Quit Blog of the Week

Sharing stories, challenges and successes can be a great help when quitting, and an excellent reminder that you're not doing this alone. Quitline helps thousands of New Zealanders quit every year, many of whom share their stories on our Quit Blogs.

Here are just some examples of the inspirational posts from our blogging community. You can find many more, and also share your own story, by signing up to the Quit Blogs.

 

First blog

It's been 21 days since I had a ciggy. The patches and lozenges are helping a lot. I've smoked for 30 years and loved using smoking as my 'get outta the house, my time' excuse. I loved using smoking as a smokescreen for doing 'something for me' even though I was killing myself. I loved using smoking as an excuse to walking out instead of listening, I loved using smoking instead of eating. Smoking has been my best mate.

I could blame my son's asthma as a medical issue that had nothing to do with my smoking, and ignore the fact that 2 of my aunties died of lung cancer and be sorry for a friend who has stuffed up lungs through smoking because smoking has made me ignorant, selfish and stupid, but I am healing now. I am learning as a child does to sleep through the night cause now I can breathe, I am discovering that I've got good skin and my breath is quite nice, I can taste everything and smell everything (not nice when you have males in the house).

I think I am unlocking the door to freedom, not there yet but this time I'm so much more hopeful. I am getting stronger as each day passes. I went to an all night party without drinking or smoking last weekend, a first time ever for me as I drank as much as I smoked aswell...no smoking and no drinking.

I'm not sure who I am anymore but that's what new is suppose to bring.

Gee Gee


3 Weeks and going strong

Today marks 3 weeks from quitting. I don’t want to sound like a douche, but I have found it rather easy, and this may be due to a health scare I had around the time of giving up, but I haven’t battled with quitting as hard as others.

I decided to do away with the patches, I didn’t like what they done to my body, and have found it to be the best move I made in my journey. I have also purchased the Allen Carr book to quit smoking, and whilst I found at times I had a craving, there are points in there which cement your decision. It’s a great purchase for you out there who need some reassurance. I also had my first drink as a non smoker, and needed to change my behavior because if I got bored with conversation then I just simply said I was going for a "smoke" and now I can’t say that :).

This journey has been tough, rewarding, educational and emotional all in 1, I have found that I literally can’t hide behind a cloud of smoke and must find/ discover/ create new things in life to fill the gap that smoking has occupied for such a long time, this is both scary and exciting all at the same time!! Arohanui to one and all that are on their journey!!

- WillyRota


I CAN do this

I just looked up what NOPE is....I was reading a blog before with this in and have had replys with it in and had no idea what it actually meant...
It has nailed exactly what I was thinking 4 powerful little letters to check myself on...

Even 1 puff for me means a whole pack.

Earlier I was looking for any excuse to feel better about giving in so I could give in. I was thinking of reasons why it would be better for me if I just gave in...Then I realised how needy and not myself I was sounding.

I never thought my addiction was so bad. I was always one to say I could give up if I wanted to - "I've done it before, it's easy"
Well this time its not easy. Its one day/minute/hour at a time.

I'm flicking back and forth from my work to this site, hungry for the affirmations, the success stories and the sheer determination to succeed.

I'm looking forward to the times I can say 'no' with ease or not even have to think about saying no.

Right when I needed it, I found the NOPE meaning, got a supportive call from my fiancé and read positive comments on my earlier blog...

The universe is on my side

I can so do this!

- Harleydoll


Day 12

"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it'

Good quote and with this addiction, I would change my behaviour and actions to ensure smoking a cig or three was part of the reaction. Doh.

All good - Feeling a lot more grounded & productive and my partner is loving and responding to the positivity.

Hope everyone gets through their day.

- GT Dave


Day 47

It still amazes me I quit smoking. I was a "real" smoker.

Practically every moment of the day was in some way about smoking. I've def been changing as a person.

I was the kind of person who avoided the mall probably because I couldn't smoke in there. I was in and out. Yesterday I spent like an hour just in one store.

When I smoked I rushed for my coffee right away. I needed it. I still get my coffee but at a much slower pace.

I feel as though I can do almost anything now. I know those things sound minor and dumb to you lol but my patience for other things is so much better. Whereas before I had zero patience.

I look at the world more clearly. It sounds crazy I know but quitting that dirty nasty habit is the best thing I've accomplished in my life.

- Emma


I wont miss ...

  • That someone stole my brand new 'one of a kind' bic lighter.
  • Scratching my initals into my lighter.
  • The smell of matches.
  • Dropping ash down the front of my top, followed by the smoke burns in my clothes, stale smoke smell mixed with perfume.
  • Brushing my teeth outside the dentist cos I had a smoke on the way there.
  • Burning my finger right through the butt when stubbing a smoke out on the ashtray.
  • The panic when im in the car going out somewhere and I cant find my smokes.
  • Marching on the spot outside in freezing tempretures to have an early morning or late night smoke in the midst of winter.
  • The cravings in an airport or in a plane.
  • The same person asking me for another smoke.

Addiction is so insane.
I remember when I first quit smoking.. I "thought" id miss...
Smoking while driving. Now* I sing or eat while driving.
A smoke to take away the fullness from eating. Now* why eat if you dont want to be full?
A smoke to take away stress. Now* Take stress away, then we are left with happiness lol

Dont be a slave to the addiction of smoking any longer. Life is full of freedom when 'we want to' instead of when 'we have to'
...

smokefreemep



 

Stats Update: 1090 days smokefree

Smokefree days: 1090 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 10900
Total savings: $8,720.00

Nearly 3 years quit! I wondered how long it had been so have randomly logged in. I can't even imagine being a smoker these days. Amazing how life changes. I can def say I never looked back after quitting. I wouldn't dream of wasting money on those rediculous things now which is a big change to 3 years ago when i would have spent any amount on them. With time you look back and go what the hell was I thinking. Especially now, I have a friend who still smokes and said it was 70 odd dollars for a 50 gram. That's a tank of petrol for some or a meal out at a restaurant or a new item of clothing or new ps4 game for my son. I would way rather have those things than a pack of smokes. Keep on keeping on quitters it's worth it down the track and I promise you'll look back and call yourself an idiot for ever smoking. You will hit that stage one day if you keep trying to let go. It's never going to get more affordable either.

Unistudent



 

FANTASTIC have climbed 1/3 of my mountain -HELLO HUNDY CLUB

Stats Update: 100 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 100 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 1300
Total savings: $1,235.00

REFLECTION
2 x favourable attempts in learning (FAIL) sept 2014 then again jun 2015

most favourable attempt has taken me to club 100 (hundy) so proud,the journey just got easier and the mountain just got smaller.

for those who have conquered their mountain I thank you for sharing as it has helped me stay on track and keep moving forward.

changing 28



 

40 years a amoker - 687 days quit

It isn't a special day or even an interesting number like 666 or 888 but to me it is almost two years quit and to finally be free of the nicotine nasty is worth every hour I fretted and cried, every day I bit my fingernails and avoided the dairy - worth every weekend I never got out of my pyjamas for fear of buying ciggies.

No more trying to hide the stinky after smell - no more looking for a door to sneak out for a ciggy - no more feeling like a leper - no more feeling like a loser.

Quitline and all the bloggers on here have given me a new lease on life - hang in there all the newbies - you can totally do this.

josienz1958



 

Day 74

I'm feeling good today - my mind is in a really space at the moment and I'm loving it :)

Had a good night with the man last night - I had a few things that were bothering me so got them off my chest quickly, had a chat and then we got on with it - had a reasonably good dinner and then watched some tv, was a nice night :)

Had a crazy busy dream last night so woke up and it felt like it was Monday which was a bit crazy but it's kind of good cos it seems to be making the day pass a bit quicker!

Did my pretend smoking again yesterday and it helped whatever situation my brain was getting itself into! I think it really is just the breathing mainly that is helping but even still it is a bit of a comfort that I still have my e ciggy which is nicotine free so that if things got really bad I can puff on that and not something else!

