Been a while
Logged on today for the first time in ages. Not because I was craving but just to see where I was up to.....201 days. I smoked for 15 years and most people that know me never thought I would quit, I seemed to enjoy it so much.
I wanted to say for those of you starting out and on your journey's that it does get easier. You break habits and you learn new ones and then there comes a point where you can't remember the old habits (like standing in the freezing cold outside a pub when other people are warm inside!).
I used the blogs a lot in the first couple of months. It helped me a lot when I wanted to talk about quitting and know other people were on my side.
I know my journey isn't over and there may be challenges in the future but I feel like I have broken the back of my addiction.
Good luck on your journey's!
When I started my quit journey I never imagined I would make it even a week, let alone 97 days!
It does get easier every day. I recently went through the horrible experience of my brother trying to commit suicide. I was the one that found him and then was the one that was there to go through legal and medical consultations following. One of the most stressful things in my life and boy did I think about smoking. But I managed to stay strong through it and didn't give in to the cravings. After that it feels like I can get through any stressful situation without cracking.
But I remember the wise words of people on here and family that have given up, that you must always remain vigilant as the cravings can sneak up on you!
I still use an electronic cigarette to get me through nights if I am drinking and there are smokers around me. It seems now that when I am drinking it's my e cigarette that I will think of instead of a real cigarette. It's just a puff of smoke with no nicotine but it tricks my brain into satisfying the cravings when I have been drinking. When I wake up after an evening of socialising and realise I haven't smoked again I want to give myself a high five!
I recently talked to a lovely taxi driver in Hamilton who told me he had given up a 40 a day for 50 year habit and had gone cold turkey. He said the first seven months were hell but it's saved his life. I loved the inspiration and told him he should share his story with as many people as possible!
So I'm looking forward to a smokefree future and wanted to say good luck to others on their journey. You really do stop thinking about it less and less!
Today is day 33 and I have still managed to not smoke but this weekend gone was possibly the hardest time I have had since the first few days!
I don't know if it was because there was so much going on with the Seven's and Waitangi Day but I had the serious cravings all weekend long and couldn't use the normal techniques to shake them. The cravings were so intense on Friday and Saturday that I had to lock myself in my room to stop any chance of me smoking and also to stop being horrible to other people!
I ended up deciding I had to come out of my room finally on Sunday and ended up having people round for drinks. The cravings were still there but I got out my electronic cigarette and used that. While it's a bit weird it did the trick! I didn't smoke anything and I had a fair few wines!
Then yesterday I went down to the gigs down on the waterfront and ended up sitting with about 10 people who were chain smoking. All I kept thinking was how unpleasant it smelled and how dirty the smoke made me feel! It was great to be out and around it and not want to smoke myself.
I'm pretty proud of myself for not caving when things were really hard but god I don't want to have feel like that again!
Day 26 : )
Today is day 26 and I feel strong in my resolve to quit! I have to say how much it has helped me come on here and read other people's experiences and the positive support from everyone!
I too have gone out and bought a skipping rope, not sure who started talking about that but I can see it had an impact on a lot of us! It's actually pretty enjoyable, although initially a little frustrating when I keep tripping on it!
I think the best thing about coming on here is that everyone is going through the same thing and are more than happy to talk about it! I have very supportive people around me but there is only so many times they want to have the conversation about every single symptom and craving I am having! Also for the ones that have never smoked or are still smoking they can't understand how bloody hard it is!
Still haven't had a really big night out yet, I bought the electronic cigarette so the first big night out I have if the cravings get really bad I will bust that out and use it as a psychological fix!
Again thanks for the all the blogs! It's great to know I am not going through this alone
Finally made the decision the day after my 30th birthday to quit. I have been smoking for 15 years and never tried to quit before.
I told myself I didn't really want to quit before, but in the back of my mind there were so many doubts that I could quit. I would tell myself that I would just fail if I tried and so it was easier to just keep smoking.
Prior to quitting I had managed over the last few years to get my habit down to one or two a day in the evening only. That is except when I'm drinking.... then I'm a chain smoker, easily going through a packet in a boozy evening. Unfortunately the boozing was happening a couple of times a week, boy the number of cigarettes add up when you are out two - three times for big nights.
I have opted to go cold turkey on the smoking as I manage to curb the cravings when I'm sober! It has also meant that I haven't had any boozy nights, I can't run the risk of a few too many wines and deciding to have 'just one cigarette'.
It was very tough the first week but it's getting easier every day. What I didn't count on was all the positive feelings I have started to have! I also didn't realise how much shame I was carrying around by continuing to smoke. I know all the health risks, how much it's costing me physically and financially and I still didn't want to do anything about it! Well I can tell you every time I resist the cravings I feel a little of my confidence returning to me!
I have today orderder an e cigarette without nicotine cartridges. I figure if I am out of a big evening and have the urge to smoke I will use the e-cigarette to give me the psychological fix that I need. I'm sure it will look a little strange but if it keeps me smoke free then I don't care how I look!