576 days smoke free
Hi everyone not sure if any of my group of quitters still log on but i hope soo i have been very slack with support and updates since christmas i hope your all still non smokers :) I dont have much to tell you in regards to not smoking i simply just think about it anymore unless i smell it then i feel quite sick and wonder how i used to be able to inhale it all day, its quite potent lol we recently rented our flat out to a smoker as i didnt really care but gosh his place smells bad lol if only he really knew what a real stink it is dont think you really get grasp of that till your away from it.
Anyway my mum tells me she is well (i think she is for the time being) but she has lost alot of weight and refuses to talk about her health, she is on and off smoking but thats ok i guess, she just cant seem to kick it, She has some really strange views, even a little bit crazy at times, all these conspiricy theorys she comes up with as to why she got lung cancer none of which involve smoking for 50 years, lol i do think she is going a little bit nuts but on the plus side she visits often and has shown great interest in me and my sister and our families and is really getting involved with the kids and really trying to do her bit for them, its the most we have had from her in a very long time, she seems happy enough and as far as mum goes i refuse to think in advance. when it comes to her cancer one day at a time and each and every day of good health and life is a blessing. soo thats it really still not smoking, Mum is still ticking along both with smoking and living lol roll on 2nd breathday. Hi Clarenece x x
450 days smoke free
Well i have to say not to many names i recognise on this site while reading blogs today, but still a couple of you around which is great to see so hi to you all :)
Christmas is just around the corner and to be honest at the start of this quit i didnt think mum would be around to see the year out but shes made it and we will have a proper family Christmas dinner this year, i know it will be niggly and everyone will drive everyone nuts the kids will fight and sulk just like we did when we were little lol but these are the things i want my kids to always remember, "Christmas with Nana" lol its a day they may want to forget now but one that will last a life time lol lol its what Christmas in our house growing up was always like.
Mum still smokes!!! But the rest of the family is over 450 days smoke free, kinda stink that she cant seem to kick it but we are grateful for each day the cancer stays away.
I dont have to many bad days but the addiction is always gonna be there i know ill never smoke again i dont think i have doubted that decision from the start but it still reminds me and still tries to trick me now and again, but its over i could not would not ever smoke another ciggy, Anyway i hope the rest of you can stick with it, sometimes it takes so much out of you thinking about itall the time, and over riding those urges, just keep going and remember why you wanted to quit these reasons seem to take the backbench when your craving soo badly dont get sad about it! get happy!! your on your way to better things, much better things.
Merry Christmas everyone
Oh bugger i missed my breath day oh well
Happy breathday to me
Happy breathday to me
Happy breathday NO MORE SMOKES
Happy breathday to meeee!!
368 smokefree days, the air is great up here Clarence just like you said it would be. :)
This is one year i never ever want to repeat. I made a decision to never smoke again it has been hard and somewhat of a long road but never doubt your decision to stop and you will get there, there is nothing better or more rewarding than seeing it through, have a happy smokefree weekend everyone,
NMS x x
im 354 days smokefree dont think ill ever smoke again and soo glad its over, theeeeen my mum turns up to stay, and i know for sure now my decision to stop will only get stronger and my hate for smoking could grow into a monster lol, there it is, i so totally snapped her smoking yesterday i was soo pissed!! i just said to her i dont care if you smoke anymore but dont sneek round like a kid, do what you want! this woman is infuriating, what can i say im so happy i dont smoke anymore but im still so annoyed that after everything she has been through she continues to smoke and lie about it, she has been such a recluse since her remission now i know why, she must have decided that she is invincible ??? giving up smoking and dealing with her cancer has been really hard on me and my sister and i know mum was the one sick but we did it for her and our families how selfish of us lol, i dont understand why she refuses to do the same for herself and for us. anyway she is here till monday. i guess i have to just let it go and accept that smoking will kill her.
sorry for tha rant feel better now :)
havnt checked in for a while, guess thats a good thing in the scheme of things smoking is no longer a part of my daily thoughts, it pops up from time to time at the most random times, i was mowing my lawn the other day and id given the baby the hose to spray around while i was pushing the mower around i was thinking she gonna get my ciggies wet!!! like she had so so many times in the past lol i am not far from my first breathday and the time seems to have gone soo fast.
