Our babies didn't need to suffer for our vices, we reasoned.
Anyway. She went out on the deck. But the smell just floated on in. And, oh, my, eurghhh. All I could smell was chemicals and I felt ill.
That aversion has helped me if even a little "you missss meeee" nicotine niggle comes through - and they sometimes do these days. I pair the fleeting "you miss meeee" with the retching. The retching wins hands down.
Hope you're breathing. ;)
So. Logged on in to check stats because it has been a while.
Page said: Days Not Had a Cigarette (or whatever it says) 200.
Howzat then! Must be tuned to stats in spooky way to trickle in today and find that nice fat round number.
Pretty chuffed, baby.
It can be done.
It can be done.
It shall be done.
Make it so, number one...or two hundred. Whatever number you are - make it so. HA!
Who did that?
177 days smokefree.
Had to check that because I've stopped counting.
Don't hate me but I don't even remember what it was like to smoke. I'm not missing it. It doesn't seem to have any power over me anymore.
In all honesty I think it was my Dad passing away (not from anything smoking related - he stopped when I was very little) that just....put things totally in perspective. Clear cut as. Smoking is not important. My family is. The people I love are. What I need to achieve on earth is. The end.
Any craving coming up against me would get confused. I am not currently at home to Mr Craving. I've got me Truth on. hehehehe.
Just saying what it looks like from my angle. Hope that if you are having any difficulties that you find your way through it with as little hassle to yourself as possible.
Take it easy.
Just checked in to see a whole lotta newbies. Go, you guys! You can so do it.
I'm looking at you from over 150 days smokefree and I say to you - No worries man - you've got this.
However it plays out - the yuck you feel at the beginning is only a tiny fraction of the rest of the journey. It is worth it. It will happen (the forgetting that you ever smoked, I mean.)
Go forth and non smokify. You rock.
Another milestone. Tick.
Days without ciggie - 123.
You'll see - you can do it toooo!
If you haven't already. :)