Stats Update: 62 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 62 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 496
Total savings: $397.50
Hope all my buddies are good!
Has been really tough lately for me. Very very stressed out with studies and work...just hate where i am right now. Think i have been crying for the last 13 years...i just dont know how to handle my feelings without cigarettes. I never really tried to handle it when i was smoking, whenever i was upset, i would just have a ciggie and have that instant relief...but now...just dont know what to do! anything that upsets me a little...there i am crying... Such a cry baby a become...
Ive called quitline and spoke to one of the lovely ladies, even though i have been strong enough not to smoke, we have decided that i should go back to the nicotine replacement to try and manage the emotional mess and cravings. Really did not want to put the nicodemon back into my body, but at least im not back to smokes. I just need this right now, until i finish my exams and can quit my job (which has been driving me nuts for the last 4 years!!!). 2 1/2 more months to go and i can be free!!!!
Feels good to say it!
I just hope im not one of those people that will always struggle with quitting smoking.
Sorry for the depressing blog guys...i just feel like you are the only ones that can really understand me...
Lots of love to you all!
Stats Update: 60 days smokefree
I forgot to post my stats yesterday!!!
It was really busy day...sorry guys...
Here it is now!
Smokefree days: 60 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 480
Total savings: $381.60
Just wanted to say thank you to everyone! Thank you for all the kind words and info about nicotine and its demons....its nice to know im normal...haha!
You guys are truly amazing!!! Xoo
Stats Update: 49 days smokefree
Smokefree days: 49 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 392
Total savings: $318.00
How are you all doing?
I havent posted for quite a while, but am always reading your blogs and getting inspired by your journeys...It seems like every time i start writing something happens and i have to stop and then when i come back to it the circunstances have changed and i have to start all over again...so this is one more try!
So...7 weeks for me! It really hasnt been a walk in the park... Its funny how much different the journey actually is from what i imagined it would be...not as hard but at the same time not as easy...
This is the most i've been quit in my life! (since I started smoking at 15years old) Amazing! And thats what keeps me going... I havent had many positives since i quit, i mean, i still feel very unfit, havent noticed any changes in my appearence or food tastes and all of these small changes you are supposed to see you know? I thought that by now i wouldnt even be thinking about ciggies anymore and wouldnt be missing it. Dont get me wrong! Going back to being a smoker is NOTa possibility! That doesnt cross my mind...ever! But i just wish i'd be happier about the situation. I think i have become the grumpiest person in the world! Either that or people around me are incredibly annoying...(which could actually be true!!!haha). Im not always grumpy...is ups and downs, sometimes im happy and then something happens and out of nowhere i get reeeeeaaalllyy angry! I can feel all the blood from my body just rushing to my head and i just wanna punch someone! And then comes the down...when i just feel like crying... I dont think i've ever cried this much in my life!!!! I have become so sensitive to everything! Its so weird managing all of those emotions! I really dont know whats happening to me...its quite sad...
On week 6 i had the stupidest idea of starting to use the patches every other day. Started the first day and then thought: well, the nicotine is out of my system now, so should i really use the patch tomorrow? N decided to just stop using it. Oh boy...was i wrong?!! Its been a whole week with no patches now, and i have never felt this low...i really dont know what to do... I dont know if its my life that Is just falling apart and i should be feeling like this, or if im just over reacting because of these emotional changes in my body. I am trying to fight it, i have joined the gym, been working out a lot and trying to fill my time with fun things....but i just feel so lonely...
Sorry guys, i just really needed to vent, i know its a long blog...Pls dont feel like you have to read it...
Hope everyone is doing ok!!!! Lots of luv to you all!
4 weeks!!! Wow! It went by really fast!
Smokefree days: 28 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 224
Total savings: $190.80
Cant believe its already been 4 weeks! Very proud of myself today!
Will pop in later to write a decent blog, just wanted to share my joy with everyone!!!
Newbies! Congrats n your decision! And BELIEVE it does get better!!! And to all my buddies: congrats for being such a huge inspiration! I love reading your blogs and find thatit helps a lot!!! Thank you!
To Jules and ImaQuitter
Hey buddies! I havent seen you 2 here for a while, just wondering if you are both ok... Hope you are still strong and smokefree! If not, come say hello anyways...missing you guys :)
3 weeks!!! Woohoo!!!
Smokefree days: 21 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 168
Total savings: $143.10
cant believe its been 3 weeks! Very prout of myself today!!! :)
Hope you all have a great day!!!
To all my buddies: thanks for all the support! Wouldnt have made it this far without you guys!
And to all newbies: hang in there!!! Its totally worth it! It does get better with time!
Off to work now...
Still alive...and smokefree!!!
Smokefree days: 19 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 152
Total savings: $127.20
Sorry I havent checked in in the last few days. I have been reading your blogs every now and then and tried to make comments whenever I could. Im very proud of all of you in staying strong and smokefree!!! And hope you all had a great long weekend. I havent had a chance to talk to the newbies, so just wanted to say hi and welcome to the best support group!!!
Well, i didnt get a chance to do much during the long weekend. As i said in my last post, i got a sore throat, which developed to a pretty bad infection...it sux!!! Been moving from couch to bed and then couch...since friday and havent stepped a foot outside. The antibiotics seem to be working, but in a very slow rate, so i might have to see a doctor tomorrow.
The positive from this is that i havent had energy even to think about smoking. I didnt even use the patches for a few nights (because it was making me have too many dreams and some nightmares) and had no problems. Of course with all the spare time at home (and alone), i thought about having a cigarette a few times, but i cant really say it was as bad as a crave...just a thought!
Its nice to see that it does get better with time :)
Cant wait to feel better and start a much healthier routine! And hopefully start doing some exercise...its about time!
Sending lots of love to you all!!!
In the past 2 weeks ive seen a few blogs of you guys saying that you were getting sick more often after quitting or things like that...and i would think: i feel fine, great in fact, i wont get sick....nah...ill be fine!
But now, here i am...sick as a dog, just out of the blue! Cant believe it! Just wanna crawl back into bed and sleep all day, but im going to attempt work and see how it goes...
The worse thing is that i always thought the sore throats i had was related to smoking, but aparently not! I feel so much less guilty now!!! Dont worry guys, i wont go back to smokes because i know that...
Well, i guess my body is just in shock with the change...let it be! If it has to be this way then so be it!
Have a great day guys!!!
One day at a time
Smokefree days: 14 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 112
Total savings: $95.40