6 months quit and I failed again - there are no words (well there are I just can't say them on here)
Had lots of tears though, very emotional about coming this far and failing again. I really thought I had it this time.
Been back to the Dr, and not able to get more champix but have zyban so will start again, again.
Disappointed and Ashamed are probably the two words that would explain me right now.
Don't make the same mistake I did, keep strong and don't relent. You are awesome people, be proud of what you are achieving
Hi there quit family.
Well though the morning is a bit chilly the sun is out and it's another beautiful day. This week has been a great week so far. Every day has been inspirational in some way.
I read this morning about turning hope into belief. So rather than hope that we can quit, we need to believe that we can do it - and that we ARE quit. Belief in ones self doesn't come easily to most of us, but the mind is a powerful thing and to believe is to have certainty. By believing in yourself you can achieve ANYTHING you set your mind to.
It also said that the first year is a time of firsts, and of cleansing.
It made sense to me because all these firsts (first time at beach not smoking, first time dealing with a situation not smoking, the list is a long one!!!) are allowing us how to deal with these situations as a non smoker after so many years.
We are also cleansing emotionally and physically flushing the toxins out of our system. I think we all gain some pride and realisation we are stronger then we thought we were in this time also.
After having some harder days then reading this I have relaxed a bit about my expectation of what is to come. I know now that there will be days when that horrible thought pops into my head, but that it is ok and normal and I will just work through it without one puff and keep going then it will only get better and easier. There is always that light at the end of the tunnel with having some more understanding about the journey.
Anyway - YAY for the light at the end of the tunnel huh!! That way I'll be able to drive the wagon through and continue up the mountain without crashing!
Have a brilliant and positive day everyone - Stay strong and always believe in you
Some days are diamonds are some are just NOT
I'm not sure what's up with today but it's been a bit tedious really. Teenage daughters, work, sore neck, bit of stress! I've even had a quick thought of pulling my eleconic Eciggarette out - But NO! It's still the action of having a smoke so I need to take a couple of deep breaths and I am take my own advice (which if you've ever done that often works surprisingly well!!). The stupid thing is I dont' want a smoke - I know that (and there are some here) but I would never actually sit down and have one so why is my mind playing tricks on me!? I guess the habit of a lifetime still tries to fool us into returning, randomly and without warning, perhaps just to test our resolve!. I guess that's why it takes work to remain vigilant. I have a rule, NOT EVEN ONE PUFF and I stick to it.
But hey at the end of the day I've got to play the glad game - it's Friday (try and say that and not think of the Rebecca Black Friday song! Yep, there you go!) and I get half a day off work because the power will be out here (thanks for that small but much appreciate gift!!)
There is a lot for me to be thanful for really, and to be glad about and by running through my personal list I have distracted myself from the stupid thought that popped into my head.
Thanks for listening to my venting and for always being here quit family. I really don't know what I would have done without you all in all the times I've quit. Love you all and so proud of you all no matter where you are on your journey today!
(PS - you're still singing that song in your head hey! You can have that allll day hahaha)
5 Months Quit!!! Doing the Dance!!
Wow, am excited that I have been able to reach this point! I've been counting the days in anticipation!! I've never gotten this far before and am SO happy!
Was blown away by seeing that I have NOT smoked 3,060 cigarettes and have a total saving of $2,475.00
It's not been easy some days with teenage daughters! Its actually been really hard on the worst days, because all you want to do is take refuge and have a smoke to deal with their 'crap' - so the habit thinking kicks in. BUT finding new ways coping without cigarettes is the only way to deal with stressful situations. Lets face it, smoking never made ANY difference to the situation, nor did it make you cope with it any better! The only thing it did do was give you an excuse to go and have a breather outside to just think and deal with things for a minute and calm down. I try to do that, it doesn't always work (kids follow you, and losing my temper sometimes wins over as a first reaction!! BUT that also gets better with time I've found)
I guess although I know I still have to be vigilent, but the fact that I don't want to smoke keeps me strong and stay smoke free. I also believe that I can do this because I am doing it. There are also WAY MORE good days than bad!!! I choose my life and health and everything else will work itself out around that.
