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22Apr2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Hard to kick

Update: I started smoking again. My mental health got too bad, I was really really depressed. I think I did learn from the three weeks I quit and smoking doesn't seem like a great thing now, more a curse I'm stuck with until I have the strength and love for my self to give smoke free life another go. To you out there quitting I commend you. Smoking is not great it's a crappy poisonous addiction I wish I was free from.

Profile image BillabongJon22 April, 2017

Hi, have you tried NRT? Seems to do the trick for me as we all know you can't smoke while you have the patch or you probably pass out sick.
Smoking is crazy but there is a way out. Your time will come and you'll be better off on the other end of this road to smokefreedom.

Profile image Tropicanna22 April, 2017

Stop kicking yourself while you are down. You will be ready to quit again soon. The NRT is very helpful.
your last quit was for three weeks? That is awesome. Really well done.

Profile image smokefreemep22 April, 2017

Hey Red, smoking is absolutely poison eh.. in every way. I remember being sick of smoking and thinking "imagine if I put as much dedication into my health and fitness as I do smoking id be super fit! I am super fit and Kicking Nicdemons butt is the best decision iv ever stuck with! I cant tell people there is a certain way to quit and Im still struggling myself lately after 2 years cold turkey but I guess the key to being a non smoker is NOPE. If we dont puff we are successful eh? Anyway.. wishing you all the best to get to where you want to be, all the best with your smoke free personal development xxπŸ’•

Profile image Blondene22 April, 2017

There comes a point at rock bottom with smoking that you realise the best thing is to quit...don't be too hard on yourself start again when you are ready...my quit right now came after mutiple fails at xt one point I couldn't make it thru to 3 days I felt useless but would start again the next day never knowing if that quit would be the one...you can break free!πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜†πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

4Apr2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

I just smoked my last cigarette...again

I got really depressed and caved and bought a 50 g which was $$$ wasted, for anyone thinking of buy smokes don't do it they are truly disgusting. Honestly. If you haven't smoked for two weeks they taste terrible. Of course I got that hit I've been smoking all evening and I don't feel so depressed but I DONT WANT TO SMOKE. It's back on the patch and I'm not resetting my days, I'll just call it a set back.

I'm really amazed at how disgusting they really are. How did I ever start?

Profile image nat4 April, 2017

I had a couple of slips and never reset do what you want your quit and keep going well done

Profile image Gavin4 April, 2017

well it's up to you guys what you do with your stats but you're either quit or not.

Profile image Blondene4 April, 2017

I agree with Gavin...you can't have the occasional ciggy and call yourself a non smoker...it's all or nothing

Profile image GTMI4 April, 2017

Yip I'm with Gavin and Blondene here, being quit means zero ciggys NOPE NOPE and NOPE

Profile image GaGa. 684 April, 2017

I totally agree with Gavin Blondene and GTMI 🚭 NOPE does work

Profile image Debbie704 April, 2017

Hmmmm. I deleted my first post. Guess the point is are we counting the number of days smokeFREE or the days we TRIED.??

Profile image GTMI4 April, 2017

Debbie I personally count my days smokefree, if I slipped and have in the past I chose to go back to day 1, for me smokefree means smokefree

Profile image Heatherb4 April, 2017

I agree with Gavin, Blondene, GTMI, and GaGa.68, Smoke free means smoke free not maybe 1 or 2 a day. Your stats are smokefree days and cigarettes not smoked. ODAAT and NOPE

30Mar2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Stats Update: 11 days smokefree

Smokefree days: 11 days
Grams NOT smoked: 79
Total savings: $170.00

Going pretty well, struggling with depression which always kicks in a couple of weeks after I give up and drives me back to smoking. Not this time! I know it won't help, I need to keep my self active and engaged. A nice hot bath would be good. Might have to go for a chcolate run. But no cigs! I don't even crave them as long as I wear my patches. It's just a crutch...that could kill me.

