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Well Im back, fell off the wagon last year due to the Earthquake, but I am ready to get back on! I went to the doctor this morning and am getting some Champix hopefully in a week, as I would love to try and start on the 1st March. I gave up for 7 years, started again September 2009 and then gave up again in January 2010 and then started again on the morning of the quake. I know I can do it, I have to do it! Im all eager now, wish I had the champix today! :)Just thought I would come in and say hi! You might be seeing a lot more of me very soon!! :)

Quitline, I need some more patches, how do I go about this?

As you know I started smoking again at 4.35am on Saturday 4th September (earthquake) after being 3 months without a ciggy and feeling soooo good....Im now smoking full time again and I hate it, the confidence you lose in yourself is SHITE!

So I have to now start a new date, try the patches when they come through and hopefully all will be well again. Im so disappointed in myself about it, but hey, I cant beat myself up, just have to stand up and take control.

Hopefully I can get some vouchers for some more patches and fingers crossed!
I would like to confirm my date hopefully as soon as I get confirmation on some patches or something :) Help would be great, I dont want to be controlled by Ciggies.

HELP!!! LOL

Ill keep in touch :)

Okay, so my worst fear throughout this Giving up smoking has happened, I knew it would! arrghh! My BF has started again! He went to the shop this morning and bought a packet before work....I feel like Im back at Day 1 again, a little anxious, a little panicky. More because he had one outside while I was getting ready for work and then I could completely smell it on him when we said our goodbyes and went on our way to work....I cant let the smoking demon win again, no way....this is going to be a huge test for me, but I am sure I can do it...How do others deal with it when their partner is smoking?

How are we all!! Managed to squeeze on here in my Tea break at work :) hehe been pretty busy, end of month and all!

So 75 Days, would be completely smokefree if it wasnt for Friday night...but thats okay, we are not dwelling on the past :) haha all good :)

I hope everyone is having a good week so far! YAS, so good to see you are still on the wagon. I love seeing people when they are on DAY1 and really uneasy but keep it up and by day 5-7 they are on the downhill slope to freedom! :)

Anyways, good to see plenty of blogs for me to read!! :)

Deb

I had a ciggie....I wanted to come on here and be completely honest with you guys and feel like I have let down myself as well. I went out on Friday night, had a few drinks with friends (thought I was strong enough to finally go out with my smoker mates)...but I wasnt unfortunately and had probably 3 all night I actually dont think it helped that my BF went and bought a packet which I was gutted about, I didnt want him to start again...He went through that Pack on Friday night, hasnt bought anymore though......

they tasted like crap and waking up the following morning with a throbbing head and I threw myself into the shower, i stank of stale smoke....I didnt feel like one on Sat or Sunday thankfully, but it was a close call and I think with the cravings I had all week and coming on here and saying how desperate I was to have one...I felt like it was inevitable..but Im okay today, i fell off the wagon for a few hours, but im back on it shaking on down the road... I took BF's Card off him and told him he cant go and buy anymore, he was craving a bit last night, but he will thank me later on. Im okay though, definitly was a wake up call for me :)

As in old timers given up, not Oldies as in "Elderly" haha anyways....so im at the 11 week mark......this is SHITE!!! I am not coping really, every day for the past week I have been hanging for a ciggie through the day....A voice inside my head telling me that just having one will not hurt anyone.....Been having minor disagreements with my BF constantly....this is just crap...We had a big blow up this morning and now I just feel like buying a packet and inhaling the whole bloody lot.....is this normal? I am so adjitated, feel like im getting angry at the smallest things...so silly.

Hi Guys

Close call yesterday. I got home from work after a terrible craving day, I was craving all day yesterday for a smoke, terrible! anyways, got home, my bf said to me he was the same, he was working with 3 others, all smokers and he told them he was hanging for a ciggy...so all day they bated him, saying "go on, have a ciggy"...he couldnt believe it, luckily he didnt..why are people so selfish. Anyways, so we decided to go grocery shopping last night at Pak n Save, I went to put my jeans on...nup...no way were they going up...I just about cried! I knew I had put on weight, but this was just "cruel" LOL I stomped into the lounge and told my bf we were taking up smoking again because I have put on a dress size....he was keen as as he couldnt fit into a pair of his jeans either!! thankfully we both just calmed down...but shit...this weight gain is crap! But the thing is, I dont have the motivation to go for a walk, Im so tired at the end of the day working and trying to get up in the mornings is a struggle....anyone else feeling like "SLOTH" of the year? or is it just me???

Well I have been 70 Days today, im stoked :)

You know I look at these blogs every day and look how well everyone is doing and see others really panicking and not coping and do you know something...I was watching a really interesting TV Doco last night on our local channel about AA...they showed the meetings and people would talk about their addictions and how they coped and everything. I know that smoking is nowhere near as harmful to others etc as drinking is, but I thought, mate, if there was Smokers Anonymous groups in every town like AA and supported by the government, sooo many more people would give up wouldnt they. Having the support, going out to coffee with, making new smoke free friends out of the online blogging, things like that....