It's my back up plain - I do miss it but it's not worth it for my health and my pocket to start again! Gotta make it to that hundy club and then to my PB which is almost 200 - I know I can do this, I just need to stay strong though and strong is what I shall stay :)

Have a great day all :)

Ambs93



 

Stats Update: 2084 days smokefree

Smokefree days: 2084 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 41680
Grams NOT smoked: 14886
Total savings: $33,502.00

I have shared this before and I will continue to share it in the hope that it helps you become smoke free too!

Nearly six years ago I was a 20+ a day smoker and since Christmas day 2009 I have been happily smoke free!

I tried quitting so many times; from reading books, to hypnotherapy, but what eventually changed me was my father! Watching him suffer on life support from a huge heart attack which the doctors told me would have never happened had he not been a smoker! I was told that if he woke up and continued to smoke he would only live for 5-6 months but if he woke up and quit he would have the opportunity to live for another 20 years! I am proud to say that he did wake up and it has been nearly 5 and a half years without a cigarette for both of us!

- Ness



 

10 Days done

10 days are now complete and now getting some excellent feedback and support from my family :) whereas before, I was met with derision and skepticism due to my numerous attempts, this is the first time my family is actually looking at this being “the one”.. :)

I see a lot of calculators out there to show “how much you’ll save” if you stop, as one of the primary motivators for stopping is the cost savings. I did a small exercise of how much I’ve spent already on smoking.

Making some small assumptions around the average cost of a smoke (taking into account interest, travel costs, eftpos/cc fees, etc), and the cost of a packet (given that it has been increasing steadily over the last 20 years), and my smoking behaviours (in terms of moving from a 20 a day to a 25 pack per day etc)…

I calculated roughly, that my smoking habit has cost approximately $130,000 - $160,000 so far!!!!!

That is pure cost and doesn’t take into account any interest earned etc. Pure money that i have effectively given away in exchange for an unhealthy life. Its also money I’ve given away that would have otherwise gone to my family for their future well being.

We work everyday to provide for ourselves and our family.. and yet think little of spending that amount of money to cater for a crazy short term “good” feeling? It doesn’t make sense, does it?

I can understand folks indulging now and then in luxury items like going out and having fun.. but this is not a luxury item.. smoking became a necessity just like eating and sleeping. Now that I think about it, we’re bloody idiots going back to throwing our childrens money away every day to cover a daily craving for something that will eventually make our time in this world limited.

We all have regrets, and make mistakes.. but I’m looking at this as motivation to ensure that I have none when I eventually get to my death bed.. and looking at the money lost so far.. is definitely a regret.. and something I never want to repeat.

I write this blog to go back and read whenever I feel the craving to remind myself of the reasons why I'll never ever go back to the past.. some folks may not agree, but this is for myself, and my family..

Until later!

- Twornz



 

Day 15

Pulled a card out of my freedom packet. Here goes:

Nobody needs nicotine to function. We need water, food, exercise and rest. Nicotine is poison. The only reason I smoked was to get nicotine.

Hope it'll inspire someone out there.

All good today, life goes on. Been recording a random blues track and put it online for free. Usually I don't do free tracks, but I'm feeling so good and it was so random I thought oh well. Then more vocal tracking......my voice isn't that good yet, but it'll take another couple of months before I'm actually singing instead of wailing.
So in the meantime recording guitars and maybe some drum guide tracks.....it's always busy. Today I procrastinate......but even that can be enjoyable !! I mean, I'm not even smoking !! hahahaha

Won't bore youz any further.......wishing all the quit fam a happy smokefree day :)

- Singing Lady



 

Year 1

Smokefree days: 365 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 5475
Total savings: $4,850.85

My first breathday - My first year smokefree.

Who knew this time last year I was going to be smokefree? Definitely not me!

One whole year of not spending ridiculous amounts of money to literally watch it all go up in smoke. One year of not having to lean on a habit that was causing me more harm than good. One year of not being emotionally reliant on a filthy cigarette for support. One year of not having to smell badly.. or holding on to crazy infections that just wouldn’t go away.

One year and I’m feeling alive, awake and self assured that I made the right choice. 365 days ago I made the best decision of my whole entire life.

My journey started 365 days ago. I was unsure, nervous and scared. I was afraid of the possibility that I could live a life without cigarettes as I had been a smoker twice as long as I had been a non smoker.

I spent 2 weeks on NRT and reminded myself should I need to use them I had them on hand. Fortunately for me I didn't. Something went click inside my brain. I realised that as part of my quit I had to deal with the emotional attachment and habits associated with smoking and be real with myself that I could answer the pressing questions. Why did I smoke? Why was I still smoking knowing it was never helping my life? I had to identify my triggers and include ways in which I could overcome these triggers (I call this part the get real with yourself part) The quit plan worked wonders for me because it was for me and about me.

After dealing with the emotional attachment and habits I formed. I created new habits of thinking and doing. Yes it is that simple. I used to wake up in the morning and light up a cigarette while sipping coffee. Now I wake up, put the jug on, organise my breakfast while making a cup of coffee. I sit at the table and eat my breakfast and sip my coffee last. I no longer associate coffee and cigarettes together. When stressed out I used to want to rush out for a cigarette because in my mind I believed it helped me think, in reality it starved my brain of oxygen. Now I sit back and think, why am I stressed? Who owns the problem and how much of that problem do I control? That is to say I actually think a lot more, and have a clear mind.

The 4 D’s have never left me either. I still apply them now….. deep breath, delay, drink water and do something else…. simple but effective…..

I’ve gone from day 1, week 1, first month and this is my first year. I blogged everyday for 100 days, not missing a beat. Doing that allowed me to share the highs and lows, the good the bad and the ugly with people who knew exactly what I was going through. I was receiving support and giving support at the same time.

I am smokefree because of the following things, quitline, NRT, all the massive support I've received from you. Without the support I don’t think my quit would have been as successful as it has been.

To you, reading my blog and thinking to yourself, wow Cheeky has it going on. I want to encourage you, if you’re struggling in your quit just know - it will pass, what you’re feeling is temporary, a cigarette never truly solved the problem… be inspired by others on here… be moved by their stories and journeys….. Hang in there, dig deep don’t hide behind excuses to smoke, GET with the reasons why you need to remain quit. If you really want it, only YOU can make it happen.

Year One is done and dusted! Woooohoooooo!

P.s So that 4 grand still hasn't turned up, maybe it will be in the lost and found.... teehee

- Cheekyhua



 

Feeling the love

Hi there follow non smokers. Just checking in. It's DAY 5 today and feeling pretty chuffed with myself. Thank you to all the regulars on the blog - you are inspiring and also thanks to those that responded to my Day 3 panic blog !!

I survived the day and guess what the world didn't end - there were a couple of times I thought it might but no it was just that nicotine demon trying to get the better of me. I am so pleased I had spent some time reading through a lot of your blogs on Day 1. I believe it is what helped me get through Day 3 because I was forewarned. Thank you for sharing. Knowledge is power!!

Having just been through the first four days my message to all the new quitters out there - it does get better and I am not flowering this up. I was a heavy smoker for 34 years. If I left the house with out my smokes I would freak out and drive home to get them, I missed time with my children and husband, I almost planned my whole day around when I would be able to smoke and all because I had let my addiction to nicotine take over. And yes the first few days can be extremely difficult but guess what - being a smoker is far worse!! One thing I would like to share is that in previous attempts to stop smoking I did not share this with the people important to me. This time I have literally gone public. Even the guy I buy my coffee off on the way to work in the morning knows I am a non-smoker!! It has helped so much and something I would recommend doing. Also know that there will be tough times - lets get real - we are trying to beat an addiction which is no different to alcohol or drugs - but you will get through it - you will feel better, smell better, look better and have more cash in your wallet. And most importantly - we are saving our lives.

Happy smokefree times. Have a great day.

- Doll1968



 

Stats Update: 265 days smokefree

Smokefree days: 265 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2650
Total savings: $3,982.40

100 more days till I reach the summit of Smokefree Mountain. I can see it way up there in the distance. Nothing is going to stop me from reaching my destination!

The trip to Base Camp (the lead up to my quit date) was a nervous time for me. Thoughts of "Will I fail?" and "Is this going to be too hard?" entered my mind. The fear of the unknown.

Reaching Base Camp (the start of my quit) arrived. The journey had begun. The hardest leg of my journey. The frustration, the anxiety and the fear of failure were constantly haunting me throughout this part of my journey.