Profile image firefoxy30 March, 2017

well done redumbrella. I know how hard it is to stay smoke-free when you're struggling with mental health. I have extreme anxiety at the moment, and a mood disorder, the drs wouldnt let me quit, till i had 4 lung infections pretty much in a row and i told them i had enough and i had to quit no matter if they liked it or not.
i dont crave them physically if i keep on top of my patches either, its all in my head, keep at it hun, you can beat this. Get some epsom salts for your bath and give yourself a good detox, that will help get some of the yuckies out too. If you can get to a sauna that will help. I went the other week. Well done on your savings, dont forget to spoil yourself

Profile image Ponytail30 March, 2017

Redumbrella, hang in there, depression is a nasty place to be.... when I am low I write.... have you thought of writing a gratitude journal? - five positive things you are grateful for each day, no matter how small. At the top of your list is being 11 days smokefree. I also walk and try to keep busy. I have yet to be even one day smokefree but am feeling the emotional and physical cravings gradually going. It is a nasty habit for me mainly and I will beat that too.
kia kaha

Profile image smokefreemep30 March, 2017

Hi Red, I love this blog! You sound determined and positive and super motivated.. keep it up.. you will get far! Im really happy for you on 11 days, massive achievement well done πŸ’“πŸ’•πŸ‘

Profile image Quitline31 March, 2017

Hi Redumbrella,

It sounds like you have some good strategies in place for keeping yourself well while you are quitting. If you want to chat about it, our colleagues at the Depression Helpline are available 24/7 on 0800 111 757, or you can call Quitline on 0800 778 778

Quitline Online Advisor

26Mar2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Stats Update: 7 days smokefree

Smokefree days: 7 days
Grams NOT smoked: 50
Total savings: $85.00

One week! Using less gum too, not trying to just don't want it as much. Got really hard yesterday, I'll admit couldn't have got through it without my family.

Feeling motivated.

Profile image smokefreemep27 March, 2017

Hey red, a whole week! Awesome! Stay strong be positive. Your doing fantastic xx

Profile image nanaturtle27 March, 2017

Great work-πŸ‘
Treat-time? Yeah!!

Profile image Gavin27 March, 2017

Well done, be very proud of that. It's not easy this quitting business.

Profile image GTMI27 March, 2017

Your through the first week, well done you πŸ˜ƒ

Profile image Mrs s27 March, 2017

Wahoo well done first week done and dusted things do get easier you are doing great πŸ‘

Profile image Margi5828 March, 2017

That first week is such a hurdle! You're doing awesome! Be proud of yourself!

Profile image GT Dave28 March, 2017

Awesome Red. Congratulations.

22Mar2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Stats Update: 3 days smokefree

Smokefree days: 3 days
Grams NOT smoked: 22
Total savings: $85.00

This is so hard but signing in and seeing that made it worth it. I've only had one from scraps of tobacco I scrounged up one night when it was was 2.30 and I couldn't sleep. I need to be careful to get enough sleep or my mental health really deteriorates. Using patches and gum. This time is it, I can feel it, but it doesn't make the emotions any easier to deal with when you just want that cigarette.
Guess I'm one who's badly addicted, my dad used to smoke and would just give up sporadically when he needed to, so he doesn't really understand.

But I went to the GP and the practice nurse changed my smoking status on my health record and gave me a script for more patches and gum.

Time for bed! Another smoke free day tomorrow.

Profile image firefoxy23 March, 2017

i have a friend whos like your dad, just gives up when she needs to, and doesnt understand at all, drives me quite nuts.
My journey has been really hard too and i have mental health problems too so i really understand. Well done you for day 3 and now today day 4! :) Go you! I use patches and gum too. Gum for really bad moments and when im driving. Im also someone who needs to be careful i get enough sleep or my mental health spirals downward very quickly..im under mental health at the moment with a psychiatrist, a psychologist and a occupational therapist. You do feel it when you know you can do it, i think so do, but it doesnt make it easier, i have days when i throw huge tantrums, especially at my partner, its ok, give yourself a break, you're breaking a huge addiction, you have a mental health illness, makes it even harder. You're doing amazing. Keep it up. One day at a time chick :)

Profile image Redumbrella23 March, 2017

Thanks Firefoxy! It's not easy but it is worth it. Really appreciate your comment. I even have this herbal nicotine free tobacco stuff so I can roll a smoke and have one when I really need it. I know it's not the best as it's not breaking the ritual, but you what? Whatever works I reckon :D

Profile image alex23 March, 2017

Hey Man I know where your at this is my 5 th day smoke free, have been smoking since i was fourteen 53 Long years. I have a severe lung disease and i know if i dont do something now i wont see another year with my family. I have tried in the past but always went back to it and always felt worse for wear taking it back up.You hang on in there and know you have a mate doing the same .