Im so pleased :) This was my 2nd time around, I had given up for 6 1/2 years when I went out, got terribly intoxicated with smoking friends and had 5 one night...next day I was smoking again....and smoking more than I was when I gave up my original 12yr habit. So I would say I was smoking about 25 cigs per day easy, more on the weekends....so I found this time a lot harder, so this is a plead to everyone, do not fall off the wagon, because the 2nd time is a b i t c h. Everyone is doing sooooo well, i love reading the blogs and at my 50 day mark I nearly left here for good, feeling great, thinking positive...that following weekend my bf and I nearly caved and bought a pack....so im back on here, not quite ready to leave all you guys just yet :) Thank goodness its Friday!!

Hows it all goin!! Im two months today whooop whooop...and the weekend was a BIARTCH...I had a few drinks and mate..I actually went to hop in the car to buy some cigs at the dairy...couldnt believe it...I was hanging so badly, got shitty with my partner as well, crikey :( we are both wanting a ciggy, 2 months later for goodness sake. but we got through it, lets hope there isnt another meltdown like that one.

angelz012000 how are you going? Day 4 for you today? Keep it up!

Poppins, emotional is definitly normal! I cried and threw tantrums, broke up with my BF 500 times in the first 3 days, LOL honestly...you have to give yourself the freedom to feel these feelings, dont bottle them up, they only last a short while :)

Kia kaha guys!!

Last night was a test...maybe im not ready to go alone on this. I was talking to my BF last night when I got home as we do, and I said to him that its been nearly 2 months quitting :) and I told him how yesterday I nearly had one as my workmate is leaving and we are really close and I was feeling a bit down and emotional....and I asked him whether he had been tempted and whether he had had one and he said he did! 2 weeks ago he had one because his workmate had left them in the car (they carpool).....and then he was saying how he might go and buy some, he really felt like one...I had to distract him (wasnt hard) so that he wouldnt get in the car and go to the shop!! Couldnt believe it....mate...so yeap, I think I still need support here!!!

Hey Guys

I know it was mentioned way back, but this is for the newbies as a few of us were on some drops called Rescue Remedy at the start. Completely herbal, get it from your health Shop. I used it in the first week when I was very panic stricken and I also used it on my wedding day :) hehe it is very very good stuff, so just wanted to bounce it back to the top of the blog pages for the newbies who may be struggling a wee bit :)

Good on you for giving it another shot though!! I hear ya, I gave up for 7 years mate, and started last September, now on my 2nd round and doing really well. However, you mention that your new partner doesnt know you smoke. Trust me, I reckon he would know, I can smell one of my work colleagues who smokes occassionally a mile off. She even sprays herself with Impulse spray, has some gum in her mouth but I can still smell it! I was sick with the flu last week, my partner is now a non-smoker as well and he was like, eww you have sicky flu breath...its amazing what you can smell and sense as a non smoker (as you said about the wood). Anyways, dont beat yourself up about it, and to be honest I would tell him. It helps having support when you are bitchy and crying and emotional. My mood swings have SUCKED in the past 2 months, being a Martyr and just generally being a bitch at times....so you need support or he is not going to know what he has done wrong when your head turns around 360degrees....... LOL

Hey Guys

Well I just thought I would pop me head in for a mo, NEO, you cracked me up...I was sitting here reading your post and you said you flushed FIFTY cigs...I cringed...I felt like jumping up from my desk here at work and yelling at ya, what a waste!! LOL....even though I am sure I dont want them for myself, it seemed like a waste...weird feeling!!

suzy que: you need to look back at all the blogs people type up here, there are so many great hints and tricks for you to try as a new smoker :) Are you doing it cold turkey? Thats always a tricky one! But most agree to just taking it like an hour at a time....just get through one hour....if the craving is bad, get up, make a cup of tea, or go for a walk around the room, the craving doesnt last long, and you need to not think about it or you will end up giving yourself a panic attack like most of us have at one point :) hehe You will feel all emotions, I cried, yelled, screamed, broke up with my BF 500 times in the first 3 days....it is hard, but I firmly believe that the first week is the hardest you will face as per the nicotine withdrawls...but after the first week you have to get through the "habits" like driving and talking on the phone, drinking etc. I have been 53 Days now, I dont feel like one, or anything, but I also have not been out drinking with my mates yet....Im just trying to give myself time :) hehe

You guys are all doing so well, Shane, glad to hear you are still doing good! Marie, I also had a reaction to the Patches, I have quite sensitive skin anyways, but came out in a rash anywhere I put them (I get rashes with plasters as well)....so you arent alone there! :) I was only on them for 4 days, they didnt work for me unfortunately.

Anyways, just wanted to wish all the newbies good luck! And you can soooo do it :) Just take an hour at a time :)

Well done on all the newbies!! Keep going! :)

Well I made it...I feel I have completed my mission!! LOL. I am on Day 50 now....and I had to sit and roll a ciggie for my workmate because she had cut her hand beforehand....so I offered.....and I did it and didnt even want it....it smelt yuk...