Reaching Camp 1 (entry to the hundy club). Elation, pride and success were some of the many emotions I felt on that day. The thought of "Maybe I can actually do this" entered my mind.

Reaching Camp 2 (the 2 hundy club).
Less obstacles in this part of my journey. Just one foot in front of the other ascending the mountain. No cravings anymore just those bloody annoying "Just one puff will be ok" thoughts that Nicodemon throws at me on a regular basis.

Reaching Camp 3 (250 days smokefree).
I've come to the realization that I have defeated the Nicodemon. He is weak. He knows that he has been defeated. I still have had no cravings and those thoughts of "just one puff" are easily brushed off.

Climbing to Camp 4 (the 3 hundy club).
It seems like I'm gaining energy and determination at this stage. I just want to get to the last camp and proceed to the summit.

At this stage of my journey I want to thank all my Sherpa (you guys, my quit family). Without you I wouldn't even have made it much further than Base Camp.

Have a great weekend my "quit family" ☺☺☺☺

- AXL



 

365 days - Its my Breathday and I'll laugh if I want to ...

Smokefree days: 365 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2608
Total savings: $3,710.00

I woke early this morning (5am) and as consciousness came I immediately remembered … “It’s my breathday. Wow I can’t believe I have conquered an entire year without a smoke”

The thought was like a delightful little melody tinkling around in my head, and as I allowed it to linger there, a huge, toothy grin splashed itself onto my face and it’s been there ever since. No amount of showering could wash it away. I must confess its hard to eat when you are grinning like a Cheshire cat and I might have dribbled a little bit on the bench at breakfast. I’m so chuffed, that I’ve even had a chuckle or two bubble up and escape for no apparent reason. Yup to say I feel proud would be an understatement for sure.

What a rollercoaster ride it was. After 41 years smoking, I was diagnosed late 2013 with early stage emphysema (which has since been rediagnosed as an auto immune disease). This was my initial motivation. I first quit in Jan and mastered 19 days before a camping trigger did me in and I reset. Then in Feb I managed 23 days before falling off the wagon. I reset again. I set off on my third quit in March and managed 6 days before my Husband decided he didn’t want to take care of a sick wife anymore and threw my world into a spin. I decided to take a little time-out to regroup, find somewhere to live and get settled before finally coming back on 13th May for my fourth attempt. This time I came armed with my NOPE shield (not one puff ever) held firmly in front of me. That ol’ nicodemon continued to throw everything at me, depression, chronic sickness, pain, torn ligaments, tooth abscesses, crashed car, kitchen fire where I badly burned my hands .. I won’t go on ... you get the general gist … it was one of the hardest years of my life.

As I trekked through the withdrawals wearing (as the lovely Calmwaters would say) ‘My Big Girl Panties’ I discovered the journey was not about feelings, it was about making a decision and sticking to it no matter how I felt, not matter how unpleasant it was. I learned (particularly in the early days) that this journey is about one foot in front of the other, baby steps, minute by minute until the minutes become hours, days, weeks and months. I learned not to think too far ahead. I learned that my battle was not with myself, my battle was with an addiction, that it actually wasn’t me who wanted to smoke! I learned that many of the sacrifices I needed to make in order to be successful were temporary, and that the more I resisted the weaker that addiction became, until 'not smoking' became the ‘norm’. As time progressed I grew into those 'big girl panties' quite nicely, putting on a (much needed) 14 kgs .. they could possibly be more aptly named my ‘small girl panties’ now.

But more importantly, I uncovered some valuable lessons about myself. I learned that I’m a fighter, Yup .. all 5 foot 4 (and a quarter) inches of me, and that when squished up against the wall I have what it takes, not only to take the punches, but to get back up, over and over again. I learned that although abandoned by my husband I am not ‘unlovable’. I am valuable to God and to others. I learned that even in chronic illness, I can take care of myself. I discovered that the harder the battle became, the more fierce my determination to succeed, and believe me, no-one was more surprised by that resolve and determination than I was because, truth be told, I came into this battle expecting to fail.

It was this new-found knowledge of how valuable and how strong I truly am, that gave me the ability to continually say “NO .. I will not do this to myself any longer. I will no longer abuse myself by filling by body with poison. I am worth so much more than this. And I will no longer be this kind of role model for my grandchildren”

What a great gift to take from this whole process hey I couldn’t ask for a better Breathday present.

So here I am standing on top of that One Year Mountain ... (Lady beats her chest ceremoniously) shouting to the world ‘I AM A SMOKE-FREE LADY …. And I LOVE IT’. (Okay I’m climbing down now coz my blood pressure has been up and I feel a little whoozy)

To my wonderful support team (you are too many to mention individually), thank you for your fabulous support. I am eternally grateful to you all. Your encouragement has been immeasurable … it truly has. You believed in me when I could not believe in myself. You saw strength in me before I ever did. And a huge thank you to QUITLINE too … what a blessing you are! How wonderful to go to sleep at night, knowing that you are helping to set people free.

And to the ‘new quitters’ … hold tight to your decision to be smoke-free. Don’t let it go for anything. You will have to fight for it but you are up for it! Know that you are stronger than you think. When that strength arises in you .. be proud. Recognise your enemy for what it is – an addiction that wants to kill you. Hold up your NOPE shield and just concentrate on one step at a time. If you don’t feed that monster, it will die and you will be free. You can do this! You deserve to be smoke-free and its a goal well worth fighting for!

- Ladylene



 

My breathday rant

Smokefree days: 365 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 10220
Total savings: $9,309.30

These are things I have seen. They are about me, not everyone else so take them as my experience, not judgement on yours :)

A few things I was afraid of with hind sight…

  1. “I don’t want to get fat” – I used this excuse for 10 years not to quit. Too bad, some days it was eat or smoke. I’ve lost some now, 6kgs above my quit weight. I should have started running/walking from day dot. I didn’t know just how much it helped with detox. Smoking does help with weight loss… one lung at a time…
  2. “What do I do when I go out, can I drink?” – Nope, I had to hide from the world for nearly 2 months. I had to hide from everyone.
  3. “How do I be social with my smoking friends?” – I hardly see my best friend now. She stopped visiting. Sad, but shows a few truths. Some friends tried to get me to smoke. Poo-poo’d my quit as silly. I got rid of them. They weren’t friends. I now have friends that I hardly saw, turns out they didn’t like the smell, or want their kids near it. I can’t blame them.
  4. “What do I do when the cravings hit” – I cleaned. I cleaned and I cleaned. I scrubbed out cupboards, I got a toothpick and scraped out the ridges in the fridge seal, I vacuumed out the washing machine. I kept busy till it hurt.
  5. “Why am I bothering, it’s too hard?” - Because my baby girl who had 2 surgeries before the age of 3 for glue ear and had to have adenoids removed (I should have listened to her doc about my smoking) picked up a stick and pretended to smoke at the age of 4. That made me a bad mother in my book.
    I never took the risks seriously when I smoked. It’s not until the addiction is gone that I see what I have done. I am so so scared of how sick I may still get as a result of the stupid choice I made. I am so happy that I won’t be making my daughter sick, yet I feel horribly guilty that 26 years of heavy smoking may still see her without a mother.

1 year down. I still have cravings, usually from a memory or stress. They don’t last long.
It really is worth it. Everything is better and I have a savings account! Not 9k but it’s a start…

- Banana



 

Goodbye

Every time i have left you,we both knew i would come back. Well this time its different i fell in love with breathing easy, smelling nice and the glorius freedom. You can torment my days and invade my nights with memories of us having coffee together each morning, drinking wine together on the beach watching the sun go down. But this time its over for good my coffee tastes better without you, my car is nice and warm and the fish and chips are really good watching the sunset. So listen carefully its over for good i no longer love you or want you in my life and my hope is you never find anyone else.

To freedom happy quiting everyone.

- grammy



 

My own Mt Everest – CONQUERED!

Smokefree days: 365 days
Grams NOT smoked: 3650
Total savings: $5,124.00

This summit, for so many years, seemed impossible to reach, so much so that I firmly believed I was one of a handful of addicts for whom recovery was hopelessly unachievable.

