Today's the day!
Okay I am as ready as I can be. I am both scared and excited. I have my squeaky toy to keep my hands busy, I have my journal to keep my mind focussed and my family and friends are all on board. Whew non-smoker here I come!
Today I brought myself a squeezy toy - I think keeping my hands busy is going to be a problem. Lot of practice deep breathing because I like the sensation of the smoke going down, but am feeling very positive and determined. I have 4 cigarettes left so I will be starting before Monday. Have been writing in my journal about the amazing things I am going to do when I am a non-smoker - enjoy the time with my moko as a smoke free nanie, food I know will taste better, no longer out in the cold and rain outside, spend more time doing things I enjoy like scrapbooking, and the money I will be saving - want to go to Hawaii next year, that will bring it closer - here we go!
Quitting Getting Closer - Resolve Getting Stronger
Had a good day today. Started changing my old habits for new short and sweet habits. Ended up 5 smokes today - 1 down from the rest of my week - 5 to go. Lasted all day at work without smoking. No longer smoking in my car or even taking them out of the house. Beginning to look forward to my quit day - 2 days to go. Able to drink coffee or tea without a smoke now - that was a major, delayed my early morning smoke by an hour (which is good for me). The hardest part I am finding at the moment is when I see my 'smoking' buddies going for one at work - I have a battle with myself every time but today was the first day I didn't succumb. I feel like I am getting there slowly but surely. Have a good night everyone, will talk again tomorrow.
The Day - 22 October 2012
Hi been a few days since I blogged. During that time have been smoking 6 a day, which is a great effort, but enough is enough. I don't want to smoke anymore, I am sick of coughing, sick of standing outside on the street in the freezing, windy cold to have a smoke. I am just sick of it. Find the txt messages great motivator and catches me unawares during my day which is good, the support of all the bloggers is fantastic so preparation is now. Will continue with the 6 a day (hopefully less than that) until Monday 22 October. Preparation will be writing in my personal journal, writing a blog, telling myself I no longer smoke over and over again until it becomes a fact! I am now getting excited and I want to keep it that way. Wish me luck!
Update - and not that good!
Okay, have had 5 smokes today. Fantastic drop from 18 a day but still finding it difficult to give up certain ones e.g. after lunch. But will continue to try every day - every day is a new day and I know I will get there - it just might take awhile.
26 hours I lasted - 26 hours next minute cousin walks in and it's all out the window again. I am so disappointed in myself - now that little devil is saying to me "Gotcha!" But I am determined to get back into it starting now. I am so thankful for all your great, inspiring words and support - not only have I let myself down but also all of you! But don't look backwards, look forward and get onto the wagon again. Will let you know how I am going tomorrow. Thank you for reading and replying.
First 12 hours
8.50 a.m. today was the last time I smoked. Three hours later started to crumble - but then an 'aha moment'. Der, this is why people have journals to write down everything.... and it works! Anyway, craving stopped 35 minutes later - but the head needs to catch up with the rest of me! Still trying to sabotage OMG! The little devil is going "it's okay, go on buy it, you can start tomorrow..." and he's really loud too but - breathe and breathe and breathe again.
At 5.45 p.m. the little devil is getting quieter - but still need to keep strong - keep going - smoking does not define me - I am a non-smoker - don't falter - it will be okay.
Have been a smoker for 36 years, 15-18 a day and have decided not to use anything - have no reason why just thought I am an intelligent woman, it is about being strong in the mind - oh well we will see how that goes. Wish me luck....