hang in there everyone stick to your guns and your decision to quit and never ever look back you wont regret it :)
to all my old supporters and friends i hope your all still doing great with your quits, mum is doing great still and no sign of the tumour to date, i guess i owe her my health and my life for showing me the damage smoking can do and motivating my quit despite her lack of support for me personally, the fear and the trauma were enough to get me through, whatever your reasons for quitting are dont ever doubt your decision just keep going.
put the bad days behind you and look forward to the so many good ones that are to follow.
still here 272 smokefree days
Hey everyone, 272 days smokefree still get the odd reminder at the strangest times but nothing much, the thought comes and goes and i think wow where did that come from ha silly brains.
Anyways all else is going good study is over and just a few assessments left to finish. Mum is working again still no signs of cancer returning, ironic thing is now she is caring for cancer patients in there last weeks at home very sad but she has learned so much from these wonderfull people and she cant believe how much they smile and enjoy the time they have left.
Hope the rest of you are all going ok? Heiro, Yas, Rainbow, Clarence, Ady, Auf, Hi!!
NMS x x
hi there, just quick check in been studying im kinda hating it at the moment and finding it quite stressful, the odd smoking thought pops in there but would never go back to it now though.
Clarence and all you other fab supporters that might be interested in update on mum she is doing super fine its sooo bizare how things are turning out i have no idea of time frames for cancer but i still cant actually believe that the tumour has gone???? and for how long? but i will take it lol
anyways people keep on chugging along it does become normal to be smokefree. sorry not very inspiring this morning lol
congratulations to all you people starting your journeys always keep your goals in mind and never stop fighting till you get there.
NMS x x
Bit annoyed with myself for not waiting till tomorrow to write my 200 day blog!!
i have just been on the phone with my mum, (so my 199 day blog is only somewhat relevent) . my 200 day blog would have went like this.
Life is completely awesome!!!! Mum is in full remission and not a trace of lung cancer showing on her xray today YUS!!! and my life is going great, losing weight, keeping fit, smelling better, new career direction and study.
I can honestly say i feel like i have been given a second chance to enjoy her and try to understand her better, leave the past behind and live for today.
Thank you all for your kind words on the last blog they still apply, i will be cherishing my weekend with new eyes and hope.
Being smokefree just makes it all the more satisfying i feel like i have accomplished something huge, in the same time mum has stopped smoking and beaten cancer in just over 230 days. LEGEND!
NMS x x
Well tomorrow is 200 days and i have to say im pretty happy with the way my quit is panning out:) A very rough and stressfull start and although i will never be free from the impact smoking is going to have on my life, i am moving forward with my life in leaps and bounds, my health is good and hopefully will stay that way, My confidence is growing, i eat well, still cant give up my coffee tho.
i start health and fitness training on monday exciting!!! I have managed to shift 4.5 kilos and fit my clothes again, I dont sit in the rain and breathe stink all over my family anymore and My clothes smell goood. I smell good:)
So many benefits!! its sad that after a while its easy to lose sight of them, we must never forget our reasons for quitting!!
Mums in some sort of remission and is living life like the cancer is not there and in a way brushing things under the matt makes it easier for her. Why dwell on death when there is living to be done right she is only 60 afterall !!!( and is still a pain) :) bless her
I am going up north next weekend to stay a few days its been quite a while since ive seen her. Its so easy to think that everything is fine and that she will be around a long time, but truth is i still dont really know how long we have got, a huge part of me refuses to ask any questions its just easier not knowing. BUT There is no pretending when it comes to smokes IT DOES KILL YOU. and i hate it.
So thank you quit buddies for giving me advice and replying to my rants, you all helped me so much in those early days, reading blogs is still my morning ritual and even though i dont seem to require much support these days the blogs help me remember how hard it is and how far i have come. I feel for you all on the early part of your journey! just keep hanging on and keep going get mad at the smokes and dont get sad.
9125 days a smoker 184 days smoke free
One day the smokefree stats will be better than the smoking ones im on my way lol
Auf well done on 200 days your awesome!!!