I’d watched smoking destroy my Mother, robbing her of her health, then her life, at 58 years of age. This was such a huge loss for me, the grief over losing my best friend and soul mate was overwhelming. I felt angry that she had not tried harder to quit smoking, to be there for me, for my son, who had lost his loving, devoted Nan, and that my unborn baby would never get to meet her or know her huge capacity to love.

It was not long after the birth of my second son that I joined this blogging community – I was desperate, lost and felt so alone. I’d realised that it wasn’t a matter of “trying harder” to quit smoking. It was a battle of wills – and the addict in me was clearly in charge. Here I found solace, I wasn’t alone! Here I found inspiration, following the journeys and successes of others just like me. Here I received the most amazing, unwavering, non-judgemental support.

I don’t know how many attempts there were. How many times I fell and struggled to get back up. ALWAYS, my quit family stood by me, picked me up and dusted off my bum. Time and time again, year after year.

My quit family believed in me when I had lost all hope, you supported me through some terrifyingly dark days, you refused to give up on me even though I had given up on myself. I made friends here, cyber friends, but friends in the true sense of the word. I only wish I had friends like these out here in the real word – oh, what I could achieve!

Still, this milestone, these stats, is my biggest achievement ever (even tops delivering my second son, all by myself, at home, after an incredibly quick labour!). Mum’s passing and the emptiness that she left behind was the catalyst for me to keep trying but I could never have done it without you guys.

Now, I stand here absolutely bursting with pride, having planted MY flag in this new territory – no longer chained to smoking. I am FREE. I DID IT!!!

And believe me when I say, if I can do it, you can too! NEVER STOP BELIEVING!

THANK YOU!

- heironymus



 

Stats Update: 730 days smokefree

Feeling mighty proud  2 years. Wow. What a ride that was.
For you newbies… I quit smoking 2 years ago… I quit the day I left my abusive ex (after being with him almost 25 years). We still lived in the same house for 7 months, he in a “studio” part, my 4 kids and me upstairs. It was pure hell…. The abuse continues but… I have grown too strong for him. In the past 2 years I left him, quit smoking, went from almost bankrupt to being able to survive (this part is a work in progress) and I finally have friends. First it was my quit buddies becoming friends, met some of them and… some of them are very dear friends now. Then work mates becoming friends. I have a best friend! Miss her dearly as she lives a few hours from here but, she is just fantastic and a very strong person as well. Most of the time I do fine, there are some down points but then I remind myself how far I’ve come (or get reminded by my beautiful friends) and it gets better. I put on weight (see new pic) and go to the gym frequently. All in all I am soo much healthier and happier. I am still single but that doesn’t worry me anymore. I am my own master and I surely am nicodemon’s master. He can’t bother me anymore.
The point is… you might suffer, have sleep issues, be cranky but… in the end, it’s the best decision you made for yourself. Not only the health benefits… the many hidden benefits (inner strength, confidence etc) are so worth the bad times. The good times will become more and more and then you’ll be able to kick him in the bum … that nasty, filthy little bas#$%@#. Just hang in there.

Have a fantastic day.
Love & hugs to my quit family. Thank you for being my friends.
Xxxx :)

Smokefree days: 730 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 7300
Total savings: $6,022.50

- Elevtheria



 

Day 9!

Its day 9 today!!
I thought I would write abt the positive things that have happened since I quit.

- I can breathe better
- my blood pressure has stabilised
- my circulation has improved and now my fingers and toes arent cold anymore
- I was sporting a rather greyish skin tone and now my skin tone has returned to normal
- I smell like a person should now :-P
- I'm no longer anxious abt my smoking habit
- I feel better abt myself
- I have control over my thoughts, which means I have control over my life.
- my mood is better
- the acute chest infection I had developed has disappeared and I'm so glad that I didn't need to take antibiotics.
- I'm richer!
- for once in my life I feel hopeful for my future.

Smoking was a big barrier for me.
It hindered everything in my life that I wanted to do.
I always knew that if I quit smoking, I would feel better about myself.
I've had a lot of trying circumstances in the past few years which have pushed me to limits far beyond my control.
I have been anxious, depressed and felt absolutely hopeless in my life. I'm grateful for the experiences. I look at everything as a character building opportunity; and that is how I look at quitting smoking. One thing I can say about myself; I am resilient.

We all have an inner strength inside of us that keeps us going at the worst of times.
And that is what we need to look to on this journey.
Keep going, you are stronger than you think.
Lots of love ♥

- jordy91



 

Coming up two years

I just wanted to write a little something for those who have just started or are thinking of stopping over NYS.

Thinking about stopping and the first couple of months are the hardest. It is such a scary thought to never have a puff again. Believe me when I say, it won't seem so scary after awhile.

While I don't think the "three weeks" and then you are sweet is true. I think that everyone has their own date of when the cravings start to ease.

And the realistic thing for me is.. they have never fully gone away. I still want a cig when drinking or if I am overly stressed. YET it is easy to 'stick to your guns'

I don't want that to scare people, I just want people to realise that it isn't just some switch that turns off. Once you are addicted to something like smoking, it doesn't just go away. I for one am glad in a way. It makes me realise that I can never smoke again. BUT it does get much easier. It will not be on your mind in the same way. A cig will not be a morning essential or a must have for the drive or the perfect way to end an a meal. You will barely consider it. You will be so happy, have so much more energy and smell good.

Most of all stopping smoking has given me a feeling of great accomplishment.

So start small, don't scare yourself or make it seem impossible, it really is possible. If you try and fail, you are not weak, just try again. To get to where I am now took about 10 failed attempts.

Remember when life seems so stressful and all you want to do is buy a pack of smokes, remember that you have one amazing accomplishment... you are smoke free!

- eightyeight


Day 93

Today I have officially completed my quit programme ... I can't believe where the time has gone. It has happened so fast.... my journey has been recorded on here from day one. I have revisit some of what I've blogged at times to remind me how far I've come.... I've not had a cigarette, not even a puff from one. I don't do things by halves, all or nothing and that has worked well for me.

Gone are the days where I was an inactive, tired smoker who lacked energy, and hid behind a cigarette to deal and celebrate everything.

This site has enabled me to share my journey, inspire others, reaffirm things for myself. I love being a non-smoker, I love having the money in the bank, I love life more, and my energy levels are high... I still deal with alot of stress workwise and have ample deadlines to meet, however I take it in my stride... I know and fully understand, lighting up a ciggy didn't make the stress go away... never did and never will......

To those of you who are struggling, it will pass, its only temporary... hang tough... use the NRT if you need it, apply the 4D's and blog out as much as you need. There are so many wonderful people on this site that empathize with you.... remember this, you are NOT alone, we are with you and in together.

*hums because I'm happyyyyyyyyyy* *shakes her groove thing*

- Cheekyhua


Day 10

First time blogger (on this site or any other).

Today is my day 10. And tonight is the first time I'm crazy struggling and I'm not too sure why. I have been pleasantly surprised at how not insanely difficult it has been for me so far and tonight has kind of befuddled me with its sudden attack of feeling like I need to feed the monster.

I decided to read some of the blogs on this site and it has helped a bit.

Maybe writing something myself may help me more.

I had decided it was time to stop smoking but I had also decided not to tell anyone, I told myself it was because it would be easier if no-one made a fuss or said anything, that it would help keep my mind off it, but really it was in case I failed. If no-one knew, I couldn't feel guilty for disappointing them. And if I'm being honest, telling no-one meant to me it was an easy out if I decided I was too weak minded to even try. I'm good at talking myself out of quitting. Ive been practicing for years.

The morning of the day I became a non smoker my daughter came running into my bedroom as I was brushing my hair and putting on my make-up. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me so hard and so long that it was actually kinda uncomfortable and almost annoying... (might as well continue with the theme of being honest.) When she finally stopped her assault on my ribcage she said to me "I just saw some booklets from quitline on the coffee table"

That hug, that look in her eyes. That is the reason day 10 will become day 11.

- Gravity


1488 Days Smokefree

Today is my birthday. I have reached that grand old age of 70.

