218 days smokefree, what's that?
something like just over 7 months
is pretty good, not exactly walk in the park - still smell it and think 'mmmm', but i recall reading somewhere that its all about a weighing exercise, the desire NOT to smoke versus smoking. So, will stick with not smoking. Though am being challenged a bit
Had first HUGE night out recently, and didnt even occur to me! Even though main buddy was train smoker. So that's good.
Some people, maybe me included, seem to find the lifestyle adjustment easier. Maybe that is me. Once past the earlier crap its not so bad. Be easier with a willing partner on board, without the yucky whiff to tempt me, but it is a long road and at the end of the day the only race is with myself
That's the 200th day milestone plus a couple, darn if I'd kept an eye out I could have had a little 200th day party. Well, will have to mark the occasion somehow today, and why not.
It's all just a bit too easy now - I'm waiting to be hit by an urge that goes beyond a flicker of remembrance once in a while but it's not coming. Not that I'm complaining.
Have you smoked at all in the last 2 weeks? NO I HAVE NOT
i love being asked that as i log in ha ha
well, definitely have my feet firmly in the soil of non-smoker land. I feel like a non-smoker, i love being one, that's the new identity, love being in control rather than at the mercy of cancer sticks
what's not sorting out is the discovery of how foul stale smoker's breath is. In the beginning i was all amazed at how strong the 'fresh from a smoke' odour was. Now, i find the stale smell on people's breath really putrid, ugh, its yucky! Ew i smelt like that? Nooooo!
had a great celebration of the half year mark, and have my eye on the prize of the one year breathday
New post - hello happiness!
its back, a warm little glow in my belly, that is called 'the happy'
coming up 6 months, might occasionally miss smoking but never crave it, if that makes sense - so am a far cry from actually ever doing it
the sun is out, everything is going beserk in Spring, summer just around the corner (argh i've done NO prep for Christmas), and life's prospects are good
telling my other half he has to take me out to dinner to celebrate - i dont think its going to happen ha ha
oh well, i'll find some way to mark the milestone
whew what a journey, but nobody promised it'd be easy
So much better
argh, thinking of smoking occasionally. But not cravings, more like 'missings', nothing i cant handle
just a pain. Cant expect to smoke for years and years and there be no pain. She'll be right
Not sure what, if any, assistance i might provide
by sharing some of my quit journey, but for what it's worth -
I really do feel like i've largely conquered the smoking addiction, its just a matter of staying quit
however, whether as a result of champix, or just sometimes life's a b****, I have been through a lot of struggles, emotionally/psychologically, since I quit
actually, I think perhaps its more life circumstances, and given I already have a predisposition for mental issues (anxiety/depression type), its not surprising really. Though if champix has a role, which seems to be the 'latest research', well i still think it has all been worth it!
i am on antidepressants and have taken myself off to see a clinical psychologist. Which has helped put the 'life circumstances' into perspective immensely! And thank goodness i dont smoke, because i'd never afford it otherwise ha ha
but whatever has been going on, no life has not been easy, and YET - here i am, still quit, and plotting how i shall celebrate the 6 month mark in a couple of weeks. Nothing has sent me back to the smoking. Ok, maybe i have other issues going on, that's ok - STILL NOT SMOKING!! Actually i even think that not-smoking has helped me address issues, because im not running away outside to puff away behind a smokescreen
life can be great or crappy, usually a bit of a mix. And smoking wont make a jot of difference to that. Im a non-smoker, and that's all there is to it. Now, back to this business of life.......
WHOA im nearly up to 150 days!
that's a lot of days! a LOT!
anybody early in their journey take heart, please take heart, you generally really count the early days, then next thing you know (and MUCH earlier than you'd think) you're not noticing how much time goes by
but of course one must always be vigilant. I could put a cigarette in my mouth right now and be hooked again. But my desire to be a non-smoker (I really enjoy *this* me) is stronger. This is the nature of the addiction - you can either win or lose, your choice
it is NICE being a non smoker
ah, but a cigarette would be nice. Just one hehe
damn stupid addiction, doesnt ever end. Is the way of things i guess
now i do wish my partner would quit, annoys me sometimes, mostly i dont care but sometimes i wish he'd get those damn things away from me so i wasnt reminded and have triggered a 'ah, but a cigarette would be nice' moment haha
Everyday is another day with smoking further behind me :)
I really feel quite 'over it', though of course I still think about it occasionally. This is for the long term, and really - cant really afford to be a smoker these days, and its not just about finances. Being a smoker is becoming a real oddity (I think, or maybe that's the non-smoker in me coming out!)
The resources on this site have been invaluable - probably because I was ready to take the advice etc onboard. I KNOW my riskiest time is 'escapism', and I still spot that, but its not a strong urge
Its all about STAYING QUIT now, yeehaww! Not my future, not part of my identity!
Well I cant wait two more sleeps, its party time!
hello FOUR MONTHS. Have done the 16 weeks, that's passed, but im coming up four calendar months
blows my mind
dont much feel celebratory in a needing to mark the milestone way, im eyeing up the six month mark actually :) And im feeling like my treat is the not smoking anyway
no i really didnt GET it when people said 'dont worry it gets easier!', a little hopeful part inside me held onto it, but its only once here that i can truly appreciate the truth of it - the addiction having less of a hold on me
last quit attempt i restarted at 4.5 months. Well, whatever, i no longer hold that up as a benchmark, this time is totally different, I expect that 4.5 months will tick by unnoticed (though always wary, the nicodemon lurks)