Don't know why but when I looked at my stats today I could really visualize the 80 packets of 30gms tobacco and 1758 tailor mades I haven't smoked since I quit. And best of all it didn't trigger any cravings, I just felt proud.
After previous attemps failed and 33 years (approx) of smoking I don't think I (or my friends) believed that I could quit.. but I did it. The turning point for me was realizing that it was a battle of the mind. Getting over the physical cravings was the easy part it was the psychological addiction that was my battle and I knew I was strong mentally. Each time I felt a craving I would sip my water and remind myself that I was strong, I could do this. So too are you strong. I know this because you have started this quit journey and that alone shows strength. And for those of you that are on your subsequent attempts that does not mean you lack strength, quite the opposite, because it takes great strength to shake off the previous try and give it another go. I hope this will help some of you on your journeys but best of luck to you all. Kia kaha, kia waimarie.
Ehara taku toa , he taki tahi, he toa taki tini
Thank you quitline and bloggers who helped make my latest atttempt a success.
I made it....my first breathday...woohoo
I knew my first year was coming up but I couldn't believe it when I logged in and discovered that today is one year exactly since I stopped smoking. It makes me quite emotional because I never thought I could do this. I have managed to beat that nicodemon despite some tough days and even more exciting have seen some friends quit as well. Thank you so much to quitline and to the wonderful bloggers on this site who were instrumental in getting me through the early days. I'm not sure if I could have done it otherwise. Reading the blogs helped distract me from the cravings, gave me strength and encouragement, so that now I can say after 34 years of smoking I AM A NON SMOKER (and I can't wait for that drop in my life insurance premium). Congrats also to my workmate who stopped at the same time and to all who are on this journey kia kaha, you can do it.
Woohoo 100 Days Smokefree
This time last year I couldn't even last an hour without a cigarette. Today I have been smokefree for 100 days. I look at this number with amazement but also with some pride....I'm doing it...I'm staying smokefree and I really do think that I can keep it up. Most days I don't even think of smoking unless it's to be thankful that I no longer have to dash out into the rain and/or cold to get my nicotine fix. I have learnt that the occasional urge is generally linked to the fact that I need a break. I'm still learning that I don't need an excuse (it's smoko time) to have a break. Just because I don't smoke it doesn't mean that I have to do the housework for 4 hours straight :) Apart from that I really feel like a non-smoker. I feel great and curiously I also feel my confidence in myself has improved.
Thanks everyone for your support and blogs as they have been instrumental in my journey. For those just beginning remember the 4 d's, stay strong, and keep logging in. The destination is well worth the sometimes difficult journey. It does get easier.
Congrats also to Oh to be me who also reached 100 days today.
It Does Get Easier
Just wanted to post for those at the beginning of their smokefree journey that it does get easier. I am on 79 days smokefree now and yes there were definitely hard days but the last two weeks have been awesome. I really feel like a non-smoker now and the rare cravings are easily pushed aside. I had my first game of hockey in the weekend and it was nice to not feel like collapsing to the ground after the first five minutes. I feel so much better health wise and my skin is looking the best it has in many many years. So hang in there everyone. Push through because it is so worth it.
Ps I had smoked for 34 years and for 30 of them I smoked about 25+ a day.
Not the easiest of days
Had a softball tournament all day today which you think would help keep me busy but 4 of the players smoke. One of the players had quit for nearly two weeks and has unfortunately started again. Even though I didn't really want one my mind was saying to me "look at her, she looks happy and relaxed. Just one wont hurt". It was quite a battle for the first hour or so but then I thought to sit where I couldn't see them smoke and surrounded myself with the non smokers. By the afternoon I could see them smoking and not want one but really showed me how easy it could be to go back to smoking. Stay strong everyone, it's not an easy journey that we are undertaking but the benefits are great. Hope you all had a good weekend.
Day 5 and a good day
Today has been a good day. Worked at the Rugby Sevens in an outside bar and despite having heaps of people coming up to the counter smoking I wasn't tempted at all. In fact I found myself holding my breath because I didn't like the smell. Then later on one of my colleagues asked me for a lighter. It felt really good to say "I don't smoke anymore". I have been very fortunate that I haven't at this stage found it too hard (my daughter thinks it because I can be quite determined when I want to be). I have been thinking of dropping down to the Level 2 patches but would love some advise from others; how long were you on the biggest patches and did you find it hard when you went down to the next size down. Hope everyone is having a great long weekend so far.
Day 2 has been a lot easier than yesterday and even that wasn't too bad but still very aware that I have to be strong. I'm finding that I don't actually want a smoke but my mind is hanging on to the old habits of when and where I smoked. Thanks so much to everyone for their posts as I have been reading them over the last few weeks and I think they have really helped prepare me and get me head in the right place to quit. Hope you all had a good day today.