Four years and 28 days ago I was in hospital feeling very sorry for myself. I had just had surgery (relatively minor) but had almost come unstuck because I failed to breathe properly in recovery. I remember the frightened looks on the faces of my daughters and the lecture I received about giving up smoking from the surgeon and deciding maybe I really should try to stop. I was scared – afraid that I would fail and make a complete fool of myself. I was already feeling bad because I knew that my 49 years of heavy smoking was the main reason I had breathing problems and I thought that if I failed I would never live it down. Also, I didn’t really want to stop my habit and abandon my “friend” of 49 years. Fortunately common sense prevailed and I decided to try. I promised myself I would never smoke again. I told no one, just got on with it.

I decided to talk to Quitline on my 12th day, just to get re-assurance if nothing else. They were amazing. I will never forget feeling at ease and being able to express my thoughts to someone who was non judgmental and willing to listen to my silly excuses for wanting to remain a smoker.

I read some of the blogs and quickly realized I was not the only person who felt the way I did. This gave me the confidence to continue my smokefree quest.

At first every day was a milestone. I would look forward to bedtime so that I could put a line through another smokefree day. I remember completing my first smokefree month and thinking I would never get to 2 months. It took a long time for me to stop wanting a cigarette, but one day it dawned on me that I had gone several days without giving smokes a thought. That was a day for celebration. Then I started to go out and meet friends and it was so nice not to have to seek an opportunity to sneak off to have a puff.

The first smokefree year was exciting, then came the second and third and on the 1st September my fourth smokefree breathday. I still occasionally have a fleeting thought that a cigarette would be “nice”, but I do not for one minute regret my decision to quit.

I have made so many friends through Quitline. It is like a big family.

I feel for each “Newbie” who struggles over the first few days and weeks. I want to reach out and do it for them, but this is a battle that must be fought alone. I love to hear news of those who were new when I joined and I really enjoy hearing from those who were “old hands” when I joined. I was so in awe of them.

I may not have a bigger bank balance than 4 years ago, but my discretional spending has improved greatly. I can afford little luxuries when I feel like them.

I certainly have a bigger waistline, but I am slowly coming to terms with that. I bought new clothes and try to exercise as much as my COPD will allow.

Although my health is not perfect I feel I can look forward to living long enough to enjoy any great grand children that will happen now that my grandchildren are adult.

Life is so good now that I am SMOKEFREE and I will never go back on my promise to myself.

- Clarence the Cat


100 DAYS :)

Smokefree days: 100 days
Grams NOT smoked: 715
Total savings: $975.00

The Nicodemon slithered into the room, gasping and looking worried. “Oh no, she has made the decision, she is going to quit” he rasped. His friend smirked and with a wheezy voice said “She won’t managed to do it Boss. She has been chuffin away for more than 41 years now. Her odds are very low”

Nicodemon blinked his beady eyes in an effort to rid himself of the yellow, nicotine gunk oozing from them. “But she has support this time … she has joined up with that enemy of mine .. Quitline. And worse still, she is blogging. This is NOT a good sign. This will increase her chances of success.”

“Don’t fret yourself boss, I will take care of it, she may look strong but its only day One, I will break her down. Watch me do my thing. I have weapons at the ready, I have many things planned. Don’t you worry, she will reach for that pack before too long”

*******************

Ladylene logged onto quitline. Today was her Hundredth Day .. Today she was officially in the Hundy Club .. She was so excited. She was battle worn and weary, and she bore some incredibly painful scars (some of which were far from healed). The enemy had thrown much at her in the past 3 1/2 months. Her husband had left her. He had bought himself a shiny Harley Bike and just last week had turned up to her church on it and then paraded around a young single girl from church on the back for the afternoon. Her protest had seen her church friends desert her and her pastor tell her not to return. She had suffered injuries which still saw her limping slightly and doing physio, but still, here she was … 100 days and smoke-free. She smiled to herself and proceeded to blog.

******************

Nicodemons friend was reluctant to enter the room because he knew he had failed. He knew his Boss would be livid. And he was right. Nicodemons face was red with fury, he paced back and forth along the floor, his breath coming in raspy, jagged gasps. Yellow slime oozed out from the side of his mouth and the stench of stale nicotine permeated the air.
“You said you had it covered. You said her chances were not good” he ranted. “You said you had weapons. How then is it that she is about to blog her 100th day? You have failed miserably”. He spat the words out and droplets of yellow goo flew out and landed on his underling’s shriveled face.

“But I did have weapons Boss, I threw everything at her. Her husband left her, he continues to taunt her to the point where she has to leave her family and her home town to start again. She has had to start everything over, find somewhere to live and set up again. She has stressed about income and spent many sleepless nights. She is still limping from the torn ligament and damaged cartilage in her knee, and is still doing physio. She has been abandoned by her church and most of her friends. I have increased her fibromyalgia pain, and for a while, her depression was out of control and suicide was definitely an option. She has crashed her car, suffered a tooth abscess and then a dry socket which saw her chew painkillers for weeks. I threw everything at her Boss .. but I couldn’t do anything about Quitline, couldn’t stop her blogging. I tried Boss I really did”.

******************

Ladylene finished typing and a huge grin broke out on her face. She knew her blogging friends would respond to her post with nothing but encouragement. They had been the most amazing support and she was thankful for them, and thankful for God, for His strength. She knew the battle was far from over and that this battle with the Nicodemon would always be there. It would wane in its intensity, but it would always be there. She wondered some days if she would ever be strong enough to ‘not’ blog, but for now it was empowering. She had made some wonderful friends and hopefully she had been a support to others in this journey too. Life had been hard, and her past may have been traumatic, but she still had the future, and she was smoke free. Ladylene smiled again and hit the send button.

- Ladylene



 

730 days smokefree

730 days = 2 years. Not one single puff for two years!

For the newbies who don’t know my story, this time two years ago I was at the start of day one after 45 years of smoking. I’d had a winter virus and the cough and chest infection was lingering, but the diagnosis of Emphysema I received that day was terrifying. Previously, I’d had no desire to give up smoking, but the thought of being unable to breathe was so dreadful that I quit, cold turkey, that very day.

A smoke to me was a comfort/treat/reward in many situations and the thought of being unable to have one ever again left me grief-stricken! I knew I couldn’t smoke any more, but wasn’t at all sure I could manage without them, so I joined the “quit family” here and found a wonderfully supportive group of fellow-quitters, without whom I’m sure I wouldn’t have succeeded.

Although the GP says my lungs are damaged, my breathing has recovered much to my relief. Only very occasionally do I feel symptoms and I haven’t needed to use inhalers I was given for a long time.

I want to say a heartfelt thank you to everyone for sharing your struggles and successes and for the unconditional support so generously given

- Saffron


3 Days clean!

Letting go of nicotine has been a bit harder than I thought it would be but definitely nowhere near as hard as quitting smoking was (this is my first attempt after all, whereas quitting tobacco required multiple attempts!). I think that the fact I’ve been using lozenges as a replacement for cigarettes, indulgently going through a tray a day for the past five months, has made this process more painful that it needed to be.

Still, I am happy to be here, sitting with the discomfort of not scratching that itch. I know I just have to push through those occasional fits of bad temperament, the times where I really crave a lozenge (no longer a cigarette!), those moments where it feels as though “something’s missing”. I know if I don’t feed it, it will die.

Writing this, seeing my stats, I am amazed at myself, pinching myself that I have FINALLY done it… I am finally truly FREE from nicotine! (But am now creating a peppermint addiction, sucking and parking Curiously Strong mints! Argh! LOL).

- heironymus


Milestones

I love milestones.. I have reached quite a few with my not smoking. Just reached my half a hundy.. next milestone is my relapse day.. of 77 days; I am going to beat that day and can't wait. Today I reached another milestone.. and that was with my running. I have only been running 2 mins then walking a min.. but today I did continous running for 10 mins. Super happy I acheived that milestone.. seems so small at the time; but they are milestones and help condition your mind to beleiving that anything is possible. It most certainly is. What was even better I could breathe properly from not smoking; it is alot harder to run when you have been smoking; it just doesn't really work. I have missed running; I used to be soo good at it when I was younger and fitter; so I am aiming to improve my fitness so I can do more. Love my milestones!

- Blondene


These are a few of my favourite things.....

