Day 3 - I heard it was a hard one
All I can think about is how much I would like to have a smoke right now.
I can't seem to concentrate on work.
The day is going slow.
I have been through a whole pack of chewing gum in just 4 hours.
Thinking I might go for a walk around the block to try to clear my head.
I have been under stress. Got all sorts of problems. I've been using my e-cig a lot and its making me feel tired but it feels kind of good.
I can't help thinking I'm being conned. I think I would deal with stress better if I wasn't poisoning myself with nicotine. I don't think my problems would be taking such a toll on me if not for the vape. I think the only reason it tastes delicious is because it is satisfying my nicotine dependency. While I am in this weakened state I feel like I could not get by without my e-cig. Just like smoking I know once I break free I will be much better off and much healthier. Its just a matter of summoning my courage and breaking the ties. I feel a desperate need to keep vaping but I know I desperately nerd to stop.
I have been staying up late counselling my Thai friend. She has an angry son living with her that is making her life miserable. Ironically I have been helping her with the teachings of Buddha. After three nights of it it is finally starting to take effect.
I have another Thai friend who is in financial trouble due to monsoon weather and the death of their king. She is struggling to get food and she is very thin so she should not go without food. I wanted to order food from supermarket and have it delivered to her home but there is a languages barrier and she would not tell me her address. Now she says she has no kitchen. I figured I can pay for a room with credit card so I should be able to pay for meals the same way but when it comes to beurocracy I'm s bungler and I'm having trouble sorting it out. I love my friend and I hate to think of her starving but with the language barrier I'm having trouble finding a way to help her.
I also have concerns about the welfare, wellbeing and general wellness of my youngest son.
Life can be full of problems and I'm sure I could sort them out note easily if I wasn't vaping. On the bright side at least I'm not smoking. If I can kick the smoking habit im sure I can kick my vaping habit too.
Smokefree days: 78 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 1950
Total savings: $1,950.00
Back again and on my second day. I ran out of cigarettes on Monday and decided not to buy any more. Yesterday went ok I found the morning the hardest as usually after I drop son at school and put baby down for her sleep I get to have a break and have a coffee and a cigarette. I will have to find something for me time that isn't going to kill me.
I'm a little bit mental on my best days which I'm trying to make the most of. I'm highly strung and particular about things and I'm all over the place most of the time. I've found stopping smoking in the past balances me out quite a bit. I don't know how.
The long and short of it is I don't care about anything but son and baby being happy and having everything they need. Smoking doesn't have a place in what I want for our lives.
I'm 29 which means I've been smoking for 12 years and that's too long. I've given up for pregnancies and for health scares when my mum got sick from smoking. She needed two lung surgeries and now has a heart condition. She's still smoking. I've stopped for financial reasons when I had to choose between feeding children and smoking. I chose to feed the children. This will be my 13th attempt. I'm trying not too look at it like I've failed 12 times. I'm trying to look at it like I've tried 12 times. I take from it that I hate smoking enough to keep trying to stop.
I will be a little mental for the rest of my life I think I know that now but that's with or without smoking. I thought smoking helped me cope. It doesn't. So I choose to stop. I'm happy to have company. Stay with me ☺
Stats Update: 1630 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 1630 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 24450
Total savings: $16,632.80
Success For me and my Husband.
Me 400 Day's smoke free. My Husband is now 383 day's smoke free. So proud of our Successes.
Day 1 almost complete
I've been cutting down to 1 - 2 cigarettes a day for the last week but today I decided I wasn't going to have my usual morning cigarette and have been going strong all day. Feeling quite anxious because smoking was my crutch to 'help' me deal with my anxiety disorder but I know this feeling will pass and quitting will be worth it in the long run! 2 weeks ago I was have 15 cigs a day so I've come far, well I think so anyway!
day one feeling positive about quiting,off to the gym for some exercise!!
1 day down
So, I did the 2 weeks of Zyban pills and had my last smoke Sunday night.
I found yesterday easy. I know everyday is going to get harder and harder though. My husband would go out for smokes and I didn't really find myself needing them.
He has said he is going to try at least cut down on smoking especially around me so that's a positive.
Today I am chewing Gum. Its going to be difficult getting out of the work routine but I recon I can do it.
I have a friends Halloween party this weekend and I am super nervous about that. I'm thinking of being the sober driver so I am not too tempted.
Just got to take 1 day at a time :)
Hey Quit Fam 😊
Just popping in for a quick visit.
Things are going good, we are adjusting slowely to our new surroundings taking things ODAAT (learnt right here from quitting smoking) 🖒
After 30 nonstop hours of travel to Schwarzenbek Schleswig Holstein im so glad to be a non smoker! Partners family are very strict, traditional and um not very emotional.. I keep doing things wrong but trying hard to learn and be respectful. Partners Grandad is very sick, sometimes the traditions here are very cold.. I didnt know im not allowed to physically touch him and I cuddled him lol.. I dont care what they say, cant beat human touch and affection I reackon! Its midnight and im up and down we take turns in the house caring for Grandad.. I try to help as much as they will let me I dont mind helping to change him and stuff, im used to doing all that. Despite things being different and hard here I smile and carry on and all smoke free yayy. Being here has opened my eyes, I can see why my partner is how he is, mud became clear if you know what I mean? I have untold respect for him and love him even more, hes a good man and its me whos lucky.
Had a quick look over the blogs.. wow.. nice to see Murphy, Lizzy and Lwray join the hundy club woohoo. Debrussellnz, Donosti and Heatherb reach 2 hundy.. yas at 250 awesome! Gaga happy for you at 400 days my friend Kevs on 500!! Hope your health is on the mend and your getting up Mauao again :) I see cjtwo had a second breathday yayy and Ladylene on 2 and a half years omg!! Im really sorry to read about Dexter xx congratulations pspsp and PG on your new Grandies ohh and pops lol.. your new car! Glad to see you are recovering nana22 and that the op went well xx Hi nanaturtle.. sending you lots of love xx so much for a qucik pop in visit.. drama queen lol. ODAAT NOPE NO
Stats Update: 243 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 243 days
Grams NOT smoked: 1736
Total savings: $2,450.00
Thats alot of money saved! I still havent had a smoke and NEVER will again.