Stats Update: 320 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 320 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 6400
Total savings: $5,120.00
3 days i had with my baby grandson. i got home at 6pm and hubby is nowhere to be seen. i have an idea where he is but im not going looking. i guess he will turn up soon enough. the wee man had his 5 month jabs yesterday. was not impressed and screamed for a few minutes and went to sleep in the car on the way home. i was up every morning at about 7 to change him and give him his bottle and his farex and fruit. this morning he got excited when he saw the plate with the food in it. he still likes a cuddle before sleep and i had plenty to give. he is into the face scragging now and pulling my nose. he has sharp little fingernails and its a wonder i havent got scratches all over my face but i didnt mind one bit. i dont know if hubby has got over his tanty but we will see and he seemed to be all good when i left for work on sunday. not so good at cashing up time as i think one of my tills was wrong. hope fully i added wrong or something and i wasnt going to stay there all day trying to find it. had places to be and baby to see. any way have to iron my uniform now for work in the morning. have a nice anzac day and weekend to
I see that PG has fessed up.
It was only one puff and she is still the queen of NOPE.
There was no chance of PG regressing. For the next couple of days I had her securely bound in titanium chains with duct tape over her mouth-her only sustenance by way of an intravenous drip.
We were with people who were smoking-they have tried to stop many times. I had wandered off to check out the markets (and incidentally came back with a pristine Blues Brothers vinyl-from the Belushi/Acroyd movie. One of my favourites). While self responsibility is a creed that both PG and I adopt, I was not happy that our friends did not say no to PG lighting a smoke. I didn't front them on it but...
Anyway its all good now and in solidarity with PG I am taking a day off my stats too. And she gets to keep the Blues Brothers vinyl as well. Slightly selfish motives there though. I could hardly not give it to PG as I am really really looking forward to playing and listening to it.
The one good thing that did come out of this is that PG said the taste was truly disgusting. Foul on a level that was off the scale. And a mighty effective deterrent not to have one puff-ever.
We didn't make our quit date
Seriously, we seem to be hopeless at this.
A great weekend planned
before I pick up my daughter. I haven't caught up with all the blogs yet. Just got home
Midnight, I totally agree that the law should be changed.
M-dog, I got to work this morning and thought, bugger, I should have rung to see if I could get the court to force her into rehab. Too late now but I will look into the mental health aspect. That is a great idea and I'm cheered up to learn about it :) She got off pretty lightly with 7 months loss of licence and $700 reparation and court fees.
Even though I don't mention each of you individually, please know that every single one of you makes a difference. (including those that mentioned the mental health - i think that's great) xxxxxxxxxx
Why am I not surprised . . . my workplace has offered a new service, 24/7, free counselling or support for work problems. So I rang 2 days ago . . 4 phone calls later, messages left on the answer phone, nothing! Heaven help anyone who is suicidal. (not me - rest assured that I am fine)
Once I have settled back to being myself I will be laying a big complaint.
In the meantime, I am off for 4 days, excited to be going to Auckland in the morning, excited to see my family and of course SHOP! I will fill you in when I get back :)
To Re-Set or Not to Re-Set,? That is the question.
Smokefree days: 655 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 16375
Total savings: $13,231.00
I've been pretty quiet on these blogs for a while now - for several reasons. One, we've been having a rest from the stresses of work and having a lovely "staycation", chilling out , sleeping in, watching movies and so on and so on. The other is because on Day 651 of my quit, I lit up someone's smoke for them. Yes, me, the Queen of the NOPE did NOT NOPE. I can give out excuses like I was drunk (I was) and she didn't try to stop me in any way. That said, I was the one who had a puff. PSPSP was furious. I was ashamed and repentant. The next few days were touch and go because I had woken up those receptors in my brain. You know the ones, the ones that will always scream out for cigarettes. And I could so very easily have slipped back into full-time smoking if it hadn't been for PSPSP's encouragement and support. I have thought long and hard about resetting and have decided to take one day off my stats. I thought long and hard too about fessing up on this site, not because I have any problem with a mea culpa but because I don't want to discourage anyone in their early days. 99.9% of my time! smoking doesn't even enter into my head. This time, I put myself into a situation where I was likely to fail, and fail I did.
PS. That one drag tasted so vile, so absolutely putrid, I could seem to taste it alll the next day. And yet? My brain was saying I wouldn't mind some more of that! But, hand on heart, I don't want to be a smoker anymore and so back to the NOPE rule for me.
Stats Update: 5 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 5 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 100
Total savings: $41.90
withdrawal is what im worried about, but also don' want to die from something that i am doing to myself. Monday is the day i give this up for good.
Stats Update: 654 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 654 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 8502
Total savings: $6,683.60
DAY ONE :)
I thought I had posted a blog this morning but can't seem to see it... so maybe I didn't...
Anyway I have been waiting for this day for a while, and have totally aced it. I've done a lot of preparation for it and feel like I'm so ready this time. Have kept busy cleaning the house, reading with incense burning, doing some meditation and playing with my 2year old girl. I did have to have a nap this arvo because there was just no energy in me... and my head is pounding and has been all day despite all the water I've drunk... but that's ok, my body is doing what it needs to do, and my mind is staying positive. Looking forward to Day Two!