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30May2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
Back on the Wagon
It has been a wee while since I have been on this site. I did really well in February and fell off big time in April.
I have been given a once in a lifetime opportunity on an action adventure course, that's 3 weeks long, and is smoke free. So here I am again, back at the beginning.
Patch on, lozenges at the ready. Here we go!
6Apr2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
Back at Day 1
So I am back at day 1. Patched up, got the lozenges. Will wait and see where the journey takes me this time.
Kind of feels good to start again. Clean slate.
24Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
Up and down
I'm exhausted, but rolling on. I fleetingly knocked the patches on the head, thanks to Paul McKenna and his quit methods, not to good effect.
So back to patches and lozenges, and One Day At A Time.
I continue to read all the blogs, and they all continue to inspire me. Sometimes I feel envious of peoples success, and feel like a failure, but stomp on that pretty quickly. The big thing that I am learning, and have to remind myself every day, is that quitting smoking is a process. I am trying to stop an addictive habit that I have had for 26 years. Physically and emotionally it is taking it out of me, but I am slowly learning to live without smoking. Finding other ways to celebrate, commiserate, pass time, it all takes practice.
Well done everyone. I read about the successes and the learning, and it continues to inspire me on my own smoke free trip. Thank you.
Be kind to yourself.
18Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
14Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
Back on track
Shit happens. Every day. To everybody.
It is my choice how I respond to it. My commitment to quitting smoking got a bit wobbly, and that was totally down to me. So, back on track, with a renewed commitment. I will make sure I have my patch on each morning, have my my lozenges in my handbag, and back with the positive smoke free thinking.
My mate also gave me the Paul McKenna Quit Smoking book and CD. I have nearly finished reading it, and had my first listen to the CD. It seems awesome, and another strategy to add to the bunch I've already got.
Off I go again!
10Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
Are lozenges stimulants?
I have been smoke free for 38 days, two slips, and am feeling OK, except I am shattered. I am not sleeping, and am still awake most nights until 3 - 4 am. I have alternative sleeping aids but am trying to stay away from them due to their addictive nature and side effects. I know I have probably just got into a bad sleeping habit, but I just had a thought/question about the nicotine lozenges. Nicotine is a stimulant, but just wondered if anyone knows whether the nicotine in the lozenges act the same way. I normally have a lozenge around 10.30pm. I can't drink much coffee or energy drinks or anything with caffeine in it, cause it keeps me awake and/or causes me to sleep walk, and I get anxious. Just a thought. Can anyone help?
4Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
Making conscious choices
Apart from all the hurt, grief, loss, sadness, anger and fear, I am freaking out about my smoking. My goal for quitting smoking has gone. We were going to try for baby this year, and that is no longer on the cards.
So I am having a huge 'what's the point' moment. I don't want to smoke, but I have this huge urge to sit down with wine and smokes and and say 'F**k the world', and drink and smoke myself sick and sleep for days.
I've had to make quitting smoking my priority, and have been determined to use every option available to me to help me to succeed. I'm sorry if this post has been a bit too much information. I'm just feeling vulnerable and want to put it out there, so it is real.
I will not drink and smoke. It is not going to help me feel better. It will make me feel worse. I am going to make choices that benefit me, and help me to feel good and well. I will not go that place of shame, guilt and blame. I am going to stay smoke and wine free.
2Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
I still feel strong and motivated, but I am getting a bit tired. I haven't had a decent sleep since I quit, I have been having really bad head aches, and feeling a bit anxious and jumpy. I'm still feeling good though, if that makes sense. Stoked about how much I am not spending, and am loving that I don't smell like an ashtray anymore. Both of my sisters have stopped as well, so it is cool talking to them on the phone (we are all spread out over the north island) about how we're doing, and hearing the little stories of how their families are suffering/celebrating with them in their quit journeys. This site really has been a god send, and I can't thank you all enough. Leenz, Clarence, Tootsie, Kathry, Gemrat, Everyone. Just reading the stories, hearing the encouragement, the normalising of how I'm feeling so that I don't feel so alone, hearing about the successes, and learning new bonuses about being smoke free, all these things have been priceless.
Thank you everyone. May we all live long and prosper, Smoke Free.
I also have remembered it is smoke free day in May, and I am really excited to be well into my new smoke free life to celebrate it. That really will be a success for me!
1Mar2011 By Susannedee | Permalink | Report Like0 Support me - Follow my blogs
I hope everyone is having an awesome day.