So I will be backing off a bit from here now, but will pop in every now and then. I wish everyone the bestest of luck!!! keep going, because it is really worth it big time, I smell better, my hair is less dry and frizzy, my skin is smoother, my teeth are whiter and brighter :) Now i have to get stuck into the diet to lose the dress size I pretty much gained giving up smoking...hahahaha

Take Care guys!!!


Debs

You need to give up for you. Dont give up because of pressure of Price rises or pressure from others...when I gave up the first time around, my fiance at the time paid for hypnotherapy, got all the patches for me....everything...even bullied me...told me that he wouldnt kiss me unless I had a shower and brushed my teeth...he would tell me I stank and stuff...(hence to say he is now my ex-husband) hehe but it would make me smoke more just to piss him off. I gave up in the end because I had major bronchitis, and I was sick in bed for a week, perfect chance to give up and I was ready to :) I wanted to do it for myself..not for him.

so you will make your own mind up when you are ready, prices arent going to stop people smoking unfortunately, and im sure the government knows this...its just going to make poor poorer and the government richer through taxes. :(

So just take your time :) Being on here is the first step ya know :)

Day 49...wow! Nearly day 50!

Good to see everyone is still doing well, havent heard from the few people though, hopefully they will be back someday :)

Had to laugh Shane, I felt the same way yesterday on my way home, dont know what it was but every car that overtook me or parked next to me at the lights was a smoker and I really noticed them smoking, kind of peeved me off! hehe

And I gave up for would have been 7 years this year....7 years!! and started again last September..so this is my 2nd time around and fingers crossed forever this time!

I have a great story for you guys, I typed it out yesterday but must have pressed Cancel instead of save :) anyways:

My mum loves Antiques and has been searching high and low for a lovely corner table for her lounge. She went into a local Antique store again, and saw the perfect table. It was high up on a shelf, but they got it down for her, it was perfect, it looked very old, had a little drawer etc, she haggled and got it for $35, she was stoked. She got it home and got the neopol out, scrubbed for ages, all the while thinking about the history of the table and who must have owned it and thrown it away. She polished the legs and top, turned it upside down and underneath she found.....


A warehouse sticker!!! for $59.95 would you believe it!!! hahaha she said she had never laughed so much, and I thought it was hilarious when she told me :) Thought you guys might get a kick out of it as well :)

you are not alone :( I have been feeling the same lately, over-eating, depressed because I am over-eating but dont have the motivation to get up....I dont know what it is...I was all full of Motivation in the first few weeks, now nearly 7 wks later I have put on weight, feel like a bag of SHITE.....Maybe I need to find a walking buddy here in ChCh, someone who can motivate me...:(

Im glad I wasnt the only one to have a bad weekend!! Arrgh, nearly at the 7week mark and I lost the plot at my BF probably about 3 times over the weekend, the worse thing was that when I was being so over-dramatic the crappy "ciggy Demon" jumped into my head and I nearly bolted to the dairy...couldnt believe it! I have been going so well, and just the stress of the arguing I wanted us to start smoking again (we have both gone nearly 7 wks now) to go back to our chilled out "relaxed" times before....

So im glad im not alone in that aspect and others had the demon knocking on their door as well!! But I got through it.

It was a wake up call when my bf spoke to his Grandma on Saturday afternoon, (I have mentioned it earlier) but his Grandad is going through Chemo, was diagnosed with Cancer of the Osophygus (sp?), they were going to operate, but apparently its too dangerous at his age (he is 80) so they are just making him comfortable with the chemo...so it does hit home when its family for sure. Fingers crossed he makes it to Christmas.

Start of Week 7 for me :) Yay, so pleased with myself. Day 47....feels like many years ago that i was smoking... Still get tempted, still get grumpy, but hey, skin feels smoother, hair and teeth brighter and healthier, smell nicer, its got to be worth it!! :)

Good luck to the newbies starting this weekend and on Monday! Good luck!! Just remember to take 1 hour at a time, and let yourself feel emotional, you will be angry and upset and cry and throw tantrums...its all part of the process, you have to let yourself feel these emotions :)
Type blogs, keep yourself busy :) Im still trying to wean myself off the playstation that I am addicted to now (started slamming games when wanting a smoke) LOL

Read past blogs on here, we have all been on Day 1 ourselves...mine was S H I T.....I started on a Thursday night (had friday off work), and so Friday, Sat and Sunday I was a horrible nightmare...my BF and I nearly broke up 500 times, I told him to find a non smoking GF on many occassions because I wanted to keep smoking LOL honestly...its crazy the shite you talk. I booted him out of our house about 4 times....lol (we are all good now) anyways, just give ya self time. We all know the "misery" you will be going through in the first couple of days...so just come on here for support :)

Take Care Guys!! Have a great day!!