  • Lying in bed in the mornings enjoying cuddles with my children vs getting up as soon as I wake for a smoke
  • Staying inside in the evenings while the rain and wind blow vs going outside to huddle in a corner for a smoke
  • Smelling delightful as opposed to stinking of smoke
  • Enjoying the company of my smoke free friends as opposed to sneaking out for a smoke when I could or thinking about it

Enjoy your weekend everyone!

- Fairydusternz


Winning mini battles take that cursed nico demon!!

Hi to my quit family I have been 2 days and suddenly realised I have not had a craving blessed be!! and then POW like a bolt of lightening it hit. So here I am blogging. I know now that this addiction is entrenched in my beliefs pretty deep. At first I beleived I could not ride my motorbike without ciggies for it would not be fun well bullocks to that I have and I can haha nico demon /then I believed I could not study without ciggies I actually believed they make me more intelligent what a joke I got my last grade on a paper 45/50 take that nico demon. Then I believed I could not go on holiday and have a good time for it was smoking that made holidays great yet the bush and the ocean time with my man were really what I was craving and needed I had a couple of really intense cravings but I pushed through thank you tooth picks . I now do an out loud WooHoo to the universe each time I change a belief. Each time I win a tiny battle on my way to freedom of the MIND SOUL AND BODY. I am no fool I know there will be many more battles in this war on the nico demon but no surrender ae guys!!I must remember that it is all in my head . One step at a time for today I am so bloody pleased to say I am a non smoker even I do not believe that I have made 3 weeks insane. this blog is a little ray of sunshine it has helped me way beyond the words I type/ for I know I am not alone I am sharing this journey with my quit family of valiant warriors!! here's to each day we fight and conquer!!

- guzzigirl


For the younger struggling quitters....

I'm 62 and have been quit for 61 days I think... or thereabouts. Just keep at it you people. It IS NOT easy but.... the benefits are great. A few months ago when I KNEW I had to do something..... my ankles were purple colour... plus my hands..... I looked at myself in mirror and thought, oh dear... I am grey, my eyes are colourless..... my teeth are so yellow and I feel like an ugly OLD person at 62. I felt so powerless... I had panic attacks constantly..... 61 days on and I feel so good. It isn't ALL okay... my nights are pretty hard with dreams.... but overall.... life is getting better... just keep trying you younger ones .... it will improve and get better!

- Gilly60


796 days smokefree

Hi quit family.

Sorry it's been a while but I've been quite busy with mum who was diagnosed with lung cancer nearly a month ago. She has just started drug treatment. Lots of other health issues for her going on, but all being managed in hospital.

I've had my definite roller coaster moments, but never in any of those moments have I had the desire to start up the filthy habit of smoking again. I'm disgusted on a daily basis as I'm driving into the hospital grounds to see so many smokers, patients, hospital staff etc all out on the main road smoking. That use to be me over 2 years ago, and I don't miss freezing my butt off in the cold trying to get my fix of nicotine, and I'm definitely saving money on perfumes as I don't go through them as fast as I did when I was a smoker. It's painful seeing them doing damage to their bodies when my mum is in hospital fighting for her life - it really saddens me.

Each day I ask for strength to stay positive - so I have come here to vent. I'm angry, sad and scared. I love my mum so much.

I apologise for my downer blog. For those who are struggling or just starting out on the quit journey, please hang in there, life is not a dress rehearsal you only get one chance. Once the struggle is over you will feel the freedom you deserve from the nasty dark forces of the ND. Hang in there you can do this. To all my long time and new supporters thank you all so much for your unwaivering support. xo 

- Mitchee


359 days

I am sooooo happy. I have reached the gold card age (65) and smoke free for just 5 days off 1 year . I am happy because I could not afford to smoke on a pension . I do not smell, I have saved over $2,600.00,I have bought a ipad and a smart phone. I have not put on weight and my stoke level risk has dropped down to 2 per cent which is great. There are so many pluses for stopping smoking and I wish ever one who is trying to stop is to not give up. I started smoking at about 16 years and quit at 64 years and 10 days.

Thank you every one who supported me. It has not being easy as my husband had to have a hip replacement and my 40.year old son had heart attack at the same time. I would not smoke. I worked through it and I feel proud of my self. GOOD LUCK EVERY ONE . GO WITH IT. NOPE. Not one puff ever.

- pumpkin


365 days smokefree

12 months ago today I was heading up to the hospital in an ambulance, struggling to breathe. A month before I'd had a collapsed lung, been treated and come home, now it had happened again and this time it was way more serious. My lung collapsed because of the damage I had done through 40 years of smoking.

I was a typical head in the sand, this isn't going to happen to me - I ignored all the warning signals,  the shortness of breath, the cough, the taking forever to recover from a cold, I kept smoking until I couldn't breathe. After major surgery at Auckland City Hospital (incredible place and people), a 5 week stay in hospital, I was finally home. I used that 5 weeks as a catalyst for my quit, I haven't had a puff since. If I want to breathe I can't smoke and I really do want to breathe! I want to live.

Today I'm back at work full time, am booked for pulmonary rehab, wear a fitbit to so I can track my exercise (the goal is 6500 steps a day), I'm taking photos on the weekends, walk my geriatric dog slowly (at 16 yrs that's all she wants), I love my life. I get breathless if I go up a hill or run or race up the stairs at work, if I get a cold or the flu I could end up in hospital, I have emphysema, 55% of my lung function left .... but it could be way worse. I tell my friends to quit before you have to quit, you really don't want to wait as long as I did. I nearly left it too late.

I visit here everyday, to read blogs and make a few comments. The stories, the people here .... you guys are awesome!! Encouraging and inspirational. Thank you all!

Whoooot! A year and I feel great!

- suemack


Day 12 - Why didn't I do this years ago?

So today is Day 12 for me and even though I get really bad cravings often I feel so amazing. Yes I have had a lot of ups and down along my journey to date but I am finding as everyday goes by that my body is changing for the better. I feel so much lighter, I have sooooooo much energy that some times I just want to start running for no reason what's so ever lol (far from normal) my skins so much softer and clearer, the really bad stains on my fingers have completely gone, my teeth appear to be getting a little whiter and I just feel so much more confident and like I could take on the world. I never ever thought this was possible I didn't believe I was strong enough to do this and I strongly believe it is because of all the strength and belief you have all given me. I can imagine there will be a lot more downers to come but I now know I can never turn back no matter how hard it gets. I finally gave away my tobacco today which I thought would be a lot harder than what it was. It really strengthened that that chapter of my life has been closed and that I choose a healthy happy journey for my future. Thank you so much for believing in me when I didn't believe in myself you are all amazing and I wish you all the strength in your journeys as well. Xo

- Olivia



 

Feeling Happy

Smokefree days: 644 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 16100
Total savings: $13,008.80

To have saved, or rather not spent on smokes, over $26,000 between me and my husband, who quit with me the very day I said I was ready. We have only had one rule and that is to not have one single puff. So for 644 days, my body hasn't known nicotine or any of the poisons they put with it to make it burn and taste "better". Today, we walked along the waterfront in Tauranga. Happily striding out, heart rate up and breathing in fresh sea air. And tonight, we ate a gorgeous roast beef that tasted phenomenal. In the past, we wouldn't have walked anywhere apart from the car to the dairy to buy some more smokes. And the food would have been nice but we wouldn't have been able to taste it properly.

At the beginning, it's not fun to stop smoking. You think about it about 10,000 times a day and it's hard to resist those cravings and all the mind chatter that your addict brain throws your way. But, so long as you stick to that one rule (ie complete abstinence), things do start to get easier. Looking at withdrawal as recovery also turns your focus from I'm missing something to I'm giving myself the gift of good health. Honestly, I couldn't be happier to finally be free. Are there times whenI could pick up a smoke and just peel it back? Sure, stress is my usual trigger but it will never ever get its claws into me again, and back comes the one rule.

If you're starting out and struggling, just remember it won't always be like this. Stick with it and sooner or later, the NOT smoking becomes the normal rather than sticking a paper wrapped tube into your mouth and drawing smoke into your lungs (which is weird when you think of it in those terms). And not smoking rocks!!

