i had a couple smokes this moring...was totally OVER stressing and taking it out on my poor partner n being way to moody on my kids :( i couldnt think clearly and i felt like a mental woman :( after i had a smoke i calmed RIGHT DOWN....and realised how much of a cow i was being, so not cool! i am still quitting, i just needed that smoke to return back to normal and stop being such a b***h.
i hate how the addictive side of things can turn me into a complete psycho!
so unhappy with self atm :(
want a cigi so bad...BUT im not going to have 1! i know il just feel like crap even more if i did...just needed to jump on here and let that out!
been clearing out the gross mucus thats been accumalating over 15 years :( so gross but such a good sign :) cant wait for this to be over...well not over but 'easier'... have a full on month ahead of me so thats good il be way too busy to even think about smoking!
well thanks to all who helped me through last night...i didnt give in :) but man was that a wicked craving session lol...doesnt help having a house full of smokers, but this morning when i woke 'ewww they are stink!' shocking im ashamed to think i was walking around like that, yuck! last time i gave up i made it to 17 weeks! bummer man dont know why i started back up :/ this time im determined to go the whole way and be smokefree for ever!
have a great moring people...enjoy the fresh air :)
blog ya later!
coming to the end of day 1
and i REALLY want a cigi right now! cant shake this craving, dont know if im going to make it :/
atlast...im back on the wagon:) i know its only the morning but i had to get on here, trying to keep myself busy, and reading thru all the blogs is a huge motivation! have a great day people...blogg ya later :)
extended my quit date
so yesterday was suppose to be my quit date! i have obviously not fufilled that as yet, i had too much to deal with these past few days and this isnt going to get any better during this week so ive set my date for next week as i dont want to give up in a stressful time, ( note these circumstances were unexpected)
but i have got my patches lozenges and have started my zyban...so hopefully by next week i will be fully equiped and ready to roll as a NONSMOKER:)
look forward to the healthy lifestyle and being on this journey with you all :)
attempt number....??? MILLION!
so im here again, i so desperatley want to kick this ugly nasty enemy ive had as my dearest friend for the past 15 years! i hate smoking and everything that surrounds it, yet i continue to do it, im almost positive i cant quit, but will never stop trying. People who have tried multiple times to quit and have succeded do you have any tips PLEASE!?!?!
I hope this will be my final attempt and im going to be a non smoker after struggle...i hate smoking and want so badley to rid my life of this pathetic habit!
my quit date is set for 1 week...
im back again!
after numerous attempts im back again, giving it another go! im atm on zyban and will be completely off the smokes on the 22nd jan! ive had so many failed attempts that im determined to make this my last successful!
my partner is on the wagon to join me for the 1st time so heres hoping that with the support of eachother we will conquer this ugly habit we've managed to make a mountain over the years!
so glad to be back, awesome to see so many new quitters, and look forward to getting to know and support eachother through this amazing life changing journey :)
BACK ON BOARD!!!
i had a down moment of smoking a few ciggys over the weekend:( very dissapointing BUT im back on track and all hope is not lost!
Glad to see so many new quitters...everyone on here is my inspiration..lets go people!!
you bloggers are amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that is all