Be proud of yourself for quitting, and remaining quit. It's hard work, but worth it. Each of our journeys is different but we are heading for the same goal - see you at the top of the mountain!!
Big hugs everyone
Remember in your quit journey .......
You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think, and loved more than you know...
The Ten Steps To Success
Try thinking about what has worked in the past
Try and ask someone who has done it
Try and figure out what is not working
Try it a different way
Try it one more
DON'T STOP TRYING!
This helped me, hope it helps some of you guys to
WOW and welcome to all you new quitters! I was scrolling through and there are so many of you - AWESOME and good on you!
Almost 5 months for me, and I'm very excited. Had one frustrating day a couple of weeks ago but just focused on something else (or go for a walk) because there is no other option and I choose health!
Be strong, stronger and more determined that you have ever been and believe in yourself. You can do this, you got this!! Look forward and don't miss what you choose to no longer have. I think that helped me a lot, if I don't want a smoke then why would I give the 'urge' another thought. Keep it simple, dont' replace smoking with chocolate and crap food and exercise and (even if its' just walking) you will feel really good and postive. If I had a bad moment, I listen to my favourite song, or walk (or both) or play a funny song or something on youtube - anything to get the endorphins kicking in so that you forget what your mind is tricking you to do.
Keep strong, take one day at a time and dont look up at the mountain.
Doing the dance - am so happy!
Just a quick one today but wanted to share.
I'm a quitter - and I'm proud
Hi Quit Family
Just thought I'd come and check my stats -
800 grams not smoked
$800 dollars saved
Wow, that's a lot of money and grams, and that was before it went up too!
Have taken up (well more obsessed with) walking!! It doesn't matter if it's the streets or the tracks! Have done the Abel Tasman a few times (27 - 30ks in a day) I walk at lunch time for about an hour and then also at night three or so times a week then the big walks in the weekend. Or if I'm a bit grumpy I grab the pup and just go.
Walking has really helped me (and my puppy loves me for walking more) as it clears my head and it's good for the soul and it's free. It also keeps the weight down too which is a bonus!
Hope everyone is doing well in their quit journey. I know it's hard some days but it is worth it - every time I even smell a smoke it makes me want to be sick. Everyone says I look 10 years younger, and I feel 10 years fitter!! Breathing easier, no yellow fingers, no stinking hair or clothes. Best of all, less risk of a health major happening! It amazes me how I chose to ignore the risks for so long, and how revolting I smelled! I'm embarrassed that I smelled like that for so long!!
Keep strong - you deserve to be smoke free. Don't let the mind trick you into believing that smoking is ok! Don't give in to something that will make you sick or kill you.
Take care and ONE DAY AT A TIME - You can do it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy New Year to you all, hope everyone had a safe and happy (and smoke free) season.
Just wanted to share my 100 day milestone with you all. I am smiling from ear to ear right now - haha and doing the Patsy Dance !!!!
Those that know me here from a few years ago will remember that the 100 day marked my failure a couple of times, and I admit I was a little daunted this time. My champix came to the end 6 odd days ago but you know what, I knew deep down that I had this because god help me there was no other choice I would allow myself. I wanted to quit, plain and simple. And if I WANTED to quit, then I couldn't want to smoke as well. It came down to that in my mind.
Had some hard times over christmas, my teenage daughter giving me issues and my beautiful cat (my best friend) got killed - but am proud of myself that I still didn't smoke. Smoking would not have changed a thing it would have just made me feel worse because I would be letting myself down.
So even though there have been the ups and the downs of this quit so far, I can honestly say it has been the best and the most rewarding because this time is the last time, and this time I was not taking short cuts. I learned from everything I did wrong the last times and I totally believed in myself. Don't get me wrong, it's not all beer and skittles but you can achieve anything if you just will not accept failure and believe in yourself.
Power to you all out there, and believe in yourselves. You are worth more than smoking. You CAN do this - if I can do this, then you can!
YOU ARE ALL WINNERS
Take care and Big hugs