- PokuruGirl


The right time. 7 days whoop, whoop

Sunday night and my first 7 days are over. Done and Dusted. Never to be repeated ever again.
I am 7 days closer to freedom.
I am 7 days richer in my wallet
I am 7 days smelling nicer
I am 7 days away from day 1 of not smoking.

Wow. Had a social evening and a friend was so proud of me and called me a champion. She really meant it to which means more. So this week I am going to stop thinking that I am quitting and tell the voice in my head I have quit and try a mantra of "I am a non smoker".

Supermom you have been a treasure to have on this journey and an inspiration and someone to think about and not let down. For everyone that encouraged me this week - thank you with all my heart. Your are all my voices of encouragement louder in my head then nicodemon.

Bring on tomorrow I have so much to do and be excited about now and to get up for and get on with.

- Chooky

TO ALL THE QUITTERS

i just wana say thankyou, i was just about done talking myself into going out and getting a pack....just to have a puff when things got to much..thats what i was telling myself anyway, but jumped on here instead,just reading all the bloggs has got me on track again THANK YOU xoxoxoxo

- Nani



 

I AM 25 DAYS SMOKEFREE :) Yeeeaaahhhh

Hey everybody,

Well i decided to give up smoking after 5 attempts of it not happening I for some reason always went back to it but for some reason this year i set a date & just did it with out any patches or gum or anything i just did it if anything i think my main reason for giving up was for my children :).

Every time i went outside for a ciggie i had to remind my children not to come near me while i was smoking i hated it because of the look that they gave me when i went for a smoke they always said to me " mummy why do you have to smoke" i said to them because its got a hold of me. well i am please to say that it does not have a hold of me now i have broken the hold. but i am still in EARLY STAGES BUT NEVER GOING BACK!!!!! :)

- Buzzy mummy


The Ladies Pink Bicycle Race … 29th January 2014

Folks you don’t want to miss this one … get ready for the race of the century … it’s what you’ve all been waiting for .. it’s the Ladies Pink Bicycle Race. We're starting out here on this fine day of 29th January. Make your way on over to the betting window and place your bets.

They’re lined up at the start-line ready to go. And what a great bunch they are

In the far lane is Ladylene … she’s a veteran smoker at 40+ years. Her husband has already given up (a month now) so she’s keen to catch up. Ladylene has early stage emphysema so there is no negotiating this quit for her. She wants to be around for her grandkids. She’s had a couple of false starts but she recently mastered 19 days and now shes adopted the NOPE rule so keep your eye on her.

Beside her is KiwiJean, another seasoned smoker … oh now she’s definitely one to watch. She had 6 years smoke-free, before relapsing, so she’s done it before and she knows she can do it! She’s had a few false starts this time round and she’s battling the odds with a ‘smoking husband’ but the determination this woman shows is remarkable. She has her mind set on freedom and health and she will be right up there at the finish line.

Lined up besider her is Shaunie. She’s a busy mother with a great desire to be rid of this habit. She is motivated by the need to give a better future to her children and she needs to save the money to buy a fence to keep them safe. And we all know you should never mess with a "Mama Bear". Don’t underestimate this girl. She’s already managed 8 straight days and she’s a real contender.

HippyChick is next to her. Another lady with a few false starts … pain and stress can get to her sometimes but at last check in she had almost gone through the day with none … Getting through the day could be just the thing to kickstart this lady! Not a lot is known about her history, shes a bit of a dark horse, but I suspect she is totally capable of winning this race .. I think a little competition is the motivation she needs.

And on the inside lane is Kathleen. What can I say .. this lady has done an astounding 10 weeks smoke free! She was cruising along beautifully until a tragedy broadsided her and knocked her clean off her bike. She’s had some time-out to allow her knees to heal and to grieve ... but she’s back now and stronger than ever . If she uses that tragedy as her motivation she can take out this race easily! She’s another real serious contender!

So there you have them lined up on the start line … we’re almost ready to go …

“Ladies .. board your pink bikes” …

On your marks …. Get set …. GO!

(You have to read this bit fast) and they’re off … Ladylene and Kiwi Jean have made a great start, they are pedalling hard .. Shaunie is right up beside them, as is HippyChick …. Can’t see Kathleen yet … Ooh this is going to be a tight race ….

They’re coming up to the first bend now and its .. oops there's a bit of a commotion .. who is that? Its Hippychik .. she’s lighting up .. she’s puffing … oh no she's wobbling around all over the place ... she might be out this race ... can she get control? .... Yes! .... she's back in control and pedalling hard to catch up but she's lost a bit of ground now .. she'll have to work hard and practice NOPE to make that up ...

It’s all on at the lead now .. Shaunie, Ladylene and KiwiJean are battling it out .. there seems to be a lot of bell-ringing and NOPE yelling going on ... this is going to be a hard race to call ... still no sign of Kathleen ….

Down the straight they go now .. wow look at them go … legs are flying around and the crowd is going wild .. the cheerleaders are out, pompoms waving in their pink NOPE shirts … and its KiwiJean in front now .. woah what was that? Looks like Ladylene has cut in front of KiwiJean, right across her lane …. Oh no .. Kiwijean has the wobbles …. she’s losing it .. she’s lost the pedals …. she might be out of the race .. …. But no, she’s found those pedals again and she’s away …. phew that was a close call .. looks like Ladylene will do anything to get this race …

Hippychik is pedalling hard to catch up … the crowd is going wild …oh look at this … here comes Shaunie with the blue feather in her cap, sipping her waterbottle ... she’s coming up the outside now … look at those legs move! She’s wheel for wheel with KiwiJean now .. … there are just inches between these three ladies … still no sign of Kathleen...

- Ladylene



 

Today is my BREATHDAY......and Quitline gave to me.

A much less smelly body

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More time with my family

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Lungs no longer rowdy

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Enough money for a diamond ring

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A fancy new cell phone

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A staffy of our own

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A night at Aerosmith

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Some friends to help quit with!!

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More youthful looks.

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Better taste of what I cook

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Spare funds to join Jenny Craig!!

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And soon a very good reason to brag!!!!!

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Well well. Here I finally am. A day I have dreamed about for the whole year. A day I often thought I wouldn't have seen, and without this forum to come to for support I wouldn't have. The year has been a complete roller coaster ride. Its been reassuring to come in here and get advice or see others goimg through the same things at the same stage. I have received all of the above except for the dimond ring as ive had that foryears. Lol.

for all my supporters I'd like to thank you all for being there for me. For all those in their journies, at whatever stage I hope I can help you beat the nico demon and also get to enjoy this wonderful milestone. To all my friends that have since started the journey I wish you all the best as well.
I don't have anything special planned for the day, but that could change as will be heading through town later on. Thanks again all and rest assured I won't be going anywhere. This journey has only just begun. $

- NZMum2Two


In for a quick catch up

Hi all, hope you are all enjoying 2014 and welcome to the new bloggers.
Still trucking along alright, looking forward to the big holiday this year with the missus.
I am now at 861 days smokefree, we will be on holiday for the massive milestone of 1000 days, so really looking forward to it. Just working on the bit of weight gain from the xmas break. I cant believe how great food now tastes since I stopped smoking. To let you on a bit of a secret we upgraded our seats with the money I have saved since stopping. Its things like this that really make me glad I was finally able to stop after so many years.

I get on as much as possible to read the blogs and the great achievements some of you are hitting, and great to see the bloggers from when I started on here because you guys were the ones that helped me finally stop after so many attempts.

Again all the best for a smokefree 2014

- aufgehalten rauchen



 

Welcome to all our Newbies.