Profile image Redumbrella23 March, 2017

Hi Alex thanks for the inspiration from your comment. Keep at it! Life is good without tobacco in the long run. I hope your health improves. My teeth and gums were starting to hurt all the time and I had an inflamed chest lining some times it takes a lot to make us realise how powerful an addiction it is.

Profile image firefoxy24 March, 2017

hey its nicotine free chick you're doing better than me then :) i still got patches and gum so still putting nicotine in me, otherwise id probably kill people haha. Im glad my comment helped, this site has helped me, it helps that people are going through the same thing as me. My partner doesnt understand when im having a moment, at the moment i have a lot in the car, we have a lot of road works in my town at the moment people keep crashing and sitting on my arse and i get road rage haha, i end up shouting at the man to pass me some nicorette gum just to help calm me down, and ive never smoked in the car as we have kids, so theres a funny for you for the day.
You're so right bout whatever works, you're breaking a habit that ive heard is harder to break than heroin, not that i would know, never tried that stuff, eek, but there ya go. Heres to smoke free today hun :)

19Mar2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Chilly turkey

Man this thing is not easy, end of day one, hopefully it gets better as the nicotine leaves my system. I keep failing when I use nrt so I'm trying old fashioned cold turkey, with a bit of juice and dark chocolate to ease the transition. I went for a long walk, that really helped and so did a bit of mindfulness meditation. Luckily I'm not working at the moment so I can focus on me and getting past these first 3 days.
I also researched vitamins to take when you quit but I think I might have gone a bit overboard on buying up supplements, oh well I'll end up saving money in the long run and my health is priceless.

The whyquit website with Joel spitzer has been really helpful and made me realise this is a serious drug addiction and I'm no different to anyone else dealing with a drug addiction. Being kind to myself and NOPE.

Profile image GTMI19 March, 2017

I love watching Joel Spitzer, watch lots of his episodes over the next 3 days, you can do this, one minute at a time over the next couple of days, keep blogging here to, the support is brilliant here πŸ˜ƒ

Profile image firefoxy19 March, 2017

the support on here is awesome. Its not easy. Ive had a few tantrums and lots of cleaning and keeping busy. Even bought a fidget cube lol. But on day 11 and still going.
Dont feel like you cant change your mind about using patches etc, they are there to help, they do help...although ive found sometimes i get headaches from chewing the gum too much lol, but you can do this, keep being strong, you're right, its an addiction, one day at a time.

Profile image Woodsie20 March, 2017

Why quit is pretty cool, the Turkeyville FB page seems to border on evangelical nutterism though in my opinion. Hey but thats the Yanks, if anybody seems to be OTT it's them. Lots of good articles on there and in my opinion knowing the enemy is always helpful when trying to win a war. You can do this.

Profile image GT Dave20 March, 2017

Hey Red. Thanks for your message on my blog. Lets get through this together. :)

Profile image smokefreemep20 March, 2017

Definitely red.. always be kind to yourself. Well done

Profile image Redumbrella22 March, 2017

Thanks for the messages guys, Firefoxy, I've started using nrt, cold turkey was not working for me! I did think of what you said when it got too hard so I put a patch on and kept going

19Mar2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

This time I mean it

Back at my quit plan after going back to smoking. I really don't want to, it's wrecking my teeth and gums as well as my bank account. I think I can do it this time. One day at a time right?

Profile image Woodsie19 March, 2017

Every minute and every hour if you have to. Yep you can do this, onwards and upwards. : )

Profile image nanaturtle19 March, 2017

You got it! By the minute if You need
Forget yesterday-today is The ONE that matters most πŸ˜ƒ
Stay Strong πŸ‘

Profile image GTMI19 March, 2017

We are all here for support to so keep blogging, it really helps πŸ˜€

Profile image Nana2219 March, 2017

That's right Redumbrella. And every hour is a victory.
This can be your new beginning.
ODAAT. Baby steps. 4D's (very important). You can do it.

