Stats Update: 219 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 219 days
Grams NOT smoked: 2190
Total savings: $3,301.20
I haven't been completely honest with you guys. No, I haven't smoked if that's what you're thinking.
In my blogs and comments I come across as confident and I occasionally use humour as well. Some of the time that is just me hiding the fact that I'm struggling. Not struggling with cravings (I haven't had cravings for ages), but with the psychological part of the addiction. I have constant thoughts of just one puff will be ok. I don't want to smoke so I will not cave in. Those thoughts are just #@$%ing me off, that's all.
Sorry for the rant. I just needed to put it out there.
Have a great day my "quit family"☺☺☺☺☺☺
Stats Update: 21 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 21 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 525
Total savings: $356.94
At last three weeks. Been a hard day though. Nearly caved but my knitting and my flavoured chewing gum saved me. Got a wee bit cocky thinking I'll be fine. No demons here. Ha !! Little blighters hiding away and catch you unawares. Thank goodness for will power. Have a wee bit more than I thought I had !!
Feeling quite proud after my temperamentive weekend. Full on arguing with Mah hUn to the point which ii found myself trying to run away within the showers of the rain ii found solace and realisation and returned to my place of the heart.. I am having a very emotional week. Within the searching, investigating and connections of whakapapa.. I've been able to connect 7 Generations between my Son - Bailey Mitaiparaihe Benjahman Manawatoa-Te Muru Wiremu Brass to my great great great Grandfather - Rewiri Hongi.. Feeling the mood of unity as our Whanau are preparing for our Reunion at the end of the year..
My quote of the week - Acknowledgements to our Tipuna, may we follow in their lead.
My quote reflects on their teachings, how knowledge is passed through generation to generation.. I'm also talking about strategic planning and goals.. Acknowledging our real names and the names that we individually created for ourselves on here.. Whakawhanaungatanga - Belonging to a wonderful Whanau that understands the struggles, mistakes and behaviour of this addiction. The challenging countless relapses that take us back to that day Zero.
Today ii am proud of my 65 days and to all those that inspire mwah and soar ahead.. I am proud of them too.. To all those ii support.. I will continue to support you, encourage and praise you.. For some have taken flight with the wings beneath their wings.. We each have our own journey, we each have our own destination and we each have our own discoveries and experiences along the way.
Loads of Love and Magical Miracles
Hi quit family...today was totally a normal day...wake up, go to work...my legs are like concrete but walking they get a little better. At 3 pm i already was in break, catch up with my wife to fill the documents with the car rental for the stolen car and then back to work.
We weren't busy at all so at 7 pm i finished to work.
We had our bikes tied up togheter in front of were my wife work ( i work really close to her now ) so i went to take mine to came back home.
I found a surprise. The bike were messy like someone hitted them...i tought of someone walking but when i check better someone actually tried to stole them. mainly my wife's. her basket was ripped, my air pump gone and the chain deeply cut, but luckily not enough.
Whoever tried to steal them doesn't know anything about bike, so i don0t think were "professionals". I suspect were someone working with my wife because they are jeaolous for her new job.
i really cannot believe that another thing like this happened after 1 day...
maybe it is just a coincidence...maybe not. When my wife will be back we will decide if call the police or not.
We came here to start a new family because we didn't feel secure in italy....now this here? I really didn't expect anything like this...
police give me a call that they found the car but they couldn't tell ( maybe the one who called me doesn't know i think ) if my equipment was there...i really hope so...i had the running shoes that my dad gifted me so i really care...
I cycled her bike to home, took a bus back to the cbd and then cycled mine home...really a bad evening.
I am really pissed off...and i tought to smoke one to calm me down. But after 1 second i just said no...it is useless, meaningless, and most of all hazardous for my health. Today i was watching the ironman 70.3 in taupo, i cannot start to smoke...but life is pushing hard, isn't it? ah well....i push harder
Stats Update: 6 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 6 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 66
Total savings: $78.00
+++++ so grateful I have made this choice for me and ultimately for my children +++++
single mama and trying to do the very best for my kids by setting an example. Full time work and smoke free life.
Oh dear. Don't remember this happening before. Nearly three weeks in and I have been doing fine. But heavens above talk about being weepy. I'm crying for just about every reason and can't stop. Don't know why. I cry usually at weepy movies and emotional TV programmes but even music programnes I'm blubbering away. I feel sad but am happy and that's a weird emotion
Have a wee bit if a family health issue going on but I don't think its that because I'm a nurse and pretty switched on with stuff. But gosh do I feel weird. Is it the Champix. The loss of the demon fags. The menopause. Gawd nose but wish it would stop its ruining my blooming make up
Off for a wee shopping spree. I won't smoke because I know I can't and never can smoke
Have a very good sleep NZ peeps and tomorrow will be ma 3 week mark. Whoop whoop
I can't believe I have got this far. What a great feeling. Nicodemon still comes to visit but gets the message to leave a bit quicker each time. Still have to remember my patches,its a mind field nico demon is always trying to distract me so he can justify my having an evil stick. Hope everyone is having a God quit day
Smokefree days: 995 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 24875
Total savings: $20,099.00
You were actually pretty good at maths, Bruce and thanks for the shout out. We hit 1,000 days on Saturday. And very happy about it too. Heading down to Queenstown on Easter Tuesday for our oldest son's wedding on Saturday 11 April. Will put up a blog on Saturday. It will be my last and I'll be naming names this time on all those lovely people who helped PSPSP and I out when we were touch and go. I quit my job today so I'm super glad I don't have any expensive habits I can't afford anymore.
not an option
I have thought a lot about why some people succeed longterm at this quiting business,mainly because I want to be one of them.non smokers have similar things to cope with as me but they seem to just find a way to cope and get on with it,unlike me an addict who doesnt like feeling uncomfortable and usually want to pick up or use something to make me feel better even when i know it wont really help and will actually make things worse ,crazy eh. I think picking up a unowot or anything else has to become not an option,that way no matter what happens I have to feel the feelings ,not stuff them down and find better ways to cope with life.ive had plenty of reasons to pick up over the last 7 months.had the cravings and crazy thoughts ,go on just have one.you really want to, but now i take the thoughts a bit further yes id like one but i cant stop at one and i dont want to die young or have to go through all this again and the thoughts cravings pass.for me the one thing in life that matters most is NOPE everything else is secondary so everything i do has to revolve around my quit plan ,that may change down the track but i cant afford the luxury of picking up again this quit has taken too long to achieve i wont let anything get in the way of staying stopped.
Just popping in to say Hi! Hope you are all surviving I really feel for the newbies, but stick to it! It is totally worth it, I just re read through all my old posts to remind myself of how hard it was for myself to power through the first 6 weeks. I am so happy I am above the 80 day mark now. 3 months! Really happy!!
When I first came on here I was like pftt sounds stupid! NOPE (not one puff ever) and ODAAT(one day at a time). but now I love those two abbreviations, they really do make sense and work really well. I have the odd pangs some times, guessing that will just be a part of my life now, but I am not going back as do not want to relive those first weeks and I do sigh when we are in a hurry or somewhere we cant smoke and friends/partner NEEd to get that ciggy hit, poor buggers. haha
Have a good day all