Smokefree days: 600 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 18000
Total savings: $12,420.00
Next Goal - 12th May - 2 years.
Occasionally I post my history just to show newbies that it can be done. I was a 30 a day for 35 years smoker. I started at 15 years old on the bus on the way home from school - the bus driver used to say "if he couldn't see us then we wernt doing it". I said to myself that when they went up to 50c a packet id give up - yeah right. Then I got asthma and started using inhalers. Still I smoked. Then at the age of 49 I had an angiogram because I was having heart palpitations. Silly me I thought if they found anything wrong a pill would fix it. NOT. 3 blocked arteries and a triple bypass was needed. I left the hospital and had a smoke, and another and I brought another packet of 30 but I joined up on here and it took me 10 days to stop and it was the night before mothers day when I had my last smoke and burnt the last cigs of that packet of 30 in the fire. Not one puff ever since. 3 months later I had a triple bypass in Waikato hospital. Thank god I stopped when I did because I tell you you see some sights in that cardio thoracic ward that absolutely scare you to the max. I had a good recovery and a huge amount of support from bloggers on here. Without this site and the help and advice of others on here my journey would have been a lot harder than it was. No problem is too little to share and no problem it too big. Part of sharing your problems are made easier because of the anonymity of being here. No-one knows who you are unless you choose. By the same coin we share in each others joys - milestones, big or small, new additions to each others families, achievements of our families and so much more. When you see us say its a family - it is. I have made so many new friends, its amazing. I had a scarey experience one night just after my mother in law passed away and my friends on here blogged with me constantly until my man came home to be with me. Everyones journey is individual and what works for some wont be good for others but its all trial and error and you soon know whats right for you. Don't be afraid to ask for help - we can help you and you can win the battle. Life is so much nicer when your smokefree and you will have a much longer healthier life. My life was on the line and so maybe for me its been a lot easier to remain smokefree because honestly I have an addictive nature and one puff would put me back to smoking full time and that in turn would kill me because of my heart. Every check up I have my doctor tells me how proud he is of me and also tells me that I am smokefree means I may well live to see my grandchildren get married. I hope so because I fully plan on it. Welcome to the best decision you can make.

- Worker


365 Days Smoke-Free. My Journey!

9.45pm New Years Eve 2012 I smoked my last cigarette, after smoking for the last 38 years. Still had smokes left in my pack of Horizon.
Hid them in the back of a cupboard where I couldn`t see them, as I was afraid I`d panic if I had thrown them away. And there started my Quit Journey. Alarm set for half an hour before I would normally get up on a morning. Woke up and slapped on my patch, then dozed off again. I needed to get that nicotine in my system before I got up, as my normal routine would be 2 smokes and a coffee before I felt even halfway human.

I had made a list of `positives` for stopping smoking, including health benefits, $$$$$ savings, along with my own personal benefits. I blue-tacked this list to my bedroom wall and had a jar ready to put my ciggie cash into.

My early weeks consisted of blogging heaps and reading blogs. I had failed quitting numerous times, but others blogs reinforced to me that we all go through very similar thoughts, temptations, and feelings when quitting, so I learned that this was all `normal` for a quitter. I became, and still am, very attached to my trusty water bottle...(who`d have thought the simple act of sipping water would help alleviate even the most strongest of craves??) I took the 4Ds `to heart`..Delay, Deep Breathe, Do something else, Drink water, as Gospel. I also followed a few really successful quitters and their blogs, and aspired to be like them.
I turned into a `secret smoker stalker`. I`d watch people smoking from afar, watch their facial expressions, their body language, and I kid you not, never once did I ever see any smoker looking like they actually were enjoying their ciggie. They looked tense, and stressed.
I also `coloured` every day in the calendar that I didn`t smoke. A small re-inforcement to myself. (A visual reminder of how well I was doing). Each month, in the first few months I deposited my `savings` into my savings account. That has since diminished, though I am pleased to say, not one cent has been wasted on cigarettes.

I suffered sleepless nights, irritability, bouts of crying, (no idea why), extreme bouts of tiredness, followed by boundless energy, insatiable appetite....but at the end of each day I experienced pure elation, when I`d crawl into bed and know I`d remained smoke-free for another day.

The Nico-demon visited often, trying to lure me back into his trap. Some days I felt I was going crazy, arguing with voices in my head, knowing only I could `hear` them. Then while searching for another job, the mongrel even appeared on Seek...Wanting a Sales Rep for British American Tobacco...a job that a few months prior I would have eagerly applied for.

2013 has proved to be an extremely difficult year for me. To the point where if I had been told at the start of this year, the struggles I would face, I would have said, `OK, bring them on, I`ll get them all sorted, BUT, I`ll stop smoking next year.`
I`ve had health issues, one still to be `resolved`, hopefully early in the New Year. Work issues early last year, then the death of my gorgeous gentle giant, Jasper. Landlord issues, along with more work issues. All have required a tremendous effort to remain smoke-free. I failed miserably one night in September, but those smokes did absolutely nothing to help me, or make me feel better about myself or my situation. On a plus note, whenever I have been tempted since, I have reminded myself of how disgusted I felt that night, and how smoking does nothing to help any situation, and am proud to say I continued with my quit journey.

I have been blessed with having great support from my 3 (adult) kids, along with some work colleagues and a couple of friends. But my biggest support has been this site, and I know 100% without all of the support here I would not be celebrating my 1st smoke-free year for 38 years.
A massive thank you to Quit Line for providing all of us with this site, and I would like to acknowledge all the wonderful folk here that have played a huge part in my success to date. A Big HUG and THANKYOU to all of you, Pokuru Girl, I`ve never met you PG, but feel I could pop over to your place, and `fit` right in, as if I`ve always known you...... PSPSP, Pops, Rainbowfish, Fireman, Worker, Lindam,Clarence the Cat, Saffron, Julz1981, JellyKelly, Susie, Mitchee, Gaby38, Hollie, Emmygirl, RobertRich, Elevtheria, Dunqit,Sexymwahz, Manu, all your support means so much to me. There is so many of you playing a part in my quit journey, I really am sorry if I haven`t mentioned you....

Clematis, MollyMuppet, Bonz and Heironymus....I miss all of you....and thank you for all your support too. And really look forward to seeing you back here soon.

To everyone at the start of their quit journey...Treat it like PMS x 100 and you`ll be somewhat prepared!! LOL.
Practice the 4Ds
Read the blogs often, and post your own, to help others.
Believe you can be smoke-free, and you will be smoke-free.
Adhere to the N.O.P. E. Principal.... Not One Puff Ever.
Take this journey One Day At A Time....And sometimes even, 1 hour at a time in those early days.
Sleep....Plenty if you can.
Be forgiving of your mistakes.
Be open and honest about your feelings with your family and friends.
Always be alert to Nicodemon`s traps. He has plenty to try and lure you back into his trap!
Be prepared to go through each `season` as a non smoker. Summer, Autumn, Winter, Spring. Happiness, Excitement, Anger, Disappointment, Sadness..the list goes on...birthdays...etc..
Search deep inside yourselves and drag to the surface every bit of stubbornness you possess, and use it. Nico-demon hates stubbornness!! LOL
Reward yourself...Each milestone, have a`treat` in store...Feel good factor!!! You deserve it.

This has been the most difficult challenge I`ve ever done, but most definitely the best for myself, my health and my family also.

I love having the extra cash, with a little in savings.
I love not stinking of stale smoke.
I love my pink tongue.
I love my skin and hair feeling and looking so great.
I love being able to go for long walks with Jasmine and not get out of breath.
I love my totally nicotine stain free teeth!!! (Still catch myself looking at them.LOL)
I love having cuddles with my grandkids knowing they can only smell Nana`s perfume
And I love been FREE from this evil addiction.

For me now, bring on my 2nd smoke-free year....I think I`ve done the `hard-yards`....(hopefully).
And to everyone here I hope for a Happy Smoke-free 2014.
God Bless You All.

- Yorkshire Lass



 

thanks Quitline

I just rung quit line for some reassurance that I am normal and its OK to be feeling like I do.
I can't get the lady's name but she was lovely and let me waffle on and totally made me feel OK about things.
after discussing things I got off the phone happy about my progress. sometimes it just feels a little overwhelming and that also out of the blue thoughts appear.
but I knew it was normal but needed to hear it
my step dad is going into hospital today for stent re his prostate cancer, next Tuesday my real dad goes in for another bypass.
both ex smokers not sure if there is a connection?
also this will be my first smoke free Xmas ever in 20 odd yes!!!!
well off to get my son to doc as his nose is still bleeding :(

Thanks quit line your advice has helped me so much xx

- Yas01


 

Hi Everyone 1623 days smokefree today!!!!!.

Still here on having a look around this morning i know hardly anyone but they are all on the same journey as i have been today i am 1623 days smokefree .Its been an easy one for me my time was right and i will never regret giving up .xxxx

- Maggie