Profile image firefoxy19 March, 2017

yup one minute at a time if you have to. I take deep breaths when i feel like i reeeeally need a smoke. Feels like a smoke a little bit. Big breath in, huge long breath out through your mouth. Do it five times and try to focus on being calm. It can help. Im supporting your blogs. You can do this

7Jan2017 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

False start, new success

So I haven't posted in awhile cos I went back to smoking but 2017 is my smokefree year. It's been 8 days and I'm going well. Using patches, I used the gum too for the first few days. Determined to stay smokefree. It's a bright future!

Profile image Sammyy7 January, 2017

Hey red good to have you back. Good on you for coming here and giving this another go. It's definitely tough in the early days but it WILL get easier- you just need to hang in there. Glad to hear you've got something to help you along, i use patches and lozenges and find they really take the edge off. Love your positivity and determination. A recipe for success. And look at you 8 days smokefree already. Well done! 🌟🌟🌟

Profile image nanaturtle8 January, 2017

πŸ‘ Great stuff!!
Stay strong πŸ˜ƒ

Profile image Arria8 January, 2017

Well done redumbrealla, congrats on the first week, now onto the second :)

Profile image GaGa. 688 January, 2017

Nice work - you are sounding positive -stay strong🌠🌠🌠

Profile image nanaturtle13 January, 2017

Stay strong - use us & Blog if You need to πŸ‘πŸ˜ƒ

13Dec2016 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs


Realising how much I use smoking to regulate my emotions. After 2 convos with friends today about how depressed they are I could really do with a cig. I feel like people look to me for support which is great, but I think I need to learn to step back like right now when I'm quitting. I just really feel like smoking, the actual ritual of it. Has anyone tried herbal cigarettes to help them quit? Like those honey rose ones not "herbal cigarettes" haha

Profile image nanaturtle13 December, 2016

Part of Quitting is to break habits, including Hand-to-Mouth, so I wouldn't encourage alternatives. Sorry. That doesn't help You. I like the idea of removing Yourself from these needy people right now & this is only short term. Let Your friends know this is early days & ask them to be a bit patient. You are in Need now. Hold on, these are the toughest days & You're doing well πŸ˜ƒ
Try the water bottle instead
-Im Proud of you Efforts so far Redumbrella
Stay Strong πŸ‘

Profile image corky2313 December, 2016

Yes I use smoking to regulate my emotions to I'm determined not to let them get the better of me this time, I tried those herbal ciggies when I was younger my mum had some and they were foul!!!

Profile image Sammyy14 December, 2016

The emotional aspect is a hard one to learn to deal with. We can change habit and routine relatively quickly but using smoking to deal with our emotions is a bit of a different story and will take longer. I think you're right you may need to step back for a while (not forever) your friends will understand. Helping depressed people is very emotionally draining (my partner knows this πŸ˜‚) and it's vital that you protect your quitting at this early stage. You're doing great right now it will get easier just keep putting yourself and your quit first 🌟🌟🌟

Profile image nanaturtle16 December, 2016

Stay strong πŸ‘

12Dec2016 By Redumbrella  |  Permalink  |  Report Support me - Follow my blogs

Day 3 this is hard

This is hard but I know it's totally worth it. Good health and finances coming my way. And I won't set a bad example to my cousins kids anymore. Already my nightly walk is so much easier. Struggling with cravings but it's only day 3 and ODAAT right? I can do this!

Profile image Sammyy13 December, 2016

Day 3 is normally a bit rough so you're doing great πŸ‘ keep it up! ☺🌟🌈🌼🌞

Profile image nanaturtle13 December, 2016

Hang on Redumbrella - this time next week You will look back with Pride, oh heck, You can be Proud now! You are resisting a tough addiction -Stay strong 😯 NOPE ODAAT it does get easier πŸ˜ƒ

Profile image Blondene13 December, 2016

I found day 3 the hardest by far ..I took it moment by moment you can get thru 4 ds mantra water and a new hobby mine is the gym and still going strong you can do this 😊

Profile image smokefreemep13 December, 2016


Profile image Vampchiq13 December, 2016

Hang in there!! I spent day 3 and 4 in bed asleep, and day 5 has dawned and I almost feel human